kolee the practicalsaint

How our lives are made up of what we do each day!

Fri, 18 Aug 2023 17:08:31 GMT

Greetings beautiful saints,

This week’s live chat held in the USoL Clubhouse app room, aka the “Pratteling prelude to war,” we touched on a couple of ideas that actually all came together in a neat little bundle basically dealing with:

Physical labor/action with awareness as based 3D divine Beings ends up being really practical saint stuff,
Keeping solid 3D objects as a record of living/past actions- also known as hoarding, is both a way to be “on the record” with what we did actually manage to put effort or action into and is also basic 3D living which keeps us basic and wandering/frustrated, and
Getting outside the work/life circle and including others in our life means redefining “creation” as creating enjoyable memories AND creating solid stuff to benefit the whole in order to feel truly fulfilled.

Let’s dig in shall we :)

Action with awareness

I have Gypsy blood. My mother’s family came from a Bohemian area in then called Czechoslovakia- literally gypsy land, my family were among the europeans who got on the boat and came to good ole USA. My mother’s family landed in Nebraka and endured farmer/plain life in the early 1900’s, my father’s family originating from Viking culture came across on the Oregon Trail and settled the West in Idaho. We’re traveling folk.

I’ve had 5 different schools plus some college and lived in over 13 houses up and down the west coast and into the ozarks before I moved out at age 17. After I became master of my own household I’ve lived in at least 10 other houses, mostly all of them with my name on the lease/title. You could say I'm programmed to not hold on to stuff in order to hold onto to memories or remind myself what I’ve created in the past.

In the same vein as keeping old stuff around to remind of the past we keep old locations /routines in place just as a lazy brain easy pathway type thing. When we act with awareness and wholistic intentions (reborn ego running the show instead of outdated old ego) we almost automatically become the opposite of hoarders. We easily let go of yesteryears’ stuff to stay present and enjoy advancements and our accomplishments.

This can be seen and felt on the global stage in terms of never-ending wars over resources and boundaries, our medical, scientific, and technological advancements, and our education systems which feed the outdated and useless memorized information of the past story.

Getting rid of dirt, stuff, memories, and bugs

As practicalsaints and united saints of love and aware human Beings, we are ready to let go of the old to make room for the next. We create the infrastructures at home with our own personal lives first then it ripples out to the whole of consciousness- see :) I know we are all doing it and I want to say thank you from my whole Being for reading this and caring and being a part of my world and allowing me to be a part of yours.

If you feel free and giddy about the days ahead, awesome sauce for you, and keep going, thousands of lives are depending on YOU to stand strong and enjoy the ride. If you do not feel quite so free and light, it may be time to do some inventory and do something different to get different results. One of my favorite sales mottos was, “nothing changes until something changes.” See it’s when one has an issue (cognitive dissonance) with the present, one must change the present actions so the ‘future’ can change-here there are no judgments, only observations, and if one isn’t happy with the results - change the action for the god within’s sake!

In the monday talk, we spoke about taking action and seeing the blocks and hurdles on our path which we can either look at as blockades and give up or we can feel the fear and do it anyway. This 3D earth is full of dirt, stuff, memories, and bugs. It is a training ground for transcending basic 3D thinking into based 3D living where we do not give a rat’s tail rip about how others perceive our process or results. We start from a base of being safe, kind, and respectful, not hurting ourself or others, and if we make a mess- we clean it up right away, and from here it doesn’t matter what others think. We each need to stay busy with managing and living our own life not meddling and judging each other’s. We then matter to our own life, we are empowered and powerful, and from our empowered overflow, we can then be powerful friends, neighbors, family, community members, etc.

“Humans just need to matter” - Phil recounted a story of a small town of about 800 population with a decent budget who refuse to work together and hold onto petty stuff leading to suffering and frustration for all involved- we are those town members when we cannot see through the woods and include the well-being of the entire forest. If we are not aware of our insights and inner guidance, we do not ever grow mature enough to trust ourselves to respond quickly and correctly to each and every situation at hand- we stay stuck. When we are stuck we feel powerless and puny. We then shy away from true commitment and long-term connection in creating something amazing. To assuage this insecurity and frustration, we latch onto the most petty and insignificant “matters” to feel powerful and significant again.

These are the critical/judgemental folks who criticize instead of jump in and ‘just do it.’

You see, when we aren't capable of connecting or creating- we blame and complain, it’s the ole victimhood instead of responsibility model. It’s super easy to fall into this cycle, and the only way I’ve found out of it, is to let go let go let go (of whatever I can in order to stay in the present) and whatever is right and correct and healthy and vital will stay. The benefit of now never dies off when we get rid of an item or idea or person, because the benefit of now is eternal when we are aligned and integrated with the beneficial source.

It’s the whole lack mentality and insecurity shtick which contributes to hoarding or holding on to stuff and ideas and memories which do not currently serve or even reflect the Being we are in the now.

When we live in abundance and confidence, based on real life experience and experiments, we easily let go of outdated ideas and possessions to continue to expand or flow with (woowoo alert) the cosmic force/source we’re all a part.

Sometimes, a huge overhaul is necessary, sometimes all it takes is a couple of minor tweaks in an area or two which add up to massive change and we already feel back in the saddle and ready to ride.

Defining committed and creative communities

Once we are brave enough to do something different to get different results from what we’ve previously created, we have some blanks to fill in. We now are in the position to create a whole new life based on new habits, patterns, awareness, and actions.

Participating IN the memories IS what “life” is all about, hence, “our lives are made up of what we do each day.”

THIS is what co-creative friendship/aka community is!

Not only do humans just want to matter, we also want to be valuable to the whole and offer the overflow of our intentionally created/curated life with others.

Enter the Inner circle theory- yes, I made this one up :) What is an inner circle? Why is it so important at this moment in space and time? If we are doing the much-dedicated work of culling and prioritizing how and with who we spend our time, money, and energy (love) - it’s muy importante to invest our 100% devotion with others who are 100% devoted as well.

I’ve come to distill the inner circle definition as this:

“An inner circle member is one who is 100% committed to the circle’s wholistic wellbeing.”

This defines that an inner circle member is both 100% committed to being IN the circle and part OF the circle, and all actions are intended to bless and benefit both the sovereign one and the sovereign whole with abundance, well-being, and wholistic prosperity.

Talking about making memories and making memories are different!

Talking about plans one could take with another is different from actually taking the action.

It’s exhausting to be all talk and procrastinate taking the action itself. In the end it mostly always ends up being a bit easier and more enjoyable than we forecasted anyway and if it is as hard as we thought it would be, at least it mostly always ends up being very worth the effort. I’ve also seen how we use the same, if not more, energy on the thinking and planning and worrying and forecasting the thing as we use to just do the thing and see what needs to be tweaked and refined as we continue working with the thing we created.

It’s the whole learn/do/learn/do model and we’re in a time where all the training is adding up to one big message: THE TIME IS NOW! This is literally what we (the healers, light-workers, shadow workers, therapists, shamans, guides, seers, etc., and bla bla bla -whatever label works is fine here) have been training for and it’s time to trust our inner Being, our original essence, and follow the “next indicated step,” which may be to do nothing or to do something- the point is to put all this training and effort to use in an expanded way in order to not only protect ourselves but also to enhance the experience for millions of other earthlings right now in 2023.

By accepting ourselves as powerful and worthy and ready, we indeed are.

However, if we don’t- we aren’t.

We can do ANYTHING we want with our time/lives, with who we want, when we want- and then we just don’t make commitments we do not intend on following through prioritizing. We set clear terms with others on what we can and will do and in turn hold our own time, money, and energy/love as sovereign and do not engage it with those who are not 100% committed and capable of co-creation with us (when creating life with another, obviously we spend or give our time energy, and love on those who are not part of the inner circle, but as overflow not part of creating it with another;)

After taking such big leaps of action with awareness and cleaning out the old shit, what could possibly stop us from creating and co-creating enjoyable memories with others?

Distraction. Hello distraction, we see you, we love you, we thank you for your service of not getting too attached to things, places, and ideas when we were less mature and aware.

We’re mature responsible adults now, you can leave- we got it from here ;)

As mature responsible, committed, and capable Beings, we take 100% responsibility for our actions, thoughts, and words and no longer have the luxury of excuses, old stories, or blame to fall back on. At first, it seems horrible to be 100% responsible (having the duty to respond and being able to respond) for our lives, and then the sun gently streams in with its lovely golden light and birds merrily chirp away and butterflies float around.

Ok, maybe it doesn’t feel this grand yet, honestly though, there is no greater joy than knowing we are 100% in charge of our life.

Blame is probably the greatest distraction human beings have come up with to cope in this rapidly changing consciousness. Blaming does “scratch the itch,” but it also “spreads it around” - it’s a poison which kills progress. This blame shit doesn’t fly in an inner circle or community where there is real stuff being created/co-created. Blame and benefit are like oil and water, they just don’t mix well.

Committing to ones self first is key. One can only commit to others well being after their own is completely taken care of. This is the love yourself like you love god and love others like you love yourself idea. In an inner circle dynamic, each one in the circle is 100% committed and capable of caring for their own Being and from this overflow, it is freely shared with the circle in whatever beneficial means is called for at the time.

Each member is confident in their own wellbeing and confident their membership to the circle is of value to every other circle member. Whether the circle is 5 people or 500, it takes EVERY SINGLE BEING to be 100%.

Why is a circle even needed?

Well, I would say ‘times are tough’

-in general :)

And by standing strong with a trusted inner circle, we are clearly stronger. You can do it alone, I have, and over the years I’ve learned to do it as a team and I love my team. There are many layers to a community, and what we get to do over the next several decades on earth is team up with like-minded players who know our weaknesses and love us for them AND add value to the whole team by supporting the strengths we have as well!

Confident Leaders are an integral part of the inner circle dynamic. In order to shine bright in our natural skills and experiential wisdom, we need to feel safe in order to expose our divine essence. We need to be confident enough in our own abilities so we do not tear down other’s skills and abilities, or pounce on others’ weak spots so we can feel stronger or brighter. When we are truly confident, which comes from experience and integrating outer validation with inner knowing, we can remain servants without recognition. This authentic confidence eliminates competition and comparison - again the more secure one is the less needy one is for recognition or keeping “stuff” around to remind ‘what we’ve accomplished.’

A fun united saints of love law we made up on monday was that all members need to experience all jobs of the community at some point. To truly appreciate and be able to relate to all members, thus holding the commitment to the whole circle’s wellbeing, we need to ‘walk a mile in each other’s shoes.’ I’m a ‘in the trenches’ type leader who enjoys getting in the muck with the krew and being a part of the action, this is inner circle thinking which leads to real respect, endearment, and commitment. We value the people, places, and things we spend time, money, and energy/love on.

The more we spend our lives being involved with our dear power circle, the more enjoyable life becomes- even doing the hard things we get to do from time to time;)

Every inner circle member is a confident leader and leads to a dynamic where all members are aware of many many wormholes and dimensions including:

Learning to enjoy the suffering as an art and adapting to all situations with awareness and empathy,
Learning to be board or sit with tension holding awareness to move forward with creative and fresh actions,
Sitting and staring/staring into the static both holds suffering as an art as well as harnessing the bored feeling into creative action through conscious awareness and discipline, and
Making it a daily practice to let go of physical stuff, mental stuff, emotional stuff, any and all stuff which would cause the whole circle to suffer unnecessarily.
And as always, an inner circle remembers that our lives are made up of what we do each day :)

I hope this rambling recap about creating the life we want and sharing it with those who are equally committed to creating the same resonates at some level and maybe inspires new thoughts or actions- maybe you will even jump in some monday to co-create the next conversation :)

see you around saints! k

Extra credit- just some ‘Show Synchronicities’ to enjoy:

I started watching the Bee Movie before the show and my alarm went off for USoL - we talked in our USoL talk- we ended with Phil going to kill the ants and kolee going to watch the rest of the Bee Movie :)

kolee watched Big Top Pee-Wee over the weekend, Phil did a Pee-Wee impression during the show before being told about the Pee-Wee movie.

Phil is getting a watch, kolee said earlier in the day (or the day before) “it’s time to get a watch,” and imagined what it would look like to wear a watch ( Phil repeated the line in the aforementioned Pee-Wee voice)

Good times,

Listen in and or add your voice into the weekly clubhouse convos monday 6p pacific usa time if you dare ;)

Why the next world war is a holy war!

Thu, 10 Aug 2023 00:42:10 GMT

kolee was especially angsty this first week of august 2023- how are you holding up?

The 77 minute United Saints of Love talk recorded live 8/7/23, was lots of righteous anger with authentic care, mixed in with a little pity party, and talking kolee off the ledge of resignation and despair.

With all which was said, on and off the record, clarity is charging in on a white horse this fine 8-8 gate 2023. Here we are people, love and light is boss and we gonna need to flex and use our power and might to transmute this shit now- today. Here are the main points I’ve been realizing lately:

We on earth have always been shifting and evolving what we do but not so much how we think and respond

It’s time to balance out the scales and add some passion and righteous anger to our actions. We can no longer pretend all is well as is. Yes, we’re all perfect living in imperfect conditions, but the imperfectness is to a point where we can no longer imagine away the concrete results of these horrific conditions.

Which conditions you may ask? Well, to start- the broken tax system which bleeds working families and individuals dry while the billionaires pay nothing. The broken education system which is teaching old fashioned and outdated curriculum and cannot keep up with current data- a system where memorization is taught instead of how to research data and apply the findings in logical ways based on experimentation and tweaking results. The broken medical systems where poor people do not receive the same treatment as rich ones. The food systems which systematically destroy our life force and vitality on the regular. The broken housing system which has fucked americans so hard, hundred of thousands are without actual modern ‘housing’ and hundreds of millions usa citizens alone are housing insecure- I could go on, but these are great starting blocks.

This is OUR LIFE people! It’s being fucked with majorly, the problem isn’t with surveillance and algorithms, it’s with old sick almost dead consciousness of greed and protective ego (wrapped up in old almost dead bodies) running the show which are killing our souls and bodies quickly. Maybe we all need to die out in order to come back around and begin again- I’m not sure.

I’d rather stay on earth and work from the form I’m in currently I suppose, so as a means to transfigure this sitch, “All hands on deck!” This is what we’ve been training for people.

We are trained holy soldiers ready for battle, and ready/capable to respond. We need to be ready anyway, cuz the tidal wave is here now and we’re either going to be the wave or be crushed by it. It’s time to take a direct and bold stand on what we will and will not put up with- are and are not ok with- set thick boundaries and protect them at any cost. SPEAK UP and SAY something as we see things! It’s ok to have uncomfortable conversations people, we actually MUST have uncomfortable conversations in order to get to the miracle zone. “The miracle zone is just beyond the comfort zone.” mmmkay.

World war 3 is now- how will we respond

War can arguably be one of the oldest tactics known to humans on planet earth. Has it worked? Can it work? Is it necessary? I’ve grown up in a Barbie and GI Joe culture- where war and heroism go hand in hand. It’s been glamorized and romanticized beyond recognition. Over time, I realized war was a really long term solution of constant threat and control designed to keep the tiny earthlings in line.

Enter Oppenheimer, enter Barbie- we’re baaaaack baby! The war programming is back on the main stage BIGTIME 2023 showing human equality (also how we all can be heroes and fight in a war) and how nuclear bombs aren’t so bad after all. I admittedly have not seen either of these movies yet, but my two sons, aged 14 and 20, have- of course ;)

I used to not be ‘for war’ as a means to “get along.” Lately, I’m not so sure. The holy beast is waking up and saying no more. No more division, no more bullying, no more misinformation. The beast inside all us is rousing and ready to pounce for freedom.

Yes, war brings destruction and death and endings, and isn’t that what earth actually needs to undo the cluster fuck of sad outdated and broken systems keeping earthlings enslaved as a race?

We (humans of earth) are already experiencing tragedy and death and suffering, maybe it’s time to intentionally feel the pain of shifting so we can enjoy the freedom we create through intentional endings.

Making a 500 year plan is fine - ditch the short term gain for long term transformation

I’ve been avoiding confrontation and aggression and it’s time to stop - time is now.

The time is now to initiate courteous and straight forward direct conversations on all fronts with all clases, colors, regions, groups, etc - all hands on deck.

Let us each ditch the self righteous bullshit, fear ye not of our own anger and passion, and resolve to realize what’s working and what is not- and fix this shit already.

I just found out whilst working on this post, that china already has a hundred year plan ! Did you smart ones already know this, I bet you did ;) I’m always a little slow - and this is ok- it is time though we all know this stuff, so thank you for being gracious with me; I’ll be gracious with you too ;)

SO other countries are already making long term plans to benefit or at least subdue its citizens/other global citezens entirely AND united states of america are fighting among our own 48 or 50 states- fuck me.

I literally cannot wait for a full on alien take over where humans need to stick together to literally survive - world war WE . I don’t know if this will occur in our shared group dream but it is definitely a thing in my own personal dream state I assure you :)

Letting long term thinking guide the every day actions we take is an extremely beneficial practice which does not just magically pop into being without first properly creating correct conditions to create the thing in the first place!

This is ultimately why The United Saints of Love was created in 2023. It’s a starting point, and I’m willing to contribute to it in any way, shape, and form I’m able. I’m willing to continue learning growing showing up working in the trenches, riding buses and flying on planes- here we are people and we are ready to show up for ourselves, others and the unseen ones- namaste.

PS join the convo (if you dare) in the weekly United Saints of Love clubhouse room and add your voice and presence monday nights 6p pacific - some shows make the practicalsaints talk show podcast, most are available on replay on the clubhouse app and the only real way to hear the whole thing is to join live each monday :)

PSS if you want the recap of, “so what happened was…” of the backstory of getting booted out of the "preservation of the human race" room in clubhouse app mentioned in the USoL talk - here it is (posted originally on instagram):

" So what happened was,

This is a clubhouse house i am a member of and mildly/mostly agree with lots of the core values of the founder from what I’ve been able to ascertain over the past year or so listening to the banter presented and lots I do not vibe with - I’m obsessed with really aiming to find the logic in the division the group mostly advocates for!?!?

I honestly cannot recall what the original title of the room was which I found interesting and when I went in they started talking about how they had been “shadow banned” based on their child sacrifice talks then launched in to “alphabet train people,” “skittle group,” and “rainbow club” people and how they added a “P” and and “S” at the end for pedophiles and satanists.

I’m not fucking kidding, the PRESERVATION OF THE HUMAN RACE clubhouse room was bashing groups in the name of saving the human race! WOW just wow.

It was at this point in the dissertation I chatted, “rainbow dick and rainbow pussy unite.”

They continued blabbing about child sacrifice and how horrible and sick everyone but the mods of the group were and I continued chatting my thoughts on each ridiculously divisive and shallow and basic plot line they brought up- then I raised my hand just to ask how many of the mods speaking so fervently about saving the children actually had children themselves (just curious).

One mod went back to read the chat comments and asked me why I said rainbow dick and rainbow pussy unite- what is a rainbow dick and pussy? I was like, “do you really wanna know?” and he was like, “yeah i wanna know or I wouldn’t have asked.”

SO I told what a rainbow dick was first - a rainbow dick is a person with a dick who realizes the wholeness of his Being- from dick to crown to soles of feet to 6 feet around his body to his family to his community to the whole cosmos he is a part…

…then I realized I had been booted off the stage so I couldn’t talk anymore lmao (it’s the same for a rainbow pussy but with a pussy insteada dick btw in case you are wondering too ;)

The fact this concept of wholeness is threatening enough to boot me is exactly the harmful consciousness dying fast and furious as we (those who can and will) expand through the outdated broken divided consciousness into infinite united cosmic wholeness in order to realize heaven, heaven on earth, a new earth, our own private planet, our personal heaven, nirvana, etc., which IS our selves uniting with our own self first, then with others who are wholly integrated and united in their own Being, and as we all do this- we all begin to form hives and communities where sovereignty and unity reign. Dualism dissolves, and we realize good and bad are one, just from different perspectives. God and Satan are one, becuase there is only one power, one source from which all is from. Bla bla bla and on and on, you know what I’m talking about but I guess many still do not have any sort of clue yet (head pat and sad face in a patronizing and sarcastic way ;)

Anyway, after they booted me a comrade named deviant sex or something like that started chatting in my same vein and they “burnt the room down,” they terminated their room because they didn’t want to deal with different perspectives other than hating the “thems” which did not agree with the mods of this room who were speaking religious zealot talk, who hate abortion and do nothing to support unwanted children and deal with the broken systems which these children are born into, hate gays and queers and group the rainbows in with pedophiles and satanists, hate child sacrifice and would not look at how most all our systems are designed to “sacrifice our children,” like education, food, music, etc.

Preservation of the human race will not happen with a Basic 3D mindset, it can only occur through Based 3D Being.

So thank YOU for being a 3D based Being and fucking up the system with the all powerful uncondtioned LOVE :)

ps join united saint of love in our weekly clubhouse room to talk more about these and any other topic which is ready to be exposed to some light air and source love :)

Link in @practicalsaint

PSS Here are the questions and take aways kolee rattled off in the USoL talk - take some time to contemplate and articulate a now response to these questions and even reply to kolee@essentailmind.me if you wish - I’d love to hear from you - I’m a real person, living a real life as best as I can along side you each day:

How do I wanna spend my time

How do I wanna spend my money

How do I wanna use my energy (love)

Who do I wanna spend my money time and energy (love) with

How do I wanna make time money n love

How do i differentiate between friendly terms v co-operative ones

I know this is absurd but I only wanna spend money time and effort/energy/love with people co creating with me - no wait- this is fine. What I need to release is a preconceived/contrived perspective/idea/condition/limitation of what this “co-creation” is .

Just being around imaginative and creative and open -minded Beings co-creates more imagination creation and consciousness so like what the fuck is my problem? Why am I still gripping onto ideas- o yeah now i remember - I’m actually planning it to be done and others are planning it to hear themselves talk about it ;) got it. k

Brought up by the krew:

“Demystify the woo”

“Indie 500 with a broken bus”

“Continually edit dilutions”

“Pick your battles’

“Tired of the duality”

“Everyone goes back and forth all day every day”

“It’s never gonna be done- paradigm never shifts- always changing”

“Yes! Let’s lose the short term gain for a long term plan”

See you around saints, this kolee out

xxxoo kolee

5 reasons to indulge in porn without guilt or shame and desperation.

Wed, 02 Aug 2023 14:55:03 GMT

This week’s topic is inspired by the live unrecorded conversation held July 31, 2023 in the United Saints of Love clubhouse room . We never know what exactly will show itself during these talks, and all topics are welcomed in order to transmute the stinky shit of humanity into glitter fairy poo- practically ;)

This talk, among most all talks held in this sacred space, about porn leads to several key inquiries we can all contemplate this week as a way to continue expanding our collective unity consciousness and benefit our entire Beings.

As a mother of 5 sons, ages 26-9 currently, and a fellow sex curious Being as long as I can remember, I’ve dealt with porn many ways and have come to several conclusions I will share here.

DISCLAIMER

Although these insights were inspired by a group convo, as always, the following are all kolee Hemenway’s current thoughts and feeling regarding this topic- are subject to change at any time and always within the context of: be safe, be kind, be respectful, don’t hurt anyone or anything, if you make a mess- clean it up right away. kolee n krew, www.essentialmind.me, United Saints of Love, and all other affiliated organizations do not promote, condone, or accept sex trafficking, human trafficking, nonconsensual sexual acts, and or under-age sex/porn in way shape or form.

All this said, let’s get into the 5 reasons porn could be used beneficially in the expanded unity consciousness we are a part.

It allows us to be curious without participating in the act we’re interested in
It allows us a fantasy path without harming another or ourselves
It can be used to boost our mood and harness sex magic for ourselves
It allows us to transcend cultural taboos and break out of conditioning
It can assist in breaking the guilt/shame/blame game when we realize we’re not alone

Pornography is defined in miriam-webster dictionary as - “ depiction of erotic behavior (as in pictures or writing) intended to cause sexual excitement .” Traditionally porn is tied to media (therefore technology) however depictions of erotic behavior predate recorded media forms as expressed in ‘non-recorded open to observers’ as in sex parties, orgies, stripper joints, and other sexual expressions designed to get the ole sex imagination juices flowing.

In our talk, we touched on the pain of separation and lack of intimacy when using porn as the primary sexual experience, however since one of my missions on earth is to obliterate the shame, guilt, and blame cycles we’re gonna put a thoughtful spin on the use of porn and see if we can’t transcend the limited beliefs and judgments on one of the oldest and most powerful gates into the human psyche.

Here we go. If you don’t agree with some or all these points, please take some moments to ask yourself why. Ask yourself if you are truly interested in being at one with all the cosmos and if yes, how can these contemplations support loosening the grip of blame, shame, and guilt within our own lives and ripple out to relieve billions of other souls on planet earth today as well.

Porn allows us to be curious without participating in the act we’re interested in

First, let me say I am grateful for porn industry professionals who dedicate their lives to exiting the misguided notion that sex is bad or taboo, or not healthy to talk about or give priority to. Professionals in any industry can be appreciated, even when we do not agree with the overall message, and I deeply appreciate sex workers in all capacities. Showing fresh unique sex moves, staying healthy and fit, and being brave while inspiring others to do something different is respectable- so thank you sex workers.

With the commonly accepted oldest porn around on film being 1896 , we realize humans and porn go together like bread and butter- we like it- we like it a lot. If humans like it so much, why has porn been so demonized and harshly judged? I suspect it has to do with the rampant addiction to blame, shame, and guilt we love to roll around in as human adults.

Pornography is just like any other indulgence, it tastes good so we do it more, then we need more to get the same high, then we need to twist it to incorporate guilt and shame in order to really fill the addiction hole. It’s a process.

What if we just enjoyed porn for what it is and led healthy balanced lives which included sex, food, intimacy, community, contemplations, insights, and breakthroughs? Most humans cannot do this balanced life thing so well yet, so we get twisted results. However, if matured adults could openly view porn, get sexually stimulated, and carry this energy of creation into the other balanced parts of our lives- how much better off could the world be? I say we would all be much better off.

How much better would it be if when we’re curious to experience any act, we could “research” it and experience it through learning and observing instead of going ‘balls deep’ and doing the thing right away? We do research all the time before we dive into a project, why in the world is it different with sex? Seriously, lighten up people, ditch the shame and guilt, and have fun being a curious Being. Spice up your current sex life (alone or with others) by researching some stuff and seeing what gets us juiced up. It may be frightening if we get turned on by animals or relatives or same-sexed humans but at least we can accept our curiosity as normal and healthy instead of allowing the feelings to harbor shame and repression.

“We’re only as sick as our secrets,” the age-old alcoholic anonymous adage goes. When we can admit to ourselves we’re curious about anything, be it sexual in nature or otherwise, we instantly feel relief and gain clarity into the why of the interest. When interest is acknowledged openly, to ourself at least, it either goes away or we realize we want it in our lives longer. Either way, repression is kept at bay and we release shame, guilt, and blame and are empowered to check out different things and stay fresh and alive.

Porn allows us a fantasy path without harming another or ourselves

Similar to the first reason, after we’ve initially ‘done our research’ with awareness and harmlessness, porn can actually be therapeutic. There I said it, porn can be therapeutic. A host of therapies previously counted as harmful substances and practices have now been recognized worldwide as effective and legitimate tools. In this same vein, pornography can be used as a beneficial tool to really work it out with your self without involving other humans (i.e. feelings, emotions, reactions, and other egoic responses we’re likely to encounter when working with other humans).

This being said, I do not advocate we stay here forever. Using porn as a path to personal healing can only take us so far, as can other therapy modalities- eventually, we need to expand our boundaries and include other humans if we are to grow and become ‘unconsciously competent’ in any area of our lives.

The messiness of other human responses or judgments/opinions causes a lot of us anxiety and uncertainty, coupled with the already messy and sticky topic of sex equals inhibitions and super anxiety! All this does not add up to relaxation and contemplation or awareness as we delve into sexual intimacy, so using porn privately could be a great way to explore without fear of others' reactions.

Although creating this private sacred space to explore sex can be useful, it will not be so if what we are watching or reading is advocating nonconsensual harm. We cannot ‘do no harm’ while indulging in harmful porn. Harmful meaning nonconsensual causing harm to self, others, and our relationship with the divine/unseen ones. We cannot separate the humans who produce sex porn from the humans we know and love. If we get off watching someone get raped, yes this is better than going out and doing the rape ourselves, HOWEVER, in this piece, we are looking at consensual adult sex and the benefits of viewing sex acts created by consenting adult participants and not glorifying acts which have clearly caused harm to many people on earth. It’s ok to like pain, it is not okay to cause others to feel pain when they do not want it. The twisted sex view is only brought into existence in the first place because of all the repression and avoidance of sexual arousal and acts, so the point here is to let go of archaic beliefs built on conformity and control.

Maybe you like watching other people have sex but haven’t been comfortable enough yet to open up to real humans who enjoy you watching them, so you watch it on a porn video- boom- mission accomplished. We indulged our fantasy of watching without having the watched ones have sex in our physical presence. This is just a tool remember, so hopefully one can get comfortable privately and then if it feels beneficial to continue with, we can do so with other consenting adults and have some fun in bodies with others now that we’re more comfortable with our own desires and quirks.

Porn can be used to boost our mood and harness sex magic for ourselves

In this current planet matrix, we are exposed to billions of beliefs, ideas, issues, and actions. It can be overwhelming to decipher between bullshit and benefit. If we are truly on a path of realization, one of the most potent and effective forms of harnessing and transmuting energies comes from sex magik. In real-time, with 2 or more adults present, emotions run high when sex is added into the mix which can inhibit introspective and mindful actions. This is where porn can also be beneficial to us at times.

When we are singularly focused on harnessing infinite sexual power, we really can create anything we desire. Instead of creating a baby with someone else, wouldn’t it be awesome cool to create dreams, initiatives, and solid structures through the act of sex? The problem is we’re not so experienced with this form of creation yet as a human species and we need to have some alone time to work on it before we bring its vast power of creation out into the world with other people. Enter porn. While I do not advocate using porn exclusively for the purpose of this point or any other point presented in this piece, it is a starting block and one I feel deserves recognition.

Sometimes we just feel down, instead of reaching for a sugary treat or an alcoholic beverage or even smoking a joint, consider rubbing one out instead. Do it with intention and awareness. Read articles, books, watch videos on tantric sex, sex magic, and any other energetic manifestation tool where sex and sex energies are used - then put it to practice with yourself first. If one needs a bit of support to get going from porn- by all means - use it. Let’s get this party started, shall we :)

I learned how to astrally project a few years ago, and using this same technique of breathing back and forth between our main energy centers of the body is the same basic technique used to harness sex power and ‘ nut up the spine ’ and can be used alone and with other conscious Beings, it isn’t rocket science yet it does require a degree of precision and attunement- so go easy and enjoy the ride. Connect with a sex positive professional at any point for extra support on this wholistic sensual journey.

Sex is a freeing and enjoyable experience when given the correct conditions, it’s time we take the power back and transmute it into something beautiful and beneficial. All this being said, like any other point, don’t get stuck here. Have the courage to engage with other consenting adult humans and see what you can create together.

Porn allows us to transcend cultural taboos and break out of conditioning

Back in the day (and I mean today still in many circles) sex is defined as 2 adults, one male, the other female, and is used as a means of procreation- to make more humans and keep the species (and religions/governments) alive and well. Boooooooooooooooo. This definition sucks and needs to be most heroically redefined, which can only happen as we (personally) realize not only how sacred the act of sex actually is but how vast and diverse, and interesting sex can actually be!

When we engage with pornography at any level, chances are we will discover something we did not think of on our own before. I have for sure. I’ve also had the intense pleasure of 3 years of abstinence as a grown-ass adult woman to reflect on my true desires and refine my own tightly guarded opinions, judgments, and conditions- yes I used porn a couple of times but at one point a year or two ago I realized how sick and broken the mainstream porn feed actually was. It turned me off from using porn as a way to get excited for now and I started using my own imagination to do the trick exclusively.

Enter a real blood-born lover where, because I had set up an intentional space for me to break out of what I was trained to think versus how I actually felt, I attracted a beautiful, free, playful lover who is patient, kind, fun, and sexy too. Yes! We don’t have to use porn to break out of cultural conditioning, but we can, and when we use it with intention and awareness, it can be a really awesome experience designed to help free our minds and bodies safely and effectively.

Everything is okay when it’s done between consenting adults, it becomes fun and exciting when there is real depth and respect between all people involved. There is no shortcut, if you use porn as a way to just get off, you may stay in this hell state until you die. Sorry, no sugar coat here, although I am pointing out how porn can be used beneficially, if we don’t grow with it and branch out to real intimacy and honesty, we stay stuck and immature.

Porn can assist in breaking the guilt/shame/blame game when we realize we’re not alone

WE ARE NOT ALONE! You are not alone. I am not alone! We aren’t that fancy a species yet, we have basic desires and basic ways to get these desires met. Yes, we are imaginative and creative and artistic as human Beings- but seriously, we’re not that advanced as humans yet.

A commonly quotes bible verse goes something like, “There’s nothing new under the sun.”

What does this have to do with guilt, shame, and blame? Everything. If we can relate to another human, we can receive a bit of humanity. If we can realize one other person, yea, many others, have dealt or are dealing with what we too deal with - we can take a breath and relax a bit. We are not monsters, we are not sick, we are not disgusting or worthless. We are perfectly imperfect divine Beings in human bodies as living consciousness in form (with brains and hearts and guts and power).

What ego does is separate to obliterate. When our divine essence can get divided from our forms, we are already dead. This is what ‘being born again’ implies, it’s the re-birth of our divine essence connecting with our physical earth bodies! This is good news! I love how kolee preaches the gospel whilst advocating for porn- all is well people- all is well;)

Again, this advice or perspective isn’t meant for us in order to hang onto and rationalize our suffering away, it is to remind us how awesome and truly perfect we actually are so we can move on and shine brighter in more ways. We aren’t alone because if we can find it on the internet, at least one other person can relate, and after we feel relief that we aren’t the only one on earth going through what we are, we can also find evidence that others have also transcended the suffering we are going through as well.

See, once we get the validation that other people like what we like, we can also get validation that if it is hurting ourself or others, we can find the same freedom from the thing that others have found as well.

In summary, we can explore different sex paths and actually learn from what we see

as we harness the power of sex in our own Beings, it can lead to the realization we are all connected, and unity consciousness can expand in new ways as we mature sexually.

Porn can give confidence when we have the courage to explore sexually with other mature adult consenting Beings and tightly guarded judgments can dissolve more freely when we observe the grip of deep-seated/deep-conditioned mindsets evaporate through freedom of expression in sexual ways.

Thank you for sharing your time and energy with this potent and transformative wisdom here and now.

Just a tiny P.S. If we’re concerned about sex trafficked porn workers- let's be conscious consumers in all areas /markets cuz slavery/slave wages exist all over the globe and if you look around your house and friend’s homes and stores and shops and internet- you can see evidence of this horrific standard everywhere- enter minimalism/conscious consumerism. This is another topic for another day, but just to let you know I am very much aware of this issue and how it ties into porn and I deeply appreciate your contemplations on this subject as well :)

Byeeeee, see you around saints!

Love forever, kolee

Join the convo live next monday (every monday) 6p pacific usa time - it’s a phone app and we just talk, no pictures or camera shots so yayy come hang out and talk with us or just listen in :)

photo credit from the book Peniology by Kevin Moore and Andrea Aste

Are time, money, and love infinite resources or not?

Wed, 26 Jul 2023 17:34:29 GMT

listen to the original show recorded in clubhouse

Time, love, and money- we create our daily lives moment by moment either consciously or not using these 3 essential ingredients, in this vein we can literally create a recipe for every thing we wish- however we must vibe to the frequency of thing we are desiring in the first place in order to harmoniously live our creations.

Once we chef up our creations, we then get to harmoniously serve, eat, and share these meals with roughly 8 billion other individuals capable of doing the same thing. We can see the process does look messy or intimidating, yet we are all doing this cooking moment by moment as we create our life on earth- all the time ��

TIME- yeah, we doin it again this week! During the United Saints of Love weekly clubhouse talk, originally recorded live July 24, 2023 , the saints continued the time convo. If you missed last weeks TIME talk, you can listen to the replay here.

The concept of TIME is so entrenched in our consciousness and language and lives, it’s almost impossible to speak of unity consciousness and “new earth creation” without delving deep into the recesses of TIME.

What are your feelings when time is involved, most of us are either in a less than friendly situationship with it or we push it to the limits with our unrelenting ambitions and “management” of it. It’s kinda like the old adage of how we do one thing is how we do all things- I suspect if time isn’t your bestie, neither is love and or money. The reason I feel so strongly about openly talking about TIME, as in who it is, how it operates, and how we can harness its infinite source power, is because I see it as intricately linked with our infinite source power- it’s who WE are. So let’s keep contemplating and see if our relations with TIME can benefit us and others- shall we :)

First, in our group conversation, Phil brought up how during his week of contemplating time, he noticed the relativity between how long we (humans) have been on earth and how this affects our perception of time. This is to say, a child feels like time is so long compared to an adult because the percentage of time they experience in relation to how long they’ve been around in total matters more than it does to adults who have lived many of these moments and realize how quickly time does indeed pass and as the length of earth years accumulates, the ratio of the experiences expands.

It was cool to remember this effect time has on us as we age or as time “goes by.” It was also cool to hear how our thoughts on this dear topic have engaged us in new or remembered ways, almost as if TIME is present with us to inspire insights and breakthroughs like a loving friend would.

I won’t get too mushy here, I realize many of us aren't ready to go this far with TIME yet, although I do feel satisfied how the conversation and change of perception are working in us all.

Can we make time, make love, and make money?

The whole point of talking about time as an entity is that it is eternal and infinite- if this is the case, we can tap into this infinite resource and enjoy our time. But we are not at this point in humanity as of yet, so where is the disconnect? And why do we say we make time, make love, and make money if we also say we do not have enough time, do not have enough love, and or do not have enough money?

One of the speakers, Coco, mentioned her take on TIME and very beautifully articulated her relationship with TIME and how she really enjoys the organic emergence of time in recognition with earth cycles and seasons as opposed to forcing a schedule through the numbers on a clock or being tightly held by a constraining schedule.

I totally get this point of view, as I’ve been highly scheduled as a way of avoidance of feelings or dealing with certain people, because “I’m so busy” and I’ve also been very loose with my time as a way of surrender to the whatever, as of now I feel like I live in the middle way currently having both intentionally scheduled time including time to contemplate and allow what is emerge naturally to emerge. It’s a blessing to myself and I’m looking forward to continuing my relationship with time in a meaningful and dynamic way.

This is the crux- how do we tap into this infinite stream of time, money, and love truly and have this oneness with the infinite as manifested in our 3D regular daily life without losing our soul in the process?

Pressure also seems to keep coming up as it feels like TIME has been personified as a taskmaster or heavy-handed boss, so we’ll look a bit at how to find a fine-tuned harmonic balance between too much pressure and none at all.

Also, we cannot have a convo about time and pressure, and not bring up gravity. Clearly we have theories involving the relationship between time and gravity and it’s not unnoticed in these talks - however, for the sake of getting on with life and enjoying it, we’re not going to focus on old-fashioned and outdated theories as much as we are focusing on our felt lived experiences and how time literally is involved with every aspect of our life- like it or not.

Pressure is needed for birth, for diamonds, for breathing, for blood pumping, and for not floating away- being in tune with time creates beauty with just the divine amount of “pressure” so it is beneficial when we harness it correctly.

The way I’ve come to experience this concept of scheduled activity to create a thing or feeling or awareness along side of allowing spontaneous magic to emerge is multi-faceted so let’s go here for a bit and see what we create together.

From what I can see, merging with TIME (love and money as well) harmoniously all comes down to:

Long term awareness or thinking
Unity consciousness as in what I do affects you and what you do affects me
Being 100% accountable for what we do, say, think, and feel
Respecting ourselves like we do our friends and or bosses
Learning to trust ourselves enough to know we have the ability to respond correctly in every moment so we can live from love instead of fear

K. Let’s go here.

Long-term awareness or thinking and Unity Consciousness

I’m not sure which comes first for most of us, is it expanded viewpoints from experience and realization of cause and effect as mature adults which lead us to see further out into the “future” or is it the realization that we’re all connected here on earth and beyond so we begin to care about how our actions today affect our (as a collective) tomorrows?

It doesn’t really matter because number 2 on my list is realizing unity consciousness (at any level) as a key to tap into the eternal flow of time (and money and love). We must realize our actions thoughts and speech right now make up the past, present, and future all at once- so as we speak and think and do today, we need to both realize it matters in the moment and forever more! Yike. I feel the pressure - it’s ok- stay calm, we got this.

The exciting part about feeling the weight of our every thought, action, and word is that if we accept all life (past, present, and future) is intertwined, we are a living note in this eternal song of time and we get to have a power part in the song!

Being 100% accountable for what we do, say, think, and feel

In the same vein of long-term thinking and unity consciousness, now we get to be 100% responsible adults creating our version of heaven on earth. Sometimes we and those we see do not seem to always have enough time, love, and money (or resources.) The great thing about being 100% responsible for what we create is we are 100% able to create what we actually want!

The problems start to emerge though as we begin to realize this infinite power inside our own Being yet we haven’t yet done the work to attune to it correctly. Yeah, big trouble a comin’. When we start to feel down, sad, mad, bored, or numb- these are all just indicators we have not yet harmoniously merged with the actual frequencies of the eternal song which could allow us infinite resources- even here on earth.

Do not be dismayed though, it’s a process ;)

I have found the last two keys to unlock infinite potential and yes, I’m here with you learning to vibe clear, crisp, and clean frequencies and kolee is a student of life here with all.

Respecting ourselves like we do our friends and or bosses

In order to enjoy the infiniteness of time (money and love) we really do need a foundation based in almost future worlds where all life operates from the infinite and not from lack or fear. This is why it feels so sticky or messy still on earth because we are all a part of this emerging and giving birth to a whole new consciousness which shapes our earth and experience. We’re not quite all together yet so there is a discord to the conversations and our perceptions.

However, when we hold long-term thinking alongside unity consciousness along with holding ourselves 100% accountable for what we create, we begin to allow others their own path and journey without judgment or control because we are too busy minding our own lives and business. Mind blow I know ;)

The more we ‘mind our own business’ the more we start acting like our life does matter! We matter, our feelings matter, our health matters, and our experiences matter- to us. We begin to realize anything other than equanimity and sovereignty is fake or a mirage. The way most humans so far have gone about learning respect is to give it. It has traditionally been labeled as something to “be” and as an outward expression toward others. Keeping all which has been read in this piece so far in mind, we get to go inward now big time.

If we care, if we are one, if we are responsible for our own selves- it follows easily we respect ourself 100% as well. When we are mature adults living on planet earth as living breathing Beings, we begin to show respect to ourselves by showing up for ourself like we would a friend or a boss AND being respectable. We do what we say we are going to do when we say we are going to do it. We do not make plans we do not intend to put energy toward creating. We make a plan with ourself and we stick to it even when we do not want to.

This is a rich nugget, I won’t go too much further with this concept here and now, just know that this is the key I found which unlocked time for me like nothing else- and currently I’m learning how to apply it to love and money as well :)

Learning how to trust ourselves

It used to take me a long time (in earth time) to get what I wanted then by the time it would manifest it was out of date and ultimately not what the ‘me of now’ truly desires- so- this took some tweaking. I found awareness or mindfulness is a key that adds to the harmony and as I get more practiced in popping into existence what I desire, it manifests faster ((TIME)) and is actually what I aimed to create!

Learning to create proper conditions to remain clear and bright with all our manifesting magic and realizing with privilege comes responsibility (ability to respond and duty to respond) correctly (because what we think say and do/DID MATTER) - so we hold awareness with all we wish, knowing it does come to pass.

Slowing down doesn’t mean we’re getting old, it is the fact we are maturing and becoming wise :) We learn to pause (create space and time) in order to hold this infinite resource responsibly. As we roll through these different keys at different (or simultaneous) times, we really get into divine alignment with not only TIME but SOURCE of time (love, money/resources) and we relax!

Breathe now :) Big sigh, relax- breathe love in, and breathe love out- right here, right now. Thank you. This life is a process and one I’m really enjoying honestly. The unpredictability and hidden treasures I did not even know I was looking for add so much richness and aliveness to my Being, I cannot even fathom what it would be like to be here on earth without this process.

The point here is as we mature, we are going to change- we are going to flow with divinity and this is a wild ride people- however, we can trust ourself and the others we chose to include in our inner circle (who practice these principles on the daily) to be a beneficial blessing during our relatively short TIME here on earth in these bodies- and really what else matters?

How can we go wrong practicing these seemingly ridiculously simple concepts?

When we create correct conditions for divine timing to occur in the first place- we can relax and enjoy the song of time and rest in the awareness that what we see today is the result of all our yesterdays so if you don’t like the results- change the action today and tomorrow will probably feel better! It’s a process!!

Much more on this and other hard hitting contemplations to come, I’m eternally grateful to be with you here and now and look forward to seeing what we continue to create together.

See you around saints, enjoy your time!

Join the live conversation each monday on clubhouse if you dare :)

Love, your kolee (and krew)

How to enjoy the eternal song of time, not be a slave to the ticking of it.

Thu, 20 Jul 2023 05:39:37 GMT

What is time actually? Does it have personality? Is it an it or an idea or possibly the eternal song woven by all forms who come before, presently are, or after now as these forms pass away from the earth ‘time?’ And finally, can we create or make time?

Every Monday evening at (time stamp) 6p pacific daylight time united states of america, myself and a couple other beloved saints and founding members of United Saints of Love talk together about these complicated and convoluted ideas as a way to further comprehend the practical applications and implications of our every day earth lives.

If you wish to listen to the original discussion you can access it here:

United Saints of Love ReForm TIME

If you wish to add your voice and or presence to the creation of these eternal notes held within the eternal song of life, please feel free to join live and/or listen to the replays posted every monday.

Last Monday, July 17, we began talking about TIME.

O yes, we all know it. Time to do this and time to do that. Time to get it together, time to have fun, time to eat, and yes don’t forget the running out of time, not enough time, feeling rushed and pressed for time. In human form, we tend to experience time as numbers on a clock we’re in a constant race against. We coordinate time with others in hopes they hold up their end of the bargain- most “times” we are the ones who lose track of time or under estimate the amount of energy or “time” needed to fufil our end of the deal and some times we all syncronize beautifully, a blessed time indeed.

As a type of summary of our latest convo, I’ll attempt to articulate the essence of what we uncovered and discovered whilst speaking freely with one another, uninterrupted and curious.

One of the main themes of most religious and spiritual or conscious groups is how what we do affects our future and others. What the heck is the future anyway? If our actions DO/ARE always adding either melody, harmony, and or screachy bits to the eternal song or time as we love to call it, the moment to momentness of life is of vital importance.

When we take the morality out of the mix, we still basically are aware of the cause/effect dynamic happening now - now- now. So no matter what system we subscribe to this moment, what we do, say, and think are always boss. I think this is why humans can seem distracted and bored with life- we know what will be of utmost support to BEING (in the now) yet the protective parts of ourselves resist the realization of these actions, clinging instead to morals and systems to guide us as a false sense of security.

We need to define time a tad more in order to feel into the words presented here.

Time as defined by oxford dictionary:

the indefinite continued progress of existence and events in the past, present, and future regarded as a whole.
"travel through space and time"

a point of time as measured in hours and minutes past midnight or noon.
"the time is 9:30"

And according to wikipedia, time is also a measure of progress between events. However at the end of the article it states, “In quantum mechanics, time is treated as a universal and absolute parameter, differing from general relativity's notion of independent clocks. Reconciling these two theories is known as the problem of time . As of 2023, there is no generally accepted theory of quantum general relativity. [17]

So! Yay :) Let’s get a new theory started, shall we?

I’ve come to realize several things about time as I’ve been pondering it almost obsessively lately:

Time has a personality
Time is not linear but the past present future are all represented as a song- an eternal song- sung from an unknown start date and an unknown end. It is a cosmic collection or an electrical frequency of eternal imprints
Abundance or lack of time is in the mind of the beholder- lack and abundance mentality and creation of time /einstein time is key to expanding the consciousness of TIME and not being a slave to it

Time has a personality!

Action and thoughts and words are human in form. It is our greatest privilege to be in a form which not only automatically breathes, pumps blood, carries nutrients, fires electrical signals, and produces chemical instructions to around 30 trillion cells in every human body, but can also reason and express infinite results of this Being!

It is therefore recognized here and now we have the greatest responsibility (both ability to respond and having a duty to respond) on earth to date. Traditionally, it is conditioned in humans from day one that we are judged for our actions. As children we are conditioned to respond immediately to our guardians direction and commands. As adults, we are conditioned to answer to either or both religious institutions and unseen deities and the good ole government of our land. We receive punishment, or at best consequences, when we do not respond in the pre-destined manner desired or demanded by our ruling authority.

There are very few accepted systems in which the adult human form is given free will to act or respond according to inner guidance or intuition. Mostly because we are never given this unconditoned free will training and most adults are still small children in adult bodies and do not have the capability of either accessing inner guidance/intuition or being aware enough to accept full “responsibility” of our own actions in general.

All these condtionings set us, the humans of earth, up to attach super importance on the systems which we rely to “keep us in line”- “keep us straight”- “keep us together.” Therefore, we hold attachments, stories, and memories in order to keep us feeling safe and valuable. The danger of holding all these attachments and stories so tightly to protect us from isolation and damnation is these are that which make up TIME.

This is how TIME has a personality. Time is us, and we are time, It is with slight glee I can report science is picking up these cosmic cues as well and is formulating new explanations and ‘theories’ for TIME- and science agrees with me/us :) However, it is this writer's educated guess and current perspective presented here, so bear with me- its a process :)

If we evolve a teeny bit to recognize morals, as in shoulds and supposed tos, need not exist when we are each living as sovereign Beings in part of the Whole, we begin to enter a new realm. We realize we (all forms who have ever been, are now, and will ever be) exist as an eternal song woven together which is why everything we say, think, and do DO MATTER.

I did say in the clubhouse talk that actions matter and other things don’t and I was saying that it doesn’t “matter” as in solidify HOWEVER yes the overall bits all make up the whole- “the interplay and the weaving” so yes, it all matters.

If you have the privilege of breathing on planet earth, congratulations, you are a living note in the great song of life (time in human breathing form), for those who are no longer breathing, they are an etched note in our eternal song. There is infinite possibility for the ones yet to come and where a lot of us lay import to. However, since we are a living note and the very personality of time held in our memories, stories, daily life, and projections of an unknown place and time, all we ever have is now anyway. Now is what makes past and future.

This is why what we say, do, and think is always boss and priority- each and every moment. In the same vein, we are learning to release stories of the past which have concreted themselves into form and a type of reality with the aspirations of creating a whole new genre or beat to our eternal song.

When we let go of stories and attachments (karma) we allow expansion and flow of our cosmic eternal song to morph into the most enveloping and dynamic music our cells have ever been imbued within!

Time is not linear!

The fact that now is always all we ever have anyways is great news. Every life Being is “energy expressing ourselves” and we represent a living song which always has been, always is, and will always be (I think I’ve heard other grand Beings portrayed with these same characteristics but this is for another blogspot ;) It also represents the infinite cycle of life which is the soul (sol) of “time” itself, which is all events eternally recorded playing and interweaving our all-encompassing tune of the eternal song- TIME.

We have been conditioned to think of time as linear as a way to streamline the matrix to be as predictable as possible and help our ego self feel safe and secure. Yet it seems to have had the opposite effect where control and tightly guarded stories lead the way to unsafe and unpredictable outcomes. How many times in the past 3 years have you said to yourself, “wow, I didn’t see that coming!” or maybe you did clearly see it decades ago yet the “time” was not ripe for harvest? The fact is that time is a thing, an “it” if you will, not an abstract concept or numbers on a sundial/clock.

If life were a straight line, we could look behind and ahead and be able to roughly predict outcomes fairly easily- yet this does not occur. With nearly 8 billion human forms on planet earth as of the year 2023, we get 8 billion different timelines/realities/perspectives intersecting, corresponding, relating, and resonating (either chaotically or melodically).

I’ve come to see life/time as an eternal song interwoven in the eternal now.

All forms contribute to the frequency of the eternal song, aka time, and those of us with senses to experience infinite selves as finite ones in body or any other form on earth which continue the cycle of life death life death are living memories and actively add to the neverending all encompassing song of life- “time.”

When we view time as an eternal continuum of cause and effect of our now we can then upgrade to not being a slave of the ticking on the clock but infinite creators and inhabitants or extensions of it- and start really enjoying being a part of this eternal song.

Feels good, doesn’t it! Let’s look at the last tidbit we touched on during our 65 minutes (according to earth clock time) in our USoL clubhouse talk- how we can “make” time.

We create/make time!

Can we make time? It’s a phrase thrown around the english language like yesterday’s trash yet it holds profound truths which we can all benefit.

We’ve all had the feeling at one “time” or another where we feel hurried or rushed. We feel the pressure of “time” and it seems to never relent, always hovering over our shoulder and pressing against our minds. Why is it some Beings can produce huge amounts of value over a lifetime and some seemingly amount ‘to nothing?’ Why can a mother of many run a home, a business, a community, and keep herself happy and healthy at the same time when others with no responsibilities other than managing to stay alive and breathe fail to do so? Is it time, the management of it, or something other dimensional all together?

We were honored with a guest from India, Don, in our clubhouse room who brought up ‘Sanscrit time’ and how the very definition of it encompasses the above (and beyond) ideas easily comprehended to the youngest of members as is it embroiled into the very language of the people.

Sanskrit time (yes I had to look it up) According to wikipedia; “Kala (Sanskrit: काल, romanized: Kālá/Kālam, lit. 'Time'), IPA: [kɑːˈlə]) is a Sanskrit term that means "time" or "death". As time personified, destroying all things, Kala is a god of death, and often used as one of the epithets of Yama.”

This very simplified definition not only corroborates our ‘time has personality’ theory, it also shows a continuum between all lives and all deaths, as well as furthering the concept we create time by not attaching to stories or preconceived conditions (death and rebirth).

Lack and abundance mentality is a huge part of our human experience as we either have not enough or enough or overflow every moment of every breath and how we perceive these states change as frequently as we allow our emotions and insights to intercede. It is said we make love, we make money, we make time: we create it, we expand it or we “piss it away.”

If time has a personality, it can be personal. If time is the collective memory and story cloud from all Beings who ever were, are, and shall be, it is infinite. If these are true, we can theoretically tap into the infinite stream personally and expand our own experience of time.

This is maybe the greatest news of all! When we say to ourselves or others, “I don’t have time” we are actually saying, “I am not willing to create the space to do this right now”- it is not to say there is literally no time for the thing. Yet this slight twist of perspective actually convolutes our Being into believing this is so, and we experience the feeling that we do not have enough time. There is so much to cover in this concept alone, here I’ll attempt to plant the seeds from which to harvest ongoing insights and revelations forever more :)

One of my favorite sayings is, “We have all the time we need to do the things we need to do.” This is to say, we do, in fact, make time when we:

Create the condition correctly to solidify an idea/plan
Do the things we need to do pertaining to the thing we are presently solidifying
View time as a cosmic eternal force that we all have access to as living forms

I read a book, time marker earth year 2016 ish- E Squared by Pam Grout, in which she talked about “Einstein Time.” This intrigued me as I was just beginning to open up to the interconnectedness of all things and as a single mother of 4 sons under the age of 11 living off the grid in the middle of a national forest in the Ozark mountains- I was desperate for “more time.”

The concept is simple, Albert Einstein once wrote, “People like us who believe in physics know that the distinction between past, present, and future is only a stubbornly persistent illusion.” Time, in other words, he said, is an illusion. Many physicists since have shared this view, that true reality is timeless.

We have all had the experience of time lasting longer when we are being tortured or are bored or are doing something we really do not enjoy and the flip of this experience where we lose track of time and time flies by when we are doing something we enjoy or “are in the flow.” Like now, as I’m writing this piece, time has literally flown by - I’m in a timeless state as my fingers fly against the keyboard of my rose gold macbook.

How do you practically “make time?”

We first envision the end result we wish to create, be it get the house cleaned up or erect a giant skyscraper dedicated to whatever, work backwards in a logical state laying out the broad strokes which constructs the skeleton of the creation, and then we decide what time we will ‘set aside’ or assign to these actions.

This plan allows us several things:

We create conditions for steady and consistent action to solidify the result we desire
We show reverence and respect cause and effect and how our actions really do matter
We eliminate all excuses or stories which would creep in and destroy the result prematurely

In my practical application over the past 7 or 8 years of this simple yet profound concept has been mind-blowing. When I do not look to the clock to see if I “have time” or not, and I only do the things needed in the moment to accomplish what I assigned ‘time for’, I literally make time!

I have a feeling this time talk will continue the span of several episodes. This is a juicy contemplation. As we began talking about TIME last Monday, we realized it is a type of chicken and egg scenario. The question is, do we make time as in prioritizing it and making/forcing it into existence or is it created because we prioritize it in the first place?

To be continued I’m sure, however, I can say here and now creation of time to me is tapping into the infinite time stream known now also known as the eternal song and harnessing it to accomplish and achieve all our hearts desire- thus creating the new earth, eternal life, aka, heaven. As we do this in human form, we are indeed creating heaven on earth which is what the United Saints of Love is allllll about!

Here we are people, what else better do we have to do with our time than create abundance of joy, expression, gratitude, wisdom, peace, and health for all who were, are and are to come?

Keep up the super work!

Integrate these ideas and join us in clubhouse to add to the eternal conversation

See you around Saints ;) kolee and krew

Special thanks and love to Boo Chaison and Phil Mashke for cocreating these talks and being huge inspirations to my family and I throughout these long earth years.

Homage and eternal respect to you both- and all who are here with me/us now.

clock picture taken by Phil as mentioned in the clubhouse talk :)

Can we manifest a stable climate on earth through sustainable fashion?

essentialmind@icloud.com (kolee Hemenway) — Mon, 16 May 2022 17:06:10 GMT

Simple steps to clean our harmful fa st fashion skeletons from our closets

Charity balls, Galas, Fundraising events, and on and on the list goes where people get together to have a good time while doing good works to benefit others - yet as is the case most the time on this modern planet earth, we are simply exchanging one set of harmful actions or ideas for another set of equally harmful actions (mostly unaware of the harm we’re doing cuz we’re so focused on what we’re doing to serve).

This is distributing plastic single use water bottles in a disaster situation, it is handing out genetically modified low quality foods to in need families, or serving children copious amounts of sugar during classroom holiday celebrations. This is also how we can look at parties designed to benefit a group or idea or organization or the fashion industry in general.

The conscious consumerism train is a loooooong one and takes us on a ride that winds this way and that and loops back around till we’re dizzy and maybe throwing up - or we can just enjoy the ride and see where we end up :)

On this ride today, we are looking closely at the fashion industry and how we can take simple steps to add our conscious voices and actions to the sustainable fashion convo- let’s go.

While the majority of humans only wear clothing to cover up our skin, clothing has morphed into a way of individual expression and style. As with any of our earth sphere’s , we need to approach this area of life with awareness and mindfulness.

We must be aware of of what we wear, why we wear it, how it was produced, how the producers were treated and compensated, where what we wear ends up after we’re done with it, and how it’s creation, use, and disposal affects the earth as a whole.

Phew, that’s a lot to think about when we throw on our clothes for the day, so let’s get comfy with thinking ahead when it comes to what we wear.

For a regular day- socks, underwear, shirts, pants

According to figures from the United Nations Environment Programme (UNEP), it takes 3,781 liters of water to make a pair of jeans, from the production of the cotton to the delivery of the final product to the store. That equates to the emission of around 33.4 kilograms of carbon equivalent.

If that is for just one pair of jeans, imagine the environmental cost for everything in our wardrobes.

~ https://www.worldbank.org/en/news/feature/2019/09/23/costo-moda-medio-ambiente

In the last book published by New Earth Publishing Haus, Modern Sustainability Master Guide, there is a whole chapter dedicated to this massive fashion problem and we offer genuine sustainable options to green up your wardrobe without having to constantly think about the impact your panties are having on the planet!

We have to think about sooo much in these modern times, and the last think we need to be focused on is not killing planet earth by our choices from dressing ourselves!

In the recent years, the fashion industry has realized the monumental harm it has done to our home planet, and is taking steps to correct itself- yet we the consumers are in charge when it comes to embodying these shifts immediately.

Here’s some ideas to get you comfortably and sustainably clothed:

BUY USED - search organic or eco friendly when shopping used sites
BUY CLOTHES THAT YOU NEED
BUY SUSTAINABLE AND ECO FRIENDLY WHEN YOU DO BUY NEW
CREATE CLOTHING SWAPS WITH LOCAL FRIENDS/FAMILIES
AIM TO PASS ON ALL CLOTHES OR RE-USE IN USEFUL WAYS
LEARN TO SEW TO REPAIR OR UPCYCLE OLDER CLOTHES
USE WHAT YOU HAVE AND REPLACE AS NEEDED WITH SUSTAINABLE ITEMS
COLLECT A SMALLER COHESIVE COLOR/STYLE WARDROBE WITH A FEW QUALITY PIECES RATHER THAN A LARGE MISMATCHED FAST FASHION AND CONFUSING CLOSET

Clothing companies like, Eileenfischer.com, wearpact,org, r2r.org, pategonia.com, and boodywear.com all aim to be carbon neutral and create closed looped sustainable fashion pieces which stand the test of time.

Here’s a list of clean green clothing companies if you are feeling spendy and need some new pieces for your sustainable fashion capsule:

https://www.thegoodtrade.com/features/fair-trade-clothing

The problem I run into as a thrifty eco warrior is these “green” clothing companies lack print, imagination, and style and they are still much more expensive than the harmful fast fashion pieces so amply available ;/

I have found the best way to bridge this fast fashion harmful industry with eco friendly systems and do no harm policies is to buy used and learn to upcycle what’s already floating around.

In my opinion, we need to completely stop the production of new clothing and use what we have already produced while we figure out how to create clean clothes with a reasonable price tag.

In my “Simple steps to be the parent NOW your inner child needs TODAY” course I showcase my extensive upcycled and unique to me t-shirt collection :) Thirty 15 minute mindfulness and trauma healing practices featuring a never ending combo of hats, jewelry, and t-shirts for your entertainment and enrichment :) Who says do no harm fashion is boring :)

In the featured photo from the Sustainable Fashion chapter in the Modern Sustainability Master Guide, kolee is wearing a pre-loved skirt from https://www.beautifullivesboutique.com and the tops from Victoria’s Secret- new :O

Ya, the modern sustainability factor just went way down… when we do succumb to the shiny new trendy piece from a fast fashion earth destroying company- how do we cope?

How do we reconcile our part in fast fashion?

Stay calm and carry on
Be aware of and appreciate what went into creating your fashion trophies
Use and enjoy your pieces for as long as possible
Don’t buy it in the first place
Change what it means in the first place to be “fashionable”

I hope you see how inextricably we’re caught up in this harmful web and I hope you see it’s not the end of the world when we realize how deep in we actually are- yet.

Earth awareness is on the rise, and as we wake up to the fact we are all a part of the problem, we come into perfect alignment with being the solution as well.

Yes, we all have fast fashion skeletons in our closets (and bins, drawers, wardrobes, etc).

As with all modern sustainability issues, we are in a time where we live between worlds- we live with one foot in harmful conditions and systems and one foot in the unity do no harm consciousness.

We are all a part of the creation of a new do no harm earth where all industries and systems are created to benefit the whole and do no harm to any.

This is an undeniably tricky space, yet is the most exciting and thrilling part to play for us who are willing to examine with absolute honesty our everyday habits and choices which do or do not align with a modern sustainable climate on planet earth.

Whether we’re dressing for a day at our in home office or the party of the year, what we wear says way more about us than how we look in our ‘fits, and is one of the easiest simplest ways to begin or expand our beneficial presence here on earth- go through your closet this week and aim to simplify what you wear and align your core values with that which you dress yourself (and family) with.

Above all, enjoy the ride on the conscious consumerism train and know that every act adds up to a sustainable climate on planet earth- and kolee and krew are happy to be with you- choo choo ;)

PS coming soon to your inbox - the next modern sustainability piece featuring the holy recycling myth ;)

Can we create a stable climate on earth through sustainable consumerism?

essentialmind@icloud.com (kolee Hemenway) — Wed, 04 May 2022 19:23:34 GMT

Welcome welcome, today we’re looking at family photos and analyzing them- lol- don’t worry, it’ll be fun :)

For this blog series, I’m showing you the pictures in color from New Earth Publishing Haus’ latest book, the “Modern Sustainability Master Guide.”

The book is science and experience together -- decades of research and living the life crammed into like 42, 000 words - so I’m taking the pieces apart here in the blog so we can digest and process and have fun at the same time.

I love getting the back stories about things, and since I used all personal photos in the book, I wanted to share why I chose them and how I feel they relate to the sustainable chapter they show up in, so here we go :)

The featured photo from the Sustainable Consumerism chapter is a pic is my 3 youngest sons after we moved from our urban homestead in southwest Missouri in the Ozarks to our off grid completely isolated 10 acre cabin in northwest arkansas in the Ozark National Forest.

It is here in arkansas, completely off grid, as in no power lines running near enough to me to get grid power, where conscious consumerism began to really dawn on me. Before, on my urban homestead, it was about getting simple, being self reliant and detoxification- and saving money. However, the shift of seeing how all things are connected and how our spending and consuming habits really do affect the environment around us as well as the environment for us all came into greater focus for me at this stage of my journey.

Thinking and planning for power, water, transportation, food, cleaning, etc. all were magnified as we had to change the way we had been used to operating, which in turn allowed more awareness to settle on the real-life priorities and how our all our little choices add up to major impact.

We generated electricity using solar panels and a basic battery bank, it was “enough” but not effective really, we had to supplement our power with a petroleum gasoline generator. I could go on and on about it down there, and I do some in the master guide;),

but suffice it to say:

1 mom + 4 young sons + no reliable power, water, roads, etc. = lots of experience and education and experimentation :)

So let’s look at the photo and spy some sustainable consumerism habits which could lead to a stable climate on planet earth, shall we?

Notice the low/no waste food stuffs we have packed with us.

There is no way to stay human and not eat food, at this stage of our evolution anyway -especially- when traveling/living with children (or kolee).

Humans are incessantly eating, and I don’t care about that right now, the main point is if you eat food, you have to consider where it came from, how it got to you, how is affecting the environment, how were the workers/creators treated, how does it affect our body, where does the packaging go when it’s empty, and on and on it goes.

Eating is fine, being aware of what we eat is boss.

So a fabulous place to focus awareness on in order to support a stable climate is our food habits. There is a whole food chapter as well, so fear not, we’ll talk more about it in another post ;)

2. Notice our clothing items.

Phew, here we go…

Yes the fashion industry is a huge culprit in the degradation of earth.

First, as with allllll sphere’s of sustainability and the current “modern” work we as earth aware Beings are involved with we are walking on a bridge which spans from past semi successful innovations and technologies and mindsets to changing ones where unity, awareness and respect live in harmony. We need to be able to deal with both, at the same time, during this transition.

Tricky? Yep. Way. Very tricky and we do need to be skillful and agile or we’ll end up - well I don't know but at any rate, here we are so we need to keep stepping forward while be guided by the results of our last steps to be stable and enjoy the walk.

I say all that to say this- we are alive on a planet that does not wholly support actual life, just a watered down version of it, and everyday we are faced with decisions which do harm to others in order to support our own life.

See, it’s tricky. But we can maneuver through it with Grace and Clarity and Strength one step at a time. The boys are outfitted in mostly old navy clothes in this pic. Unfortunately, this company does have a slight track record of destruction to our environments and this is to help us all keep calm and carry on.

When faced with choices of clothing, we are all doing the best we can, yet we can all do better. So I have a bunch of kids to keep clothed, I live in the USA where cheap disposable clothes are king and that’s what was in my budget - so that’s what we bought.

Also of note, we also bought/buy used clothing more often than not and do keep the same clothes for the next size down to use later. ALSO, you can see we don’t constantly need new things, we use our stuff for a long time- repairing and reusing the items as long as it’s practical to do so. Again, we live in a world where we can replace items as often as we wish- yet to remain faithful to a stable climate vision, we grow in our awareness of our consumerism habits.

A part of the overall consumerism conversation is connecting the dots of our personal habits and lifestyle and aspiring to merge the things we enjoy with doing no harm to others.

3. Last but not least, transportation is a part of a stable modern climate.

The car in the photo is one I really would get again. I bought it used, maintained it, and used it as long as possible. Acura MDX if you are interested. And yes, we do have a whole other post just about transportation but again the overall consumerism concept is very integrated and wholistic, it’s all one and in the master guide we break down each component.

The gas type, mileage, safety, emissions, and ultimately comfort are all very important considerations we have to be mindful of if we choose to own a car.

The location and walkability/rideability/group transportation of the place we choose to live is also of course something we need to be mindful about. We can say we don’t have choices, but in reality, we do. As we transition to no harm transportation, we use what we have and when we are ready to replace or relocate, we make beneficial changes.

We got this, don’t worry, we’re all in this together and we’re fine- just fine ;)

We just keep going, adapting, aspiring, and accepting our journey and enjoy it!

Here’s our next picture we’ll dissect next post about sustainable fashion,

Till then, create some space to be mindful of your consumerism habits and see which aren’t a great fit anymore- then allow them to drop away as you fill the space with something more aligned to creating a stable climate on planet earth ;)

xxxoo kolee n krew love you

What does Modern Sustainability mean?

essentialmind@icloud.com (kolee Hemenway) — Tue, 03 May 2022 18:46:26 GMT

The Modern Sustainability Master Guide was written to show how no harm products have developed over the past several decades and how the actual practical daily lives of a no harm person can look in our current time.

I did not actually “define” sustainability in the book though, so let’s look at it more here

WITH PICTURES!!!!!

Over the next week or so I’m releasing the color photos from the Modern Sustainability book and I’ll tell you why I chose the pic and how it relates to modern sustainability in my experience.

First let’s “define” modern sustainability in general terms and we’ll be able to see the very common threads strung out through these pictures and in our own daily lives.

We begin to get a sense it’s all connected and in order to enjoy our lives- we must do no harm and protect the resources which we’re a part.

Modern- “relating to the present or recent times as opposed to the remote past.”

Sustainable- “able to be maintained at a certain rate or level.” or “able to be upheld or defended.”

Here’s a super interesting list of words we could use instead of sustainable:

Continuous, unceasing, unending, continual, imperishable, renewable, inexhaustible, infinite, limitless, endless, extendable, viable, bountiful, replenishable

In this context, we can basically say modern sustainability is the ability to duplicate a process in our current lives which leaves beneficial or neutral results forever.

MODERN is a keyword, as it indicates now or current times which are always changing and in order to do things beneficially, we must be able to adapt and remain mindful and aware of this never ending cycle.

In order to stay relevant, we ALL must adapt with our current research, results, and routines.

The main reason I wrote this book is I was so frustrated at how complicated doing no harm to our planet and selves is presented. No wonder our earth ship is falling apart, everyone thinks it’s way too hard or expensive to fix- but it’s not!

Going green, being eco friendly, doing no harm, leaving earth better than we found it, etc isn’t a product or system or event, it’s a lifestyle. It’s a mindset.

There is simply no other way to experience a whole healthy planet than to be a whole healthy human on earth :)

Throughout the book (and this blog series), we weed out the myths and conditioning that have led to such suffering on our home planet.

Of course, the book offers simple solutions to do no harm while enjoying life in all the basic everyday ways a human gets along today. It also tells a beautiful story of restoration and regeneration we can look forward to when we make mindful, healthy habits along the way.

Small steps to bravely birth a new sustainable climate on planet earth are ours to take, and as we do it together, it’s way more fun.

I’ve had the pleasure of being a mother for over 25 years and as such, I’ve been able to truly do this human experimentation with actual daily living- in allll kinds of ways.

My whole gig is simplifying and constantly streamlining and making it all more efficient. What better way to figure out how to live on planet earth without harming it or us in the process than to have a pod of humans living and working together - every dang day!

I hope you enjoy the back story of these pictures in this blog series and are inspired to take small steps in your own life in order to enjoy earth and life.

If you want to grab your own modern sustainability ebook or paperback- click here!

Make sure to leave a quick honest review and thank you for your support :)

Here’s the first picture I’ll be sharing from the Sustainable Consumerism chapter next post, stay tuned to catch the story and enjoy seeing modern sustainability in action ;)

How can detoxifying our bodies lead to whole healthy world?

Fri, 29 Oct 2021 18:27:41 GMT

Interview with Pamela Acosta

and kolee the practicalsaint at www.essentialmind.me

Practicalsaint Talks Podcast November 26, 2021

This blog post is a collaborative effort from Pamela and kolee- a few of the links are affiliate links and when you purchase from them you are giving back by supporting the sharing of these life-giving messages at no additional cost to you, so thank you eternally for your support by simply reading and listening to this cast and blog and maybe checking the links out as well :)

“Pamela is a fellow blogger who brings healing and life as a plant-based influencer and enthusiast. She is an accomplished designer of her own life and teaches others to do it in a wholistic, safe, and effective process. She’s done the hard work herself and shares her journey with others so all can achieve overall health and wellbeing too.

In today’s episode, we share about mindset shifts and how it makes all the difference to what we experience. We mainly focused on detoxification and healing the body in a natural, holistic way.

We bridge the shift from personal transformation to that of the entire planet, through talking more about:

Detox as self-love
How detoxification helps the environment
Not being too hard on ourselves
Karmic eating habits
Food as medicine
Gratitude

Detox as self-love

We need to change the way we think about detoxification because in today’s society we face mockery from some and this may put a stop to real authentic transformation. First, do not allow anyone else’s opinions to keep us stuck in old patterns. If someone isn’t paying your bills or taking you to your doctor’s appointments- their opinion or stories don’t really matter when it comes to our own life. Our opinions don’t really matter to anyone else on the flip side, so here we focus on our own experience and self. Secondly, detoxifying our own bodies as a self-love act is how we can begin a journey to wholistic health and wellbeing. Think about it. This act of self-love or self-care is the foundation on which all else is formed. 7.7 billion people actively taking care of our own bodies and health equals a healed and whole world. Also, it’s worth noting, that currently we are forced to consume harmful agents to our bodies and planets because of production practices. What is available to us is largely ineffective and tampered with. We can do all the “good” things and still be harming someone somewhere due to the entire system we are a part. In this light, we do what we can, where we are, and this is always enough. The goal is to change enough mindsets to create a whole new system of beneficial production to eliminate the need to sacrifice our personal pleasure at the expense of another.

Pamela & kolee personally experienced and observed massive benefits and expansion of the unity consciousness message we currently share. Yes, the process of detoxification may start in our physical bodies yet it branches out to encompass our whole Being. Detoxing one’s body leads to detoxing our emotions. Emotions are energy in motion and can get stuck in our body, leading to mental issues as well as physical and spiritual ones as well. Through detoxification, we purify the body, and as we do this, we experience improvement in our whole Being- physical, emotional, and mental health and wellbeing.

Taking care of our body is a sign of self-love. Self-love and love for the other and the divine. Our body is our temple where our eternal souls come to play on earth for a hundred earth years or so. The way we treat our bodies IS the way we treat others and our earth. We either treat it with respect, honor, and unconditioned love or we disregard our part in its creation. We can either embrace this truth with open arms or we can excuse our whole time here away and never gain traction to heal the self in order to heal our world.

How detoxification helps the environment

Food choices also matter. As we improve our health and as we choose less processed or tortured foods, we detoxify this energy from our body, you begin to see more clearly how our choices affect the overall not just “you”- the old ego self. We can then become more intuned with the Earth, where we all live. We start to see beyond just our own little stories and dramas. Many don’t talk about this seriously enough, but our choices DO matter. Not only in food, but in the products we use to care for our bodies and homes, the clothes we put on our bodies, the way we educate and entertain ourselves, the way we medicate and deal with dis-ease or illness, etc.

As we mentioned in our conversation, everything we do, think, feel, and say affects the whole entire universe! The stuff that ‘matters’ as in solidifies to things we smell, see, touch, feel, and taste is the product of our collective experiences and mindsets.

We are all a part of the crisis on this planet and can use this unique sovereign position to reach our aim of all living healthy and happy lives. We humans are made up of earth and star stuff, making us all a part of the whole. Detoxifying our bodies, homes, communities, and world really does matter! kolee’s next whole book goes into practical steps and ways we can all make small differences matter!

You can only know it does matter once you experience the difference for yourself.

Don’t be hard on yourself

Although the above statements can either bring resentment and a feeling of helplessness, they can also bring significant enrichment and empowerment. It’s vital at any point on the journey we’re on to be gentle and patient with ourself, others, and through the divinity who is always a part of our present conditions.

Pamela shared her personal experience of how she was hard on herself and others at the very beginning of her journey. kolee wrote whole books through this narrow and judgemental lens, which showcases her evolution in this carefully woven life narrative. In this light, we recommend people take this process slowly and in bite-sized pieces with a gentle and forgiving mindset. Reading “ Heal the inner child to Heal the world! ” book or audiobook is a beautiful place to start or advance in our reconstruction as a species.

Often we choose ignorance instead of awareness about where and how our food is being processed, how to take care and educate our self and our families, how to get around without harming the planet, and so on. Awareness is needed, but don’t educate yourself simply by watching activist videos on YouTube- as they may affect you negatively in the beginning by not presenting the entire story. Often when we’re immature on this path, we begin to get overwhelmed with all that is harmful and either blame others or create a savior complex to deal with these intense issues. The key to successfully changing what we see around us is first to begin and continue the deep inner detox and healing of our individual self. The transformation process and experience are different for everyone. We all do our best, and our best becomes effective over time. The length of time it takes to change varies as much as the experiences and paths we take.

Through this lens, we learn how to respect other people’s choices even though they do not align with where we are now. If somebody feels called to change and would like your assistance, they will reach out to you. There is no need to go around proclaiming enlightenment when we’re still earth-bound and incapable of walking on water or walking through walls. We are all divinely human, and this earth experience is to cultivate this divinity within- as gracefully and gently as possible. We must think for ourself and follow our inner guidance, and allow others to do the same. As we embark on this grand journey, there are ups and downs. We are, after all, ‘human’ Beings in a dualistic and matrix-style earth.

Be the change you want to see, and this is more than enough to affect real change for the entire planet.

Karmic eating habits

On her healing journey, Pamela had dealt with eating disorders caused by low self-esteem & fear of disease. Eating disorders are mirrors of emotional imbalance. It is not about the food as much as it is how we feel about ourself. If I eat sugary and genetically modified foods all the time, I’m basically showing my body I don’t care if it lives or dies. I’m saying to my body I don’t care if it operates in harmony. We are mindlessly or mindfully creating all we experience in these meat suits called bodies at a deep level.

We have to start paying attention to our emotional eating habits as a self-love act and one from a unity-conscious view. What we spend money on (or don’t) has a tremendous impact on the planet at large as well. We realize what we eat affects EVERYTHING!

Everything from fair trade, pollution, child labor, medical costs, humane treatment of animals, our environment, even emotional long-term effects- we live in an age where the outcome of our species lies in our mouths!

Do you see? It’s a mirror that constantly reminds us of how we actually feel about our own Being and those around us.

Emotions and food have gone together as long as we’ve been around. There are deep karmic or never-ending cycles which can be transformed into beneficial merit as we aim to find deep self-love for ourself, others, and with the divine inside us.

To get started right away in detoxing and embodying a wholistic relationship with the foods we use to nourish our bodies, a simple thing to add to your daily routine to increase your health is tongue scrubbing; why and what!?

Tongue scrubbing or scaping is is an easy, quick, and effective way to:

Get a better sense of taste,
Remove bacteria,
Have better digestion,
Activate organs,
Remove bad breathe, and
Boost immunity

According to here-are-6-benefits-of-tongue-scraping at www.healthshots.com

by Aayushi Gupta

This magical yet straightforward act of scraping our tongues can lead to many beneficial side effects and can be performed in a minute or two. We are literally scraping off the old to allow the new to grow. As outlined in this whole blog piece, everything is interconnected. The tongue holds a map to our entire physical Being, and since it is so tied to our daily habits like breathing, talking, eating, and drinking, it makes sense to start here.

Order a tongue scraper now, pro tip: I used a spoon for a while and the real deal is a much better experience ;)

Food as a medicine

As previously highlighted, food is an act of self-care which leads to detoxifying our entire Being and world. In this light, it is also used as a medicine to heal the wounds of our world. We make choices every day on what we will put in our mouth holes and excrete back to the earth. kolee was recently introduced to ayurvedic practices and quickly realized the fancy name added up to using food as medicine to affect our whole Being. Cumin is high in iron, flaxseed is high in calcium, mung beans are high in protein, papaya seeds are high in fiber, and on and on the list goes. We’ve all probably at least been introduced to this information, yet why do we continue making our cells sick by not eating them??

It’s mostly because either we haven’t been educated on these issues or if we have we didn’t have enough information to realize why it’s so important to take action. In either case, do yourself and those you love and care for a favor and begin the work of eating for life. My new friend Adam Zaks has an excellent introductory book about this in “Doctors study sickness, you should study health” available on his beautiful website https://a2zedhealth.com.au/product/doctors-study-sickness-you-should-study-health/

Pamela has a lovely detoxification program where she helps guide people to heal our bodies by learning new habits and food preparation skills. Her smoothie and smoothie bowl challenge is available at https://payhip.com/b/nZGOe as well as helping others embark on this wild ride of healing and self-love through groups, blog, and challenges all available from www.linktr.ee/pamela1111

There are MANY beautiful Beings on earth today who have done this hard work of self-transformation and offer services to us to do the same. There is no excuse in our modern world that needs to prevent us from feeling our absolute best! I cheer you on continuously in this massive support of our new earth creation, starting at home- today.

Gratitude

The act of gratitude keeps us aware of all which is correct in our lives. It allows more of what we want to see to flow effortlessly into our realities. Learning how to be in peace and gratitude changes your life completely. When we take moments several times a day to be thankful for what we have already created, we become aligned with creating more! By focusing on what we have already achieved or created, we not only are learning to be gentle and appreciate ourselves but we are also imagining and creating the spirit of beneficial growth. Yes, it is key to become aware of that which we would like to change, and nothing gets us here faster than acknowledging the positive blessings in our lives as well. Being grateful for our food, water, children, air, pets, family, friends, resources, even flushing toilets is a beautiful practice which allows change at a beneficial pace.

At first we can keep a gratitude journal and create scheduled entries of at least 3 things we are thankful for today. As this practice becomes more natural, we begin to experience SOME kind of gratitude in any situation! It may sound odd, but even when things do not materialize like I thought they would, I can still find some bits of gratitude of each moment.

Our lives are made up of what we do each day, with this wisdom in the front of our minds, we realize if we aren’t thankful now, we never will be.

Oof- hard hitting right? It’s true though, kolee is a recovering angry and bitter woman who in the eye’s of the world has every ‘right’ to be mad, angry, and hostile. But come on people, really?

Is this really how we wish to spend our time on earth? Do we really desire to remain stuck in the past and upset about what we have, have done, have been through, and the like or are we actually ready to take small steps toward total liberation?!

I say yes we are! I am and Pam is and we know you are too ;)

Let’s go, commit to adding in a small step to begin or advance TODAY and rock it out!

Keep adding in small sustainable steps to detoxify, build up, and transform your self so we can all be healthy and happy once and for all!

Light and unconditioned love, kolee & Pamela n krew

Want to discover dynamic solutions to modern global issues?

essentialmind@icloud.com (kolee Hemenway) — Mon, 27 Sep 2021 15:56:50 GMT

Interview with Pamela Acosta, Sept 24, 2021, on how to heal the inner child to heal the world!

Listen to the whole talk and read the highlights here!

Pamela is a fellow blogger who brings healing and life as a plant-based facilitator and enthusiast. She is an accomplished designer of her own life and teaches others to do it in a wholistic, safe, and effective process. She’s done the hard work herself and shares her journey with others so all can achieve overall health and wellbeing too.

Nothing brings me more joy than connecting with others who plow the fields of humanity with other aware and conscious Beings, and Pam is one for sure! We’ve gotten to know each other over the past year and I’m SO GRATEFUL and honored to be in this space with her divine magical Being! She was an early reader of my newest book “Heal the inner child to Heal the world!” and been hugely instrumental in supporting its creation! In this season 3 premiere episode, she interviews ME! It was awesome to be the one answering the questions instead of asking them :) We hope you enjoy and are enriched by the talk and are inspired to start or keep going through the amazing process of healing.

Here is a written list of the questions Pam asked and kolee answered. In the talk we meander through all these issues plus some and weave a beautiful narrative of mindfulness, healing, transformation, and awareness.

Enjoy and share with others who you think could benefit from the convo :)

1. What was the process for me of taking the inner knowledge I realized to the other world?

“In seeing how fast I changed my life I had known and built my entire identity around after 14 years of marriage, absolute loyalty to him and my children, growing in my wholistic health journey (so cleaning up the literal shit inside me first), I became aware I had been conditioned to think change takes a long time. It IS a process, but with the correct mindset (which the book aims to expand) EVERYTHING can change in an instant.”

When I changed everything around me basically instantly after my divorce 7 years ago, I saw for the first time in my life we do are not EVER stuck in our current realities and we can take action to change everything!

Once we change it though, we still need to change our mindsets or we will continue creating dead-end situations with the new people/places in our lives! The book “Heal the inner child to Heal the world!” talks all about this mindset shift and seeks to support this new consciousness we need to get out of old crappy situations and stay in lovely and healing new ones :)

2. What do I believe to be the deepest wound that we need to heal as a collective?

“Basically, nonlove or fear can manifest as shame, guilt, regret, rejection, anger, or bitterness. It’s the same root cause, it just grows into a different beast as we fertilize it with different agents. The wounds need to be cleaned, dressed, nurtured, and seen before they can be healed and healthy.”

3. What was the hardest trauma or attachment to release? Why? How did I begin the journey?

“The hardest trauma or story as I like to call it to release for me was that I was “unloveable.” It was a deep-seated attachment that began in the womb for me as my mother’s placenta (lifeline) didn’t have enough for me to live on, so I came out early. Seriously, from day 0 I was making life-saving decisions (welcome to the world dear capricorn!), and through my specific genetic and ancestral conditioning, I came to the conclusion I wasn’t loved, I wasn’t worthy of love, if I was loveable surely my own creator would nourish me, etc…. Of course, the reason it was so difficult to deal with is the fact that it was almost totally subconscious and a buried belief.

Although it colored EVERYTHING in my life, I was unaware that it was running the (shit) show. It all changed when I used my free will to enter the subconscious and reprogram my body to deal with the manifestation of sexual abuse at a very young age which 1. Was attracted and allowed into my reality because of the inherent belief I was in fact not loveable and 2. I was subconsciously recreating these abandonment and rejection issues in order to ultimately wake myself up to the pain of these feelings in order to heal them and move on! It literally changed my life because I got to that core trauma through several EMDR sessions which became the catalyst to leaving my loveless marriage, “If I am indeed loveable, I can’t stay in a relationship where I’m treated without love.” It still took 3 years of reprocessing on my own in nature to really start to see the patterns of this original trauma played out.”

4. What advice would I give to another on the same journey of self-reflection and healing? Where to start? How does the middle part of the journey feel? What happens after we realize magic manifestation skills?

“ Main advice- JUST DO THE WORK!

Honestly assess what is going on NOW, go way back to the womb experience, and begin to see the core wounding intertwined in ALL our stories. It’s magical to become aware of the pain we attempt to numb through various escapes, and when we become aware, we have the power to change and heal.

Once we get started, it feels pretty shitty actually, most people run back to old comforts and remain stuck so when things are beginning, know there will be an incredible amount of pain, and breathe through it basically. Get good solid support systems in place or be as stable as possible, hire help who are trained to deal with intense emotions, engage in some kind of exercise, drink more water, clean house, etc to get the outside a little more aligned with the cleaning we’re doing on the inside.

Then we’ll be making progress and the pain will probably begin to turn more to hope somewhat, we may feel like we’ve arrived and get lazy again BUT we really need to be aware of this middle ground and DON’T STOP, KEEEP GOING! If we keep going, we will gain more momentum to go for the rest of our time on earth and beyond. This is where the freedom comes in because we know deep inside that we got this and it makes life enjoyable to observe, experiment, and grab new opportunities!”

5. Re: PTSD and the trauma I’ve been through-

What would be the best encouragement or advice I would give a woman who feels stuck in any situation or feels lost?

To not internalize it or take it personally or feel as if “you are the only one” feeling this way. It’s the lone wolf syndrome and those shadows really prey on the fear or sadness or anger or shame. So talk about how you feel. Tell your stories, let others know you are hurting or scared.

Acknowledge the pain and as crazy as it seems, that in and of itself begins the healing process.

6. More about being mindful-

How do we realize where we find ourselves in the current moment IS the result from all our actions up until now? What do we do when recognize that the results we become aware of involve our attention to change them instead of blaming circumstances on someone else?

“One of the most resisted steps to full liberation is denial. Denying we have any role in our current state keeps us captive in it. When we begin to take 100% response-ability, we are then 100% in power!

Developing these skills and mindset lead to our full liberatiaon and empower us to make lasting and whole changes- for ourselves and the world.”

7. Re: freedom and sticking with suffering because we don’t think we played a role in the suffering origin. Why do think this happens?

“Holding the ability to respond correctly and trusting in this inner process is key here.

100% Response-ability ultimately.

When we deny the fact that we actually ARE in charge of life 1, we can endure shitty circumstances with joy and love anyway, and 2. We begin to be in charge of what we are a part of. Old ego blocks us from this process by blaming another whereas new reborn ego observes and is secure enough to do something different to actually get a different result- it’s no longer protecting our fragile sick Being from dealing with the hard truth we all must face in order to actually change stuff.”

8. What was my process in becoming whole? How did I piece it all together? How did it change my life?

“It’s been very slow honestly. I had my original “awakening” to real unconditioned love in my early 20’s yet I still was operating under old stories and cellular trauma so that my mindset was still basically the same, sooo the present situations were still validating my broken narratives. It wasn’t until I literally re-programmed the neural pathways in my brain and body that I was awake again to the why I was needing to re-do these horrible stories over and over again. Still, yet there is another stretch where I had to integrate all this information in practical everyday thinking and actions. The 4th part was called embodiment and it allowed for cellular upgrades because finally I was working with healthy cells and Being. This is where I am still, it’s a forever process so don’t ever think we “arrive.”

Now I’m calling in beneficial relationships and realizing the plans I set out to accomplish, I still have to learn how to practically live in this new cellf (self). It’s fun now, but still needs constant attention and awareness to develop further. I can’t even imagine what my life will look like in 5 years let alone 10! I have excitement now though as I do the everyday living that is what makes up our future.”

Enjoy all which was shared here and share with others who you think could benefit from the convo :)

Make sure to check out Pam's 7-Day Detox Challenge HERE if you are looking to upgrade your physical wellbeing too!

Grab your copy of Heal the inner child to Heal the world! HERE (and take advantage of the FREE promo for a limited time!)

Join us both in the telegram group for instant loving friends and high level support!

https://t.me/newearthpublishinghaus

Practicalsaint Talk soon! Kolee n krew xxxoo

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Can we integrate indigenous medicines into modern culture safely and effectively?

essentialmind@icloud.com (kolee Hemenway) — Wed, 26 May 2021 14:14:11 GMT

We think so! Here's how.

Introducing, Rev. Irenka Lerman, “Abyo Sumaq Wayta (healing medicine woman), facilitator of indigenous medicines of the Americas” show recorded 5-54-2021 We’re pleased and honored to welcome returning guest to speak with us about integrating indigenous medicines in our modern world.

Disclaimer: This show is not for treating, curing, preventing or diagnosing. While we are trained health experts, we are not MDs and are not dispensing medical advice. We share our experiences as inspiration for our listeners to be curious or learn more about indigenous plant medicines.

Irenka spent the last 10 years working and living with the indigenous peoples of South America and also in the USA. Works with IMTAAMPAC and was trained by indigenous Maya, Inca, Toltec peoples, and master Peruvian Shaman “doctor of doctors.”

Plant medicines have been with humans as long as humans have been on earth! These ancient healing ways have been a saving grace as long as we have properly cared for and understood the way of the healing plant, yet over time humans got lazy. I just took my brand new baby kitty to the vet to get checked out last week to deal with an eye infection she carried back from her litter mates and received the old stand by penicillin antibiotic. WONDER DRUG!

Overnight her eye was cleared up! Just like magic it was clean and taken care of, it’s no wonder I thought, why humans love this stuff so much! When working with plant medicines, since we are dealing with the entire system as opposed to targeting one specific area, it takes longer. It takes consistent effort, which is why when the wondrous antibiotic made its way to the planet through the marriage of science and nature (penicillin was originally found in mold- don’t forget! As most other drug or medicines are as well, we extract the one constituent known to help a problem, synthetically copy it, patent it, and mass produce it!, both over the counter or prescription, ignoring the whole healing spectrum) the whole planet cheered and basically discarded the ancient ways of natural medicines.

As we have seen in our modern healthcare systems, the overuse of these “wonder drugs” is just as dangerous as using plants to heal without real training or scientific knowledge. It was mind blowing for me to realize there are as many different types of specialty shamans as there are modern day specialists! Of course that would be true, yet since we are so far removed from our indigenous roots, it doesn’t come through in our language or thoughts toward these ways!

Several key points to keep in mind when using plant medicines in our overall well being include:

The need to precisely follow directions given by practitioners, at least at first until we are more in tune with our own bodies and intuition again.

The need to have a properly trained doctor or shaman facilitating our healing processes.

The need to have the correct shaman for our specific issues.

There are about 50 different types of specialty Shamans in the field! We would never choose a heart specialist to perform brain surgery or go to a general family physician to deal with eyesight or dental issues! In the same stream, when choosing a shaman doctor to help with physical pain, we do not hire a shaman specializing in soul retrieval. The crossover for indigenous protocols is wider than in modern medicine thanks to the shaman doctor being trained in the whole human yet clearly we want to hire a natural healer with the same care we would hire any other modern medical physician.

In dealing with key 2, receiving care from a properly trained shaman doctor, can you imagine going to open heart surgery and NOT seeking out the best specialist in the field?! Would you trust your life to someone who has “done it a few times” on their own (yuck, don’t think about it ;) or who hasn’t been trained professionally?! NO WAY. The same concept applies to any healing! Even when we aren’t dealing with a body part, per se, we are definitely dealing with our body in some other form like the mind or spirit! When dealing with our emotions and spirit, we are inviting someone inside us! Though there is no cutting or surgery seen, there IS energetic and spiritual cutting going on! This is why Irenka has dedicated her life to bringing these pure healing techniques to the rest of the planet, in order to safely and effectively bring back the old to be married with the new in perfectly balanced and harmonious ways!

Finally, key 3 reminds us, as with any medicine, to follow the prescribed method of taking said medicine. Length of time, consistency of use, protocols before and after treatment, follow up appointments, etc. all matter greatly to the success we either do or do not receive. This is common sense yet taken so out of context and skewed especially when dealing with plant healing. In our minds, plants are safe so we can basically use them in any willy nilly way and still be okay, which is to some degree truer than deadly pills or other drugs synthetically produced that our bodies cannot break down the same way as natural agents BUT it is to our detriment if the same respect isn’t given to all medicines.

WOW right! My mind was further blown when Irenka tells us how not only are different plants, techniques and even shamans used for specific desired results to occur, we learn that plant medicine use and protocols differ according to the region one lives in!

For example, healers in coastal regions tend to use the local plants to transmute or dissolve dis-ease in the body by ingesting properly prepared medicines, whereas the mountain people can use a poultice protocol to draw out or infuse into the body. Further, peoples in the jungle regions are most familiar in working with the spirit and the personality of the plant in order to bring about correct harmony and balance in one's bodies. Isn’t that awesome! This along with realizing there are many different areas of specialty in the shamanic healing world, were the two main takeaways from this practicalsaint talk for sure! Diversity!!!!!!! Diversity brings unity :)

This is where modern healthcare is headed very quickly as we are already integrating medical grade essential oils into our USA hospitals and medical facilities, as have been integrated long ago by Europe, Asia and Africa :) As we remember and bring back the true correct ways of plant healing ALONG with new scientific breakthroughs we merge the worlds of science and nature in ways that continue to build upon one another with miraculous outcomes! Again, we are so blessed to receive and transmit this message and others like it at this time now!

Plant medicines like peyote and cannabis have been widely used for a while in the USA specifically, of course these healing plants are used globally, yet the newer plant on the block straight from the jungle is ayahuasca ! Irenka worked deeply with the preservation and application of traditional medicines with the indigenous people of the Americas and was specifically trained to be a trusted ambassador to correctly bring the healing benefits of this beautiful plant on her last stay in the Amazon jungle of Mexico and Peru. We are honored to receive her awesome wisdom and knowledge, especially in these times of global health awareness!

As we gather this information, we also remember there is a lot of misinformation surrounding this topic of plant medicine in general that we seek to clear up a bit in this piece. We keep in mind that too much or incorrect amounts of medicine and/or receiving medicines from a not properly trained facilitator overseeing the ceremony or giving instruction for use of medicine can be as dangerous as self medicating and dosing with any synthetic modern medicine or drug like opioids or other prescription drugs. Please notice the term “drug” is used in modern settings where the term medicine used to be used. To be clear- “medicine” is term that is defined by Oxford Languages as a compound or preparation used for the treatment or prevention of disease, especially a drug or drugs taken by mouth. Or a healing substance. Medicines come in many many forms and we are narrowing in on healing plant medicines during this interview.

The goal of indigenous medicines is always to harmoniously balance the total Being as gently and graciously as possible! SOOOO BEAUTIFUL! As we compare the synthetic modern medicine way to that of ancient natural medicines, we see how a drug prescribed by modern medical doctors uses one or maybe two active chemical constituents designed to work in the body to achieve a specific result whereas natural chemicals found in the whole plant has hundreds of active ingredients that can go in and intelligently work with ALL systems in order to bring about a correct working order in the whole system! Plant medicines have played a HUGE role in my own personal healing over the last decade as well as a staple of caring for my 4 younger sons still at home.

There isn’t a day that goes by that my family doesn't harness the healing power of plants from all around the world! We stay super healthy and bright as a family and have worked with thousands of families from all over the globe who have all received the same benefits. While we are not against anything and certainly not against modern medicines, we are for integrative beneficial medical modalities and seek to share with our audience the real benefits of healing the whole person as opposed to dealing with one system at a time. Besides the limited target of modern synthetic agents or medical professionals, there can be very real harm to the whole human when we go in and work with a compartmentalized mindset. The whole society reflects this targeted and narrow minded focus with a separatist and egoic view as well.

If we look at some of the culturalized fear or ignorance toward plant medicines, Irenka mentions Christianity for example, we notice patterns of ignoring historical facts and replacing them with dogmatic societal “norms” that have proved to be non beneficial when allowed to “grow.” It is worth mentioning that the christian bible along with hundreds of other religious documents and texts record the use of plants and herbs and other naturally occurring medicines in all kinds of ceremonies and healing arts. There is no separation when it comes to what grows from our beloved planet and health. Even as we abuse our water, sun and soil , the intelligence of mother nature and father sky come together as loving parents to tend and mend us, the children of earth. Let us show extra respect to our planet from now on as we remember this truth.

I encourage everyone to listen or watch the entire interview, as Irenka beautifully describes in depth the true ayahuasca tea preparations, what to look for when choosing a proper shaman doctor, how the ceremony will be properly held, the beauty of the harmonies of energies in the tea itself and how we can begin to integrate the indigenous wisdom and agents in with our modern medical systems.

As we look at integrating these two seemingly opposite healthcare models, we are reminded of what harmonizing opposites produces! The ayahuasca plant carries mainly male traits and true ayahuasca tea is always made from at least two plants, one being the male the other containing the female components to absolutely harmonize and heal the whole self. This was yet another eye opening fact I personally received from this talk. Diversity always brings unity!

#differentnotless :)

In these ceremonies dealing with facilitators, we not only open our physical, mental, and spiritual selves up to discovery and unity, we need to be aware we are also open to whatever energy the facilitator is attached to as well! Again, the importance of properly choosing to safely participate in these amazing healing ceremonies cannot be overstated. This isn't to deter us from doing due diligence in seeking out these correct healers, only to remain conscious of what to look for before proceeding.

Bringing qualified shaman doctors to the western world is something Rev. Irenka is very passionate about! Because she knows the amazing benefits of correctly using all indigenous healing modalities, she has dedicated her life to this mission :) We continue to harmonize modern and ancient healing methods to heal our bodies and planet. In doing so, we must always keep in mind as well that modern medicines treat mainly either physical symptoms or emotional psychological issues separately and almost totally ignore the spirit essence in our bodies while traditional medicines are often perceived as just dealing with the spirit which affects our general emotional health, which are both ineffective and incorrect.

Traditional medicines, or natural medicines both deal (not band-aid type treatments designed to suppress symptoms as in modern medicines but get to the root issue of dis harmony or dis-ease in order to fix said issues!) and heal physical pain and problems as well as emotional and spiritual issues- all of which make up our earthly bodies we live in while on earth. Over time as science and technology have come into the picture of our medical care, modern physicians have realized the super importance of looking at the entire picture before diagnosing and treating any illness or problem. Because of the efficacy of this wholistic modality, we are in the beginning stages of ever lasting change in our planet's health and wellbeing!

Over the last decade, I have been on the ground working towards this goal as well and have seen incredible leaps in the US medical industry to begin safely and effectively integrating these worlds and with continued concentration and efforts, it is our desire to have safe and correct beneficial medical care available to every single Being on earth.

I’m so honored to get to partner with Irenka and the institute of traditional medicines (IMTAAMPAC). During this recording, we are invited to participate in an international gathering of indigenous healers of all kinds to re-learn and integrate this almost disappearing healing model. This event takes place in Peru in Oct 2021 and is desperately needed to facilitate more indigenous healers to take back this sacred wisdom to the entire globe to help us all! Please consider contributing to this precious gift of life if this message resonates at all! The travel expenses are great obviously and “all hands on deck” are needed right now! Irenka is coordinating this event and will be offering travel to at least 20 healers by raising over $36,000 USD by August 2021. You can read more about the event here as well as contribute to this amazing endeavor here: go fund me . By giving ANY amount , we show our intentions of becoming a healthier race on a healthier planet! It is truly a privilege to be able to support such noble endeavors during this time of healthcare crisis.

In like manner, if we want to begin integrating plant medicines into our regular modern medical routines, we can take baby steps (as Irenka instructs us to take all along this journey) and begin adding in less invasive yet equally powerful plant essential oils of all kinds from all over the planet which are grown, harvested, produced, and distributed in a wholistic and beneficial approach. Irenka and her teams and kolee and krew are always here for you to begin discovering a whole new world (enter my mermaid music :) of integrative healing medicines that can truly transform anyone’s life for the better. We hope this talk inspired our readers and listeners to take action and begin living the life we really have been designed to live!

Irenka also gives us a few awesome pro tips to help us start integrating whole health care into our daily lives when dealing with issues, at whatever level. And again, I encourage us to listen to the entire talk because Irenka gives fascinating background information for all these tips! I’ll briefly recap them here for us too:

If we are feeling ‘off’ and not in tip top shape, GO TO A NEW LOCATION for a bit! It’s called a vacation :) We can use this change of location to harness different engines of the air, sun and elements of these different locals.

Go to the water! Water has immense healing qualities that are often overlooked when looking to deal with our health. We can go to a river or creek, ocean or sea, lake or just start to really intentionally heal through drinking pure water and bathing in it!

Lastly and certainly not least, ask for help! We are communal Beings and are designed to work together in community :) Simply reaching out to anyone linked in this show or a local trusted healer can bring about exponential beneficial change in ways most of us never dreamed:)

We ended the show with a beautiful message from spirit by pulling a card from the “Mystical Shaman Oracle deck from the highly respected Shaman Robert Villoldo and author of One Spirit Medicine (I was blessed to get mine back around 2016 ish on kindle version, these are only available in hard copy it seems now so get it asap if it interests you!).

Thank you so much for being here with us, we look forward to supporting you on your whole health journey, schedule a free 20 minute discovery session with kolee to learn more about plant essential oils and email Irenka with any questions or comments you may have for her, sumaqwayta.condor@gmail.com! Go to her youtube and learn more about the Oct event and the Organization she works with!

Practicalsaint talk to you soon! kolee n krew www.essentialmind.me

PS my computer died exactly as the show was ending, so forgive the abrupt stop :)

WARNING- adult conversations about sex here, proceed with care :) enjoy!

essentialmind@icloud.com (kolee Hemenway) — Sun, 18 Apr 2021 19:17:51 GMT

Let’s talk about sex baby, let’s talk about good things and the bad things that may be… (Source: Musixmatch

Songwriters: Herbie E. Azor / Fingerprints

Let’s Talk About Sex lyrics © Wb Music Corp., Sons Of K-oss Music Inc., Sons Of K-oss Music, Inc.

You’re welcome :) So for those of you just meeting me, know that I really am shy and mostly do not enjoy the feeling of not knowing what I am doing :) Over The years, I've grown to respect the process of learning and mastery to the point where I am now- when I feel inept and uncoordinated I can embrace the challenge. I can look the new idea in the face and be like, “o, we got this kolee, we got this! ENTER sex. I’m not not ‘experienced’ (or inept per se) with the penis in the vagina sex, I have 5 sons. I’m one with my body and have grown to love it. I’ve even had lovers where we had more freedom to play and enjoy each other, yet still my mind was often other places than my body. I wasn’t wholly present and therefor the kind of sex we talked about during this podcast was something I have no idea about! I had to google “BDSM” haha if this helps you to feel smart or at ease now :)

Crazy how someone in their 40’s could never have had a real meaningful fully present sexual experience, after being married 14 years, after having 5 children, after having sex with plenty other bodies- it’s just a crazy indicator where the human race exists on planet earth at the time of this writing April 2021.

This is why Angelique and her partner in crime as they call each other John Luna embarked half a decade ago to begin bringing real powerful non traditional sexual conversations to the public and never looked back since then. In all my levels and breakthroughs, the size of the leap out of the comfort zone I lived in equaled the size of the miracle or breakthrough I experienced. I can only pray it will be the same here in the sex arena! Sex is such a complicated convoluted piece to our existence! It ravels and travels inside outside all around us in our very core essence in the guise of survival of the fittest, comfort and belonging, community and care. It can and has basically gone extinct in some cultures and through science and technology can be basically done away with for reproduction purposes, so what then IS the reason for the act? Why would humans choose to connect in this most powerful and intimate way if it’s no longer needed?

Let’s go there then :) Personally, I’ve been divorced 7 years, since then I’ve had a lover since i was 14 I let go, a live in who wanted a free ride that I broke up with, a couple Rabbi’s who wanted to snap up my family as well as at least one other religious cult who were horrified that I could be a single mother and raise my family on my own who offered to “take care of us.” One of the Rabbis had sex with me first then by laws of Judaism was ready to claim me for the rest of my life, lucky me- i broke up with him too. I realize it goes back to the core belief that women need a man to survive and men need a woman to have sex (survive) and the family that comes from sex is basically the point of marriage. It’s so fucking old fashioned though! It’s barbaric and archaic! Get over it already christian, catholic, muslim, jew, and the like! Please!

On the other hand, before I was married I did whatever I wanted with whoever I wanted, which was mostly drunken sex, sometimes consensually sometimes not. As a survivor of childhood sexual trauma, of course it carried into my adult life, yet I was so divided inside that I hardly gave it one thought about how the past trauma affected my current views and feels. That’s the way the divided ego wins the game. It skillfully protects present self from past selves, only since ego is primordial and ancient, it really is blind tough love. Re-born ego is of the current and present shiz needed to transcend and transform old wounds into modern day breakthroughs and success. SO let’s speak from that space here okay :) Hi ego we see you, we love and respect you and we’re here to loosen the grip you have on the places where we want to grow and expand. It’s ok, we won’t kill you, we’ll just repurpose you a little :) ;)

I think this is one of the most important and heroic functions of positive sex conversations like the ones the Luna’s consistently facilitate. Realizing how our Beings are intricately tied to every part of our daily lives is just golden! Speaking about it freely allows growth and positive change to occur, in ALL areas of our lives! Especially in the arena of religiously suppressed topics of sexuality. The amount of power and creative energy that is released when 2 (or more) people come together is unmatched with any other act human beings can achieve on earth through our body vehicles, which is why it is feared and suppressed like no other topic on earth! It is the reason children are not taught appropriately about sex from an early age, it is the reason people are not taught about the correct terms and functions of our reproductive and sexual organs or pleasure and tantric sex at all(in USA anyway), it’s the reason erotism and pleasure is taken out of the equation and taught only for reproductive purposes (religiously to make sure there’s always a supply of faithful brainwashed congregates to “teach” and that tithe and socially to supply faithful tax payers and slave workers). Don't even get me started here, I don't think I wanna go political in this piece yet clearly and obviously this suppression of true sexuality and intimacy has been orchestrated and perpetuated for hidden reasons for thousands of years on planet earth. And we have to remember the American government is NOT alone in its brainwashing, the countries all do it in different ways to manipulate and blind the citizens. India is populated by sex workers children that litter the streets and so it goes, they have a high population of humans to trade to a world where sex has been oppressed and become a sneaky, guilty, hot and racy event instead of a loving and powerful act to manifest everything we ever wanted! So just use this realization to fuel our desire to get to the bottom of this comfort zone and really “go there” as we read the rest and dive more into this amazing and healing arena of sex positive me :D

As Angelique and I continued to speak about positive sex, she made the point that it often “gets worse” before it gets better. “We have to put in the work” she tells us, in any area of life and sex is no different. Shame, guilt, hiding and secretive energies love to fit in and hide, running the show from the shadows. Here when we shine the light on these camouflaged ideas and feelings, we often feel worse! We have gone along for so long with the underlying currents of dis-ease and lack that we learn to work with them! We learn to appreciate them even and grow up with them around, comforting us by causing pain and uncertainty. So now we bring them to light and are often surprised we would rather stick em back in and under and go on like before… even though before sucked and left us feeling deflated and empty. Only because the unfamiliar feeling of hope or closeness or excitement of the pure kind is relatively a stranger to most of us. Ego wants to close the door as fast as possible. DON’T LISTEN! Do not close the door! Open it, open it wide and keep running though! Run and leap and twirl and smile. Freedom of the highest way is here, finally!

I would say (opinion and educated guess) that the evolution of a species is marked by how intimate and connected sexuality is viewed and practiced. Sex magic is a thing people. Sex can be used to achieve unimaginable heights, and IS used that way by lots of different sects and Beings. One of the reasons human beings that live on earth are so popular in the mulit verse is that we have bodies that merge with our spirits and our consciousness (mind) !!! Trifecta perfection people! Here we are, it’s our time to take back this sacred act and yes, normalize the conversations around and like all other topics we speak about here at essentialmind, sex has levels. It’s all good as long as we’re being safe, kind and respectful, not hurting anyone or anything and when we make a mess, we clean it up right away! It’s allllll good!

As a recovering perfectionist, I’m like, o, I only want my divine counterpart to have magical tantric sex with. Ya, that’s it.”

Lol, maybe it’ll work out that way, maybe it won’t! I’m open to have meaningful intimate sexuality with another human again after being celibate the last 16 months (but who’s counting haha) I want to practice and cultivate intimacy that starts from our open heart space and our aligned creative and power centers as well as harnessing divinity through our open crown and 3rd eye places, coming into permanent being by speaking and vocalizing via our throats and vocal chords, rooting down through our physically connected bodies and pulling earth energy up round through and erywhere-- fully focused on yes pleasuring each other and also holding our united visions while making love and orgasming so WE CREATE NEW LIFE that is not a baby! I alluded to it above, let’s just reiterate here shall we. SEXUAL CREATIVE POWER is not limited to causing the big bang that begins life (babies) it is absolutely at our ready to create EVERYTHING OR ANYTHING we can ever consciously agree on though open communication and aware sexual unification.

I can’t expect to hit a home run the first time I’m up to bat in years, yet I aspire to that haha. I can intend that my next lover is sensitive to my back story and cares about me me and want to help me feel safe and powerful and beautiful and loved. I can intend to have a sexual partner that allows me into their sacred space the way I allowed them in. I can intend to have aware and powerful lovers that help me create passion and reach the stars just by exponentially uniting our powerful Beings as one, I can intend these things and prayerfully my time is coming to manifest this dream. I feel like the universe really does want us to experience joy and fulfillment through our most sensual (using our human senses to experience life) and intimate (connecting on a deeper level than physically) expression of sex. If we intend and are willing to feel the fear and do it anyway, I suspect help will come and divine magic occurs, just like in every other area of life :)

In our sex positive me interview, we talked about a lot powerful concepts, I pray as we listen or watch we can overcome preconceived notions that are bound to come up as we hear. When the feelings come up, notice them! Notice what triggers us still and intend to release the blocks and realize as we allow these energies to dissolve or transmute (alchemize), energy is freed and freely flows to all our Beings and magical miracles DO occur this way! Angelique and John do an amazing job at keeping the convos respectful and peaceful. There is no one who is outcast and “bad.” Not anyone! Ever! I pay homage to this couple for bringing not only super important conversations to the public but also for bringing compassion and acceptance to all, no matter what path we’re into at the moment! The subject is met with non judgment, on the conservative and timid side to the radical and adventurous groups. I super appreciate this! I had the honor of attending a class the couple presented on tantric sex and yes, i was totally DYING lol (it’s just out of my comfort zone to talk about sex parts and acts and and and but here I am, doing the hard things to get to the reward, if I can do it, so can you!). It was totally educational and interesting, I’m sure :P I encourage everyone to get connected to positive sex groups like the Luna’s FB group or listen to their shows at least. I get to be a guest on her podcast next week to wrap up Sexual Assault Awareness month, so there’s at least one show you’ll want to catch :)

Boundaries, respect, consent are king around here and of course we promote them here just like we always do. In the class we talked about letting your partner know what does and does not feel good. I get it, yes I want to be able to express myself during the moment, mostly though I wish to cultivate real intimacy on all levels before the sex so that during the sex we’re free to explore and enjoy- in the moment. SO setting up the boundaries and creating the river banks before hand through everyday communication and mutual respect so the flow can really flow however it wants during our magic sex times :) yep, I wanted to leave you with that little bit of inspiration:) If you already have a lover, work at opening new conversations up around your intimacy. If you are single, cultivate a new level of intimacy with your self :O ya, with yourself! Men can learn to not ejaculate and push that shiz up and around their own bodies as power and magic sauce and women can learn to love and appreciate all our parts and notice how ours bodies respond with different stimulation.

Being okay with whatever we do like is boss too :) Being present and aware enough to realize, I like this and that’s okay is where we want to get to for our humanity to expand from 2020 and beyond. We’re experiencing a great shift in all of humanity, and of course sex is not off the list! If one hooked up with a sexually intimate partner, please be kind to each other and begin to cultivate a new level of trust and friendship between you, we’re all 100% response-able to create new paradigms around our most sacred vulnerable parts as humans. As we keep this topic going, I pray for whole health and healing to emerge from here :) infinite blessings my beloveds, talk again soon!

PS after wrote this I had my scheduled coaching session with my flow state coach where we skillfully unraveled trauma and hidden blocks that turned out to be around sex, taking up space and money, go figure! It was literally HUGE shifts that just took place. In less than 60 minutes, we broke through barriers placed from before birth in some cases and have continued to color my physical, mental, emotional and spiritual bodies ever since. This is just another ‘plug’ to do the work with qualified professionals in order to magically move the dial to freedom and abundance. I did the work when I resisted doing it, I felt the fear and did it anyway, I showed up and trusted the process and lo and behold-- it works! So keep going tribe! Keep going!

Thank you for sharing and commenting on all platforms if this show was in any way helpful or beneficial to you:) we super appreciate your awesome part to affect change for the planet!

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Season 2 is coming to an end where season 3 kolee will talk to you by herself and tell stories to educate and enrich :) Season 4 will most likely be back to the interview style of the show and we'll see from there! thank you eternally for being here with us, until next time!

Harmoniously merging our Human bodies with Divinity-- as comfortably as possible

essentialmind@icloud.com (kolee Hemenway) — Mon, 12 Apr 2021 00:10:38 GMT

Harmoniously merging our Human bodies with Divinity--

as comfortably as possible! Practicalsaint style ;)

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Although the healing modalities she pursues are rooted in knowledge of eastern European ancient and modern healers, they overlap with other cultures. Irena’s training includes teachings of B. Kafka (Czech spiritist and researcher, author of "New principles of experimental psychology"), MUDr. J. Jonas (Czech electroacupuncturist and specialist in systematic detoxification), and Dr. V. Terc- descendant of Czech physician Phillip Terc (the founder of modern Apitherapy). The Apitherapy incorporates understanding of: a) external and internal causes and signs of health disruption, b) nerve fibers network, c) cells’ structural and biological function, d) immune, hormonal, endocrine, and lymph system operation, e) pathogenicity of parasites, viruses, and bacteria.

WHO rev Irenka. WHAT merging of the 3D 4D 5D selves. WHERE right here in planet earth When right now WHY “we’re going to die and we can keep coming back into the is sorry story we created or we can come back or stay consciously and start living practically and building the new earth”,

We talk about what the 3D, 4D, 5D and beyond are and how to deal with each in our human bodies. In order to make it easier we can add practical tools into our everyday life, like color therapy, getting into nature and remembering nature is all around us, inside us and is actually inside our homes too! Like our organic cotton sheets and blankets made of natural materials, wood furniture and floors, and the air we breathe:)

Taking this divine embodiment slowly and consciously are key to whole healthy integration.

We talk about the concept of “gentle resilience.” Resilience allows us to be more open, respond harmoniously to any situation. Also gratitude is a key to our harmony and peace. Seeing all people and events as an opportunity to practice these techniques really open our Beings to miraculous harmony in ways our old selves could never imagine!

Expanding on 3D, 4D and 5D -seeing life from new and different perspectives. Irenka gives the monk story of seeing an elephant with their hands only and describing the narrow “view” that each is directly in front of.

Defined loosely is 3D solid matrix of current “reality” like work, school, home ,eating ergo; seeing touching tasting feeling and smelling- place of ego and senses, 4D is heart centered open heart living and 5D is more multi dimensional other worldly experiences that are of a higher vibratory response than the basic resonance of human Beings currently.

Unity consciousness, mirror wisdom, kundalini and balanced energies within each Being harmoniously living in alignment with brain heart and gut. Irenka travels all over and has recently been spending time with the Mayan people and Toltec and other indeginess peoples deep in the mexican jungles working with shamans healers, seers, magicians etc and spends this 58 minutes speaking with us about current issues abounding on planet earth now and also we look into the newar ish future and deal with practical daily lifestyle practices that make huge shifts for us earthlings with as much ease and grace as we can all merit:)

We super enjoyed our talk together as friends and also to spread some hope and ease to our fellow like minded people. Please contact either Irenka or kolee for more information or questions on any of the topics we mentioned on the 3 31 2021 show and also let us know any other topics questions and or comments on any other sustainable or win win solutions for us all, please contact Irenka on whattsapp 1(575)7416281 and kolee essentialmind@icould.com or insta DM @practicalsaint

Thank you for listening and sharing and rating the podcast to help us spread this super important message! You are loved and valued super much and we can’t wait to hear from you both to support you on your journey and to hear about your personal stories! Talk soon :)

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Want to learn how to Manifest Magic through the practice of Tantra?

essentialmind@icloud.com (kolee Hemenway) — Fri, 26 Feb 2021 19:46:19 GMT

Join our international guest Ashna who dives deep into the magic practice of 'tantra'

We love tantra and we love Ashna! Tantra and Ashna! Season 2 episode 3! Practicalsaint Talks with Ashna about TANTRA practices within in order to manifest anything we ever desire... Realizing how to ultimately powerful we actually are... Fully response Able of of entire lives we create around us

Who Ashna from Vancouver Canada

What shares her cultural and ancestral wisdom on the subject of “tantra” and energetic marriage

Where that merges inside our own “cellves” first and then with others as we begin to co-create with another “inner-gee”

When the student is ready, when the Divine calling can no longer be drown out by substances or agents of busy-ness (busi-ness) and distraction

Why because morality is so “2019” and as we step into the new earth unity calling, we no longer can stand idly by watching blame, guilt, shame and rejection mixed with judgment to call the shots ANY LONGER! In the 2020’s and beyond!

Any questions DM @practicalsaint or email Ashna Mzashnanarayan@gmail.com

Timestamps and chapters when listening to embedded cast above!

Intro to show Who What Where When and Why

Safe, cheap and effective natural healthcare contact kolee 2:45

essentialmind@icloud.com to find out more about how you could feel better and support upleveling on all levels!

Ashna talks 6:22

Kolee takes a small rant about sex 29:29

Alchemy 32:00

Awareness 35:00

End and stay in touch! 42:09

(edited bio from Ashna)

“I come from a background of many ancient practices and teachings. My families, aboriginal indigenous Fijian side. I also come from another mother native before the colonization of my ancestors being taken from their motherland. Hundreds of years later we still attain the rich teachings from Dravidian/Indian heritage still prominent in (the culture by) participating in the rituals and the seeking in knowledge from our community. I am here to give you an insight of the worlds lost forgotten or even purposely hidden spirituality. (I) will be speaking on various subjects like: What is Tantra and Why do most people look at tantra as occult, When “Tantra” (literally means technique) is used to “master the use of your mind and body (and) soul

FULL BLOG BELOW!

Working backwards on this cast I think may be helpful for me to recap the essence of the show for you folks who like my commentary as much as you do the “real” encounter captured in youtube land and buzzsprout world, both are embedded above for your convenience :) The why of this cast is the idea of “morality” is old fashioned and useless in a results driven culture. In a global economy, love and money are interchangeable and work seamlessly as one whole unit. In looking at the why of tantra, as it were called, in looking at the equal and holy exchange of “inner-gee” (energy) flowing in and out of each Being back and lovingly forth between 2 or maybe even more individuals! It’s a beautiful why of leaving judgment based on conditioned thinking and forced limits in order to achieve a new creative living dream of “abundance, success and love every day as we inspire those around us to do the same (Gay Hendricks Big Leap)

So ya, as shame, guilt and fear of rejection or abandonment falls away the moral energetic hold dis-solves as well until we are left with what at its’ core is pure beauty and pure essence: alchemy at its’ finest.

Moral fear and superiority used to be boss, but now thanks to the dis-solution of the first ego we enter into a whole new age! A new age where results and experimenting rule! A whole new world of love and laughter, playfulness and discovery support and guide new ideas and imaginings. In this podcast, we get to go inside the traditional teaching of said ancient practices of alchemizing and transmuting the energetic “fingerprints” of the individual and ultimately share that process with another for exponential majestic “wizardry” :) Fucking mind blowing I know, it is if you grasp the implications of what we’re talking about here in this hour! The why of the technique of cellular and energetic harmony within ones own cells and then with at least one other human Being and then with the unseen Divinity within our cells as well as reflected harmoniously externally as well!!!! Boomity boom boom as one of my favorite publishers, 5D publishing company , says :) Use code ESSENTIALMIND for 10% off the Temple shop, get collab books or any other awesome tonic or tool to help up level your goddess temple and sanctuary :) You can read kolee’s collab STAR MOTHER book and her article on “Sacred Harmonious Union” in ourselves first to further dive into this tantra within topic :)

OKAY! Now with our WHY firmly in place, let’s continue to introduce ‘tantra or technique’ to our daily practicalsaint lives, shall we:)

Our WHEN is established by our highest selves (cellves) when we are “ready.” It is said the teaching comes when the student is ready, and so it is here! This info has come to me because I am ready to dig deeper into the ancient truths as well as the new unity consciousness wisdom that is present here and now for this specific time and for all times to come! BOOM! Also it has come to the West because we in America have transcended enough of our narrow minded compartmentalized vision of each other and the rest of the world and universe to be open to receive higher wisdom of unity and alchemy! SO here we have the perfect storm of beauty and intrigued crossed with bliss and unity, over all it’s a cool place to be camped out for the next few years on planet Earth!

Similarly to the when coming to us when we are ready, the WHERE of this cast also rests inside our very own Being! The popular definition of tantra is linked to sex and romance, as this IS a part of unity technique, it is also only A PART of it! The whole of energetic unification on limitless planes of existence no less can ONLY be led from the internal positioning of self realization or at least self awareness! THEN we are capable to begin “hooking up” with another’s “inner-gee”, then and only then have we passed the warrior response ability test and earn the right to create limitless possibilities and realms!

The WHAT of this show is that we really CAN and DO create everything we see, taste, touch, smell, and feel! We really ARE that powerful! We either create out of unconscious and ignorant slumber (at low vibes often which create “undesirable” results) or we create consciously from a higher vibratory state that leads to desirable and wanted feelings, images, physical matter and such:) It’s a beautiful cyclical pattern of awareness, transcendence and transmutation. It can easily turn to a nightmare ish stuck story scene however at the lower vibed levels (commonly called “hell”) of our 3D earth existences. We get sucked in or addicted to living at a certain level of happiness. To the level at which we were conditioned as a human child to accept peace love abundance and “harmoney” is to the level at which we are able to accept our response ability of creating the peace, love, abundance and harmoney we seek to be a part of for eternity.

Yikes! Big topic today friends, the what is that we are powerful creators, whether or not we see or realize ourselves as that. We can uplevel those impulses, thoughts, ideas and stories with the flip of a mental switch that highlights our perfection and our divinity instead of our failures and insecurities.

The WHO of our cast today is a lovely lady based out of Vancouver, Canada

And she breaks down a practicalsaint lifestyle that helps her connect to her inner Divinity and helps her continue to interact with her family, friends and communities in an authentic, open hearted living and and service oriented manner, that not only leaves the planet better off for future generations but also helps upgrades the universal consciousness of the entire multi dimensional multi versal systems. Yes! So it was….

I will do my best to briefly recap some of the practical pro tips Ashna and kolee touch on to help deepen this connection we all have with our inner selves/cells and God/Divine/Source/Universe/ what have you…

Detoxification leads to easier unification at a cellular level and mental awareness just the same. We can help kick start the detox process at a physical level like preservatives in food and products as well as synthetic dyes and flavors/smells. Becoming aware that these synthetic agents linger for decades in our cellular and physical Beings brings us SO MUCH closer to being able to almost completely remove them from our worlds! WOW , imagine that for a movement with me please please! A world where there is so much harmony and unity between all polar opposites that we no longer have a choice to kill ourcells, only help regenerate and lengthen the vitality of any agent or Being. No more death choices, no more polarization between life and death, we live eternally in the heaven and hell we create at any given moment, any given year or seasonal cycle. It just is. Always is , always was and always will be!

So yeas, eating whole foods as much as possible, simple foods that hopefully are grown near by if not in your own back yard, local animal by products instead of industrialized commercial grown mega rape camps/”farms” (slaughter houses and dairy farms- USA conditions are HORRIBLE) Also going synthetic scent free in the form of candles, perfumes, personal hygiene products, household products, etc…. Goes A LOOONG WAY in detoxifying your cells that have years of dangerous chemical burnoff shoved into your fat cells as a way to protect your vital organs! Eliminating these toxins from coming in as well as helping them dissipate safely, cheaply and effectively is what can lead to emotional and spiritual breakthroughs next!

Simple steps to removing these powerful old stories and patterns comes by fresh clean air, small safe does of the Sun and clean fresh purified ground water or coconut waters, each and every day! Amazing miraculous and magical manifestations comes into existence at a faster and faster rate so that eventually we are instantaneously manifesting exactly what we truly desire at our highest and most lovely vibratory self! (o and then we get to attract that to us as well! So now we are creating a community of loving high vibe “selves” where the bond can never be severed again, no memory loss occurs once we get to a certain deep cellular enhancement that occurs from chemical bonds, DNA/RNA coding and nuclear fusion on all new dimensional landscapes! It’s just really really awesome to be alive during a time like this! Where the past existence still remains yet is sadly outdated and left wanting for more, and lo and behold the hold bride of Shakti inner essential power and creative original flow point descends from heaven on high and gracefully floats above us as our eyes gaze upwards to her beauty… behold the lamb of god who takes the sin of world away.” Yes, that is from the christian Bible and allegedly the words of the Jewish Messiah turned Christian God, Jesus Christ of Nazareth. See, HE got rid of morality too! He walked around on earth proclaiming the kingdom of God was INSIDE each person, not outwardly attainable by doing the law, by holy practices, no only by actively living in the blasted 3D polarized dualistic world as a practicalsaint are we able to attain or receive true Divinity, true majestic and sanctimonious sacred holy inner union!

The true secret of tantra is we must let go of any real desire to achieve holiness before we are actually allowed to receive such holiness in the first place. The holiness comes from Being ONE with all that is, allowing our inner essence to coalesce and harmonize within and without and all that is, will be or has ever been. The desire of manifesting powerfully is an awesome pursuit and when coupled with a real desire to serve self and others and Divinity, there is limitless potential and creates incredible hold worlds for eternity!

8 concepts to remember about energetic unification or tantra:

1. It is “energetically communicating”

2. It can be sexual in nature or not

3. Breathing deeply helps one instantly tap into the tantra flow

4. “Shut the fuck up” on a regular basis helps to encourage mindfulness and self realization and awareness.

5. Contemplation is a valuable practice that can help support high vibes basically as well as as any mediation or “sadhana” practice.

6. Information, wisdom, teachers, guides and the like all come when we are personally ready. As in high vibed enough to attract the teaching of any mystical or hidden wisdom.

7. Meditation/zen practices , ie starting blankly and releasing the monkey mind chatter, allowing thoughts to be and becoming the observer of the thoughts as opposed to the creator of said thoughts all bring us to a place of awareness and allow for further mystical and deep experiences.

8. Running cosmic and earth energy is essential in not only protecting our inner essences and maintaining high vibed cellular and spiritual and energetic Beings, but also allows a regular cleaning process to occur so yucky build up does not accrue and “ruin” the vibratory experiences we are looking to create.

Drop me a heart and DM and lmk how you found us! @practicalsaint Talks to you soon :) xxxoo your, kolee

UpGrade to Human Being Love and Light 2.0 version- right now!

essentialmind@icloud.com (kolee Hemenway) — Tue, 23 Feb 2021 16:48:48 GMT

Practicalsaint style new earth 'pro- tips' :)

Timestamps:

Intro 0

Safe, cheap and effective medical support www.mydoterra.com/mind or www.https://www.essentialmind.me/affiliate-shop#EssentialItems 1:25

Roxana Intro 3:05 https://www.instagram.com/roxalchemy/

List of tools we have both used to help up level and support new bodies/minds/spirits 6:17

Roxana shares her story 8:01

Light Language 23:11

New Earth 23:50

What’s Ahead 29:00

Re-parenting 33:00 kolee’s course https://www.whizant.com/

Services Roxana offers 38:54 https://www.instagram.com/roxalchemy/

Face Book Roxana Davidov

Buh bye people, stay connected! You are not alone! 51:00

Who Roxana Davidov @RoxAlchemy

What Talks about moving from trauma and drama to peace and divinity

Where from Romania

When the eternal now

Why to help others transcend shitty stories like we have!

In this cast we covered deep seated patterns solidified as children and how those conditioned reactions or responses translate through our emotional, physical, mental and spiritual bodies. We look at different tools we can use to alchemize negative non beneficial stories into beautiful healing transformative methods. We look at healing the inner child wounds in order to live a harmonious, full, connected human Being experience in this natural world we are born into.

Many are desperate to find peace, love, belonging, balance and harmony and ultimately “God” and until we realize all that we seek externally is already inside our Beings RIGHT NOW! This realization is the zero point for any Being and our task on this earth in these bodies is to fully embody that Divinity and freely give and express from that Divine space.

Message from awesome Roxana,

“Hi! We are multidimensional beings having a human experience.

I have been highly sensitive since a child and didn't feel I fit anywhere. Looking for happiness and love, I had several "awakenings" on my spiritual journey and still a student... and a teacher.

I gathered information and tools from this life and other lives that helped me transform on many levels and learn how to alchemize the fear into love. And I started to come closer to my mission and hold space for others that are going through this process in their unique way and activate the self healer potential and many other gifts that our DNA holds locked within.

The last 8 years of my life had the main focus and investment on self empowerment and improvement and I am more guided than ever to show up with this work further.

Here are some things that helped me on my journey: mentors, shamanism, yoga, workshops, books, music, conscious dance, art, nature, connecting with angels, galactic beings, oracle cards, journaling, deep breathing, astrology, chakras work, crystals, affirmations, meditation, light language sacred gift (that came to me at the beginning of 2020) and more.

Even with the tools, the power is within and the work needs to be done. There is no bypassing. It is about finding God in our cells, deconditioning of mental patterns and programs (we are biocomputers), balancing spirituality with practicality, masculine and feminine, shadow work, inner child healing. It is about self-love so we can have healthy relationships. It is about learning how to be whole again.

I intend this group to be a healing container where people can connect to their heart and mostly to the feminine, creative, nurturing energy - no matter the gender of the physical body.

It is about body mind spirit. Seeing the beauty and allowing joy. Feeling. Present moment. Feeling Alive. Connecting with emotions. It is about clearing the grief in order to shine and express the genius. Making space for more light. Shifting from 3 to 5D. Embracing change. Loving the fear. Manifesting consciously. Going deeper. Embodying the higher self. Raising the frequency. Bringing awareness. Allowing synchronicities. Aligning with who we truly are. Clearing the ancestral pain in order to create Heaven on Earth, New Earth.

Giving you a fluffy blanket now and inspiring you ~ cause I've been through intense moments of darkness where I found the light again.

Being together in this chaotic, magical time.

I will show up channeling and with different other offerings as I go with the flow of the shift also.

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Much love,

Roxana (@RoxAlchemy)”

Roxana talks about her missing Father figure and the importance of those earthly parental roles we experience as younger selves. The seeking for God or a god-like figure “somewhere out there” is often a hole left from childhood wounding including “abandonment by the masculine.” (in cases of absent father figures) or impossible to please feminine energies in the form of perfectionism, shame, guilt or feelings of unlovability based on our mother figures projections. When we realize most earthlings are criss crossed and ill coded from the beginning, we can begin to cut ourselves some slack and slow down enough to look around and begin enjoying the ride of life, as it were. Both kolee and Roxana have had to re parent their inner essence and offer healing services and courses that utilize a number of proven effective healing tools. We mention several that have helped her personally on her healing journey that she also uses to support others on their healing journeys. Namely we go more into the art channeling Roxana began doing early 2020. In these beautiful drawings filled with sacred geometry, blessed symbols and high vibed infused “light language” codes drawn from a holy space held by Roxana as the art comes forth though her. These art pieces were initially for her own inner Divine healing and quickly she realized not only an opportunity to share this incredible healing medicine with others looking for freedom from old wound patterns and habits but also realized the “law of Divine Compensation” where we can be wholistically compensated when we step into our true roles of serving through strengths and natural interests. Her website is coming soon and for now all her works can be discussed or viewed by connecting with her through her instagram or facebook accounts. Roxana serves the collective not only by channeling art but by holding healing sound activated healing sessions and intuitive work with cards, crystals and other helpful healing modalities. Roxana came from a less than stable family of origin and has successfully re-parented her own self and is now free to serve others through that overflow of healing she experiences in her current life. Roxana offers one on one light language channeling, sound therapy, or channeling/infusing personal higher self messages into healing, custom, beautiful, one of kind art pieces.

There is much work to do on this planet earth, and like minded people like Roxana are super important to our success as a whole human race. Those she serves and supports with her genuine kind spirit and wise loving words or her gifted open hearted healing techniques are blessed to have her guidance with us now. Her wholistic life style is supported by this service and continues to inspire us to a new type of business model, one where all parties have over flow of abundance coming in, needs met in excess, ability to flow in multiple income streams (investments, sales, collabs, ad spots, etc) and outlets (charities and organizations, schools and systems). These types of win-win situations become the absolute way it is “across the board” as we look into the future times to come. As our unity new earth consciousness increases, there will be time to realize we are all indeed connected and united, we are one. What I do here DOES affect you there and VISE VERSA! And as THAT message spreads, so too will us all having what we want and need. As “I” take better care of myself here, you over there will know and see exactly what needs to be done now for you there too! As I feel better, I have more inner-gee (energy) to help others and vice versa, there will be more capable energy attracted to me that assists me too. See? It’s a healthy happy vital cycle of life and the only way to go be :)

Do we desire a whole new story or same old karmic tale? Practicalsaint Talks w Tracee Dunblazier~award winning author and publisher!

essentialmind@icloud.com (kolee Hemenway) — Wed, 20 Jan 2021 20:10:00 GMT

Rising above systemic differences to embrace the human race

Do we desire a whole new story or same old karmic tale? Let's find out as we talk to:

WHO Tracee Duzblazier President of the Coalition of Visionary Resources and award winning author and publisher who talks with us all about

WHAT a bibliomancy is as we take a spirit text from

WHERE, Tracee’s newest book Conquer your karmic relationships!

WHEN is this info for? This is advise from all highest selves or Beings talking to us for right now.

WHY to evolve out of our current non beneficial traditions/beliefs/ stories and into our highest magickal and unified selves

Our guest Tracee Dunblazier spoke with us as a highly honored and accomplished author publisher and leader in the “visionary” industry in a Practicalsaint Talks cast that helped kick off our season 2 podcast shows! SO awesome to have Tracee back as a repeat guest, you can listen our first cast here or watch it here .

One quick mention of an exciting upcoming awards event the Coalition of Visionary Resources is hosting for members of the Mind, Body Spirit industries! Tracee tells us about how to become a member of this powerful and influential network made for conscious creators!!!!! Super exciting! Once we're members we can nominate ourselves and teams and some of our favorite online creators we know and love:) I’ll see you over there asap!

In this specific cast, we introduce the ancient practice of Bibliomancy, and show how to do it on any sacred text in order to receive future self clarity and guidance. We actually go into the wisdom we received on air here too! SO we show how to get the guidance and then we go into what the specific advice is that we just received:) It was a beautiful message of unity and empowerment. You can listen or watch both embedded here to see how we use holy texts for this guidance. In this piece I’ll go more into the depths of equality and harmony.

We divined a beautiful message of unity and alchemy from spirit as we searched the sacred text from Tracee’s jam packed soul guide “Conquer your Karmic Relationships!”

We came to this spot by hitting on the underlying currents of our modern day religious sects. I have a history with strict interpretations of several different “religions” and it was helpful for me to remember the basis of those systems. To remember they were originally put in place by our ancestors as a beginning place to connect with the Divine. In order to learn more about the unseen Source, we initially gravitate towards similar thinking (culturally based most the time) Beings where we can expand our minds and hearts as we continue to mature into Divine embodied people. The problem hasn’t been the initial interaction, it lays within the ego structure of the system that is the foundation of these systems. If we really want people to awaken to our inherent divinity, we must allow for Spirit to truly individually “sprout” in the brains, hearts and guts of the people. This lack of control is the main fear of old ego that has morphed into the homogenized and sterile spirituality experienced by most in the modern day religious realms today. Tracee reminds us all that it wasn’t necessarily the “religions” that teach separatism and “one path” spirituality, it became that as human ego naturally got involved.

Jumping into our bibliomancy reading, we landed on the page with two souls that are communicating with one another. We begin to speak about telepathy and intentions behind our thoughts. We as humans are learning to really speak what we need and want instead of staying in the comfort zone of what we see as “acceptable” or easily received by others. This leads us into the convo of division. Again, not criticizing the ones who came before us, but honoring the systems put in place thus far in order to assist humans into greater alignment and harmony with our divine selves.

Speaking on removing negative entities, we wanted to “unfurl” something un beneficial for our readership, so we dealt with “division.” OKAY… big one and all the messages came in strong with this one ;)

We landed on “Ancestry and ethnic groups.” In dealing with the first part of our talk re: telepathy, as Beings become more aware in general, our DNA codes are upgrading (there are many different forms of re-coding btw, so be aware of how we are being 'programed' and how we program each other) We are shifting from monkey reptile man to divine angel like Beings, that is to say we are evolving to remaining in constant union with all inside our own Being, around us and with the Divine unseen as well. Keeping our human bodies is a choice. We’ll get to all that later, for here, we are shown and reminded 1. We’ve all been all the colors and shapes, basically, most of us have anyway. Anyone reading or watching this surely has realized timelines or different “lives” they personally or ethnically have embodied thus far and 2. That through the intermingling of our electric Beings, technically or spiritually and physically for that matter!- geez, we’re a lot mixed at this point, our DNA coding is all one. We are literally 3. All one. This is coming through regarding division because the unity consciousness of the new earth is only accessible through this vibration right. In order to realize harmoney (haha money har-money… anyway) we have to realize sameness and differences as strengths and experiences to pool from. Divinely pool re-sources to-gather (divinely pool resources together), to consciously create our earth so that each geographic area and cultural tradition seek to benefit the whole as well as the individual location and Being in that space- that all transmits outward to what we collectively see and feel. SO basically we're all looking to enhance our world through individually leveling up and being results driven and unity minded. Sweet huhh :) Ya, I liked it too :)

But wait, there’s more … as if this weren’t enough, we continue to flow through and pull 3 cards from the the BEAUTIFULLY pictured and guided cards the dynamic duo Tracee and Justine Serebrin produced known as the Rainbow Warrior activation deck! This was the first deck I worked with a couple years back and it truly helped me emerge from narrow minded fear style to one of unity and at least awareness to some degree haha -- “it’s a journey” Enter the Practicalsaint style of embodying divinity in practical earth style living that upgrades our own Beings as well as helps others do the same. Boom. Which always in turn allows the upgraded energies to flow our way and design our highest life. Always benefitting the whole and consciously creating.

So so so awesome how Division and Separation transmute to unity and harmony and is PERFECTLY “wrapped up with a bow” by beloved Divine Source here with 3 majestic cards Tracee pulls from her and Justine’s Rainbow Warrior activation deck :)

Cards pulled Ancestors 6,Just happened to be the “History, Culture, DNA, Transformation, Spiritual Family, Habits and Tradition card :) Metal 34, the “Sharpness, Clarity, Mindfulness, Focused, Determination, Getting the Job Done card aaaaaand intention 28 :D the “Foundation, Create, Concentrate, Attract, Belief, Projection, Blueprint card.

OOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM so so so perfect:) Mind blown-- again :) We love bringing these living messages forward where anyone can more deeply connect to their highest self in any form, dimension or realm :) I want to “briefly” recap a few of the messages embodied in this very special reading with Tracee who did the literary work with these oracle cards. Such a potent gift for these super special times.

Through this whole cast we see the threads of Spirit or Divine Source or our Highest future selves, however we see this messenger- let us acknowledge the sacredness and divinity coming through. Let us hear with our whole Beings and let this message of unity come through. Our cultural and ancestral heritages play a huge role in “who we become” and our DNA is “who we’ve been” and now we get to consciously create our DNA/RNA codes to imbibe the highest way frequencies here on planet earth. The old earth and outdated programming codes are being erased and re built. We do value and recognize the work our past selves have stepped into by living in the past times and look ahead to solidify more win win environments. As our individual metal bodies, our solid 3D matrix style holographic universes come into further evolution through awareness and alignment the focus becomes irresistible! The galactic harmony achieved through our own cellular Being is mirrored on a planetary and interdimensional scene. Heart centered living is the new earth way. Bringing everything into focus is our INTENTIONS! We spoke about intentions in the beginning where we are evolving as a species to communicate through our thoughts and how we already absolutely communicate through our energy and intentions! So here, concluding our show here is sweet intention number 28! To quote the lovely words of Tracee from the guidebook that come with the cards,

“Intention is the foundation of an idea being called into manifestation. It creates an energetic blueprint, including the idea to be fulfilled to bring the idea into completion (mentally, emotionally, physically, and spiritually). There is purpose in all things, so it's important to take heart in your current situation.

“Consider the foundation you are sitting upon and exactly what intention created it. What need has already been met? What need has it left you with? Our intentions often stem from a limited view of our situation. If that's the case, you may want to elevate your intention to a less limited concept like happiness, fulfillment, stability or an Easy Flow. Leave the creative judgment to your higher realms.

Bringing past info in and “deliberately letting go” of what is not serving us today! We just are moving into the next space of human evolution where we’re all one in our basic DNA and there are those who are further upgrading that DNA into a more sustainable eternal Being basis. We have all basic religious texts pointing to the same concepts and principles and are moving into the sacred harmonious union space with each other. Om. Praise be! Technology has brought us closer as well and all these systems have been used as mirrors for us to take 100% response-ability for where we are now and where we are now and where we are now :) Seriously, we get to fully see and deal with what we did yesterday that led to our today and make informed aware choices today so our tomorrow looks more beneficial to us, them and the almighty WE!

I love these blog recaps, there’s always so much more to think about or talk about than the initial path we took on the recording :) We can continue learning from Tracee and hear the wisdom from Source through reading her anniversary edition “The slayer’s handbook series” boxset, seriously LIFETIMES of divine wisdom in her words! I’m so grateful to have been able to speak with her continue to share this wisdom with all :) Thank you for your Being here with us and paying it forward to the divine Beings in your world :) See you next time for another awesome Practicalsaint Talks episode!

Rainbow Warrior Activation Deck https://www.amazon.com/RAINBOW-WARRIOR-ACTIVATION-124-page-guidebook/dp/0996390758

Conquer your karmic relationships book

Demon slayer handbook box set http://beaslayer.com/gotracee-publishing/

Powerfully connecting to your inner Age of Aquarius!

essentialmind@icloud.com (kolee Hemenway) — Thu, 14 Jan 2021 21:09:18 GMT

How to practically connect with our Divine inner guidance

WHO- April and kolee and all Beings, all Divinity and guides

WHAT- Awakening the Age of Aquarius

WHERE- Inside each Being

WHEN- the eternal NOW

WHY- to unlock the magic within each of us!

!!!!!BEST SHOW EVER!!!!!

Of course we say that every day and for every show but seriously, BOOOM baby! If you like tarot cards or whoowhoo space shiz at all, April Haapala @the_energy_oralce on insta and Ascension in your cards on you tube and kolee rock it outta the park with this season 2 premier! The capital building of the United States of America was literally “stormed” DURING this recording! And no we didn't know about it! We were not a part of it even :)

Watch and listen to the entire cast here, and thank you so much for paying it forward by sharing, liking n subscribing and rating anywhere you can in order to spread this highly beneficial message :) THANK YOU for your kindness, may you be infinitely rewarded in turn ;)

This is a current blog being written 1 13 2021 (twenty twenty won) whilst a global pandemic has locked down the entire planet earth as well as several rumors of the Pope being arrested and now we have the USA President who is scheduled to give up office in 7 days being forcibly pushed out earlier (Impeached AGAIN) and is allegedly retaliating by enacting an military “insurrection” which has effectively shut down the American government. Kinda big news, every week breaking stories and at the same massive rate of 3D “reality” literally BLOWING THE FUCK UP in our faces, we have helpful beneficial Beings coming to us in groves in order to serve and heal those of us who are willing to pull our heads outta our butts. Lol. Here we are! Here we are! Practicalsaint Talks is aligned with the MOST AWESOME beautiful Beings on the planet, and to be clear we do have guests from all over the globe! This year we guests scheduled from UK, India, USA so far!

Uh… well then, I love my job! I love my life haha. What an awesome time to be writing and recording ‘ourstory’ (“his-story/history) I LOVE technology that enables us to get our messages out, to use our creativity to serve, to connect in deep ways with people literally everywhere all the time and thanks to a surge of spiritual intelligence, we are now interconnected with galactic forces both on the planet and off through the merging of our energies and stream of consciousness!

Now, onto the recap and refresh of the info we shared a few days ago.

Connecting to our personal Age of Aquarius- what does that mean? How do we do it?

We go over the new qualities of humans as we shift from the age of Pieces to the age of Aquarius and what we can probably start seeing personally and in the collective consciousness as well! It's SO fascinating that Aquarius is in "charge" of electricity (ya, pun intended ;) and here we are on the brink of technology revolution, showing us that truly what the heavens do, we are a part of and is why we brought this show to you today, in order to serve and assist our fellow humans navigate through this great awe-inspiring shift!

The last several THOUSAND years in Pisces (approximately years 0-2000) was all about hierarchy, following the lead of a few, laying down one's life in order to ascend, and black and white thinking shaped by religious and governmental institutions bent on finding our connection to spirit in a prescribed manner, controlled by a few.

As we travel into the age of Aquarius, approximately year 2000-4000) we begin to lose the concept of a power group being able to lay an exact path to divinity for another. We begin to travel the road of individual intuition, insight and initiation. We enter the egalitarian age of equality and equanimity, that is to say sovereignty and personal connection with Divine Source that leads to collective ascension- being the change we want to see. We all trust each other to “show up as our best selves in order to strengthen the whole.” This new age is about holding space for others to grow as we honor and accept our individual role and way. As we show up each day for ourselves, we automatically empower others to do the same, which in turn upgrades the entire planet to create the new earth unity consciousness known as “heaven.” Heaven is in our hearts a famous enlightened man was said to have taught, "we’re all one" he said~ Jesus. His message, whether he really was a man turned god or a god born to a human body or even walked this earth at all, teaches humans that yes, we are 100% human earthlings and through personal transmutations embody 100% Divinity at the same time and this is possible FOR EVERY ONE ON THE PLANET!

In order to assist us in this great shift, we talked about tapping into sacred Guides and other Galactic Beings who are with us in order to bring about unity, compassion and peace. Sacred harmonious union within our selves, with others and with the Divine! Earthlings are undergoing evolution at incredible rates and at this point, survival of the fittest is real! Those who refuse REFUSE to acknowledge unity with all, those who REFUSE to do no harm, THOSE who refuse to take 100% responsibility (response- “ability”) for 100% what we see, taste, touch, smell and feel ARE DEAD. Dead in a sense that we stay in our own personal hell instead of crossing over to the idea of heaven or nirvana or paradise or whatever other name you identify with. There are levels of hells, there are levels of heavens , there is CLEAR impact of our earth decisions and we’re actually here on earth because we forget where we came from once we get here, like a dream. When we’re in a dream, we have no sense of past, how many times in sleeping dreams are you in one place than all of a sudden in another, only you have no idea how you got there or why the scene changed at all?! Enter earth bodies at birth, and here we are people. It’s time to WAKE UP to the face we’re in a literal NEW AGE. I’m not attached to any dogma or religion, I have realized these concepts basically on my own through divine will allowing me to be taught and upgraded, and this is what I am happy doing to benefit others, is to say what I’ve learned and hopefully I can say it in a way that makes sense and can be immediately integrated and embodied in order for all to heal completely, forever. When we wake up from the dream of this earth matrix and begin to take true response-ability for our thoughts, actions and speech, we connect to serve and heal. We enter the personal age of Aquarius and continue to evolve from homeosapians to homeosanctus. Our physical bodies change, our mental body is changed, our spirit body is changed, nothing is as it was before. This age isn’t about attaching blame or resentment toward those who forged the path for us thus far, it’s about identifying what hasn’t served us and choosing different actions to get different results in the future.

We speak about using Tarot and Oracle cards in order to help us connect to our highest self, our future self that is 100% merged with Divinity in ourselves (cells) with others (seen and unseen) and the Divine All Source. Complete sacred harmonious union, THAT is the one we connect to personally and collectively in this new age! Even our future self that is 5 minutes from now is one we want to connect with in order to serve our now self in making perfectly timed and inspired decisions.

Even when what we see now isn’t what we would prefer to see, we learn to love where we are, and ENJOY the journey of creating what we see tomorrow! Have fun being a human stumbling and tripping along, we’re actually doing fabulously well! Stop the “Who we’re going to be when or who we were because…. Losing judgment and being thrilled with who are NOW. Relaxing allows our best selves in order to support a healthy vital collective. Acceptance of my now AND yours! “What if we just decided everyone is awake?!” By seeing everyone on our path as placed there to help us grow, we can stop labeling every person or event or even thoughts as bad or good, awake or not awake, wise or unwise, we see everything as helpful to our journey. “Negative or positive” is still a label of attachment to an outcome or judgment of events or ideas that keep us stuck in polarity and non motion. Equanimity creates harmony. Sovereignty is defined as “freedom from outside control.” Up until recently, the word was only used in terms of governments, as in a sovereign nation that is self governed and not dependent on other countries for goods or protection. Well, enter the Age of Aquarius! Now this word is openly used regarding OUR OWN BEINGS! So so sososossoooooo cool! So fucking awesome! I wrote a chapter in the Star Mother collab book (make sure to use the ESSENTIALMIND code for 10% off) by 5D publishing in 2020 titled, “How I finally arrived at Sacred Harmonious Union with myself.” This concept is deep and I wrote a whole blog on it here too. Relating to April and our talk, the whole message was that we are unique and exquisite, EVERY ONE of us! You, me, “them” “they” us and we! Here we are guys! We’re actually here lol. When we realize our perfection, we then allow for supernatural upgrades that permeate the entire cosmos, inside our own bodies (and I'm saying alll our bodies, we have 7 apparently :) and out! Mind blow right. I know. That’s why we do these shows and courses and writings and offerings, it’s a GIGANTIC undertaking to evolve in one lifetime! Now we know we have sometimes even thousands of different “lives” and we’ll go into timelines and such another time, for here let’s stay focused on realizing our Divinity , being 100% human and 100% divine-- like the ascended masters we idolize with great reverence.

What if we actually gave ourcells (our “selves) that kind of respect and honor?! Anytime we say, “ o I’m not perfect” we degrade and abuse our cells. Let that little gem sink in shall we! It’s HEART BREAKING to see hear smell feel taste self hate, self sabotage, self loathing. Especially when most the time that shit is projected onto THE OTHER, in forms of blame, shame, guilt and contempt, the all illusive “they.” So if we negatively project, it stands to reason we can easily start positively projecting! WOW that’s a great tag line;) “Positively project with kolee lol, you heard it first here folks ;) As we realize our own sovereignty, that we are 100% response able (responsible) through knowing we’re divine Beings sent here to remember that sacred harmonious union within our own cells first then with the other, seen and unseen and Divine Source---- WE’RE IN! Rarefied hormones are secreted that incredibly enhance all our senses and open new pathways and anointed (what Messiah means- Meshiach = anointed one) abilities like walking on water, walking through walls, alchemizing substances and emotions and ideas, etc, YOU SEE??!! Stick with us here, we’ll keep going over it ;)

SO fucking powerful! BOOM. whew, maybe get some tea and contemplate that for a bit then come back to read the rest :) lol. April's main heart and soul message (as well as kolee’s) is everyone is beautiful and powerful and sovereign.

And as we grow in that state, we:

1. can be the best highest version of our cells AS WELL as

2. behave in perfect harmony with others as we interact, build, grow, create with others! In order for “they” to be awesome, “we get to do the work- because “we” are them and must be awesome our self (cellf)! And

3. In order for the collective to be a no harm society, WE must DO NO HARM! It’s really pretty logical and easy to see, yet thousands and thousands of years and lives have been harmed out of justifications and judgments. But ego loves to divide and conquer, by keeping the illusive “them” over there as some mysterious all powerful force, we are robbed of our response-ability and therefore our sovereignty.

Division language - hi ego, we see you! Welcome! Haha Yep, good ole Ego. Now we have demonized ego and religions have tirelessly tried and failed to squash it. Ego isn’t “bad” per se, more like the untrained uncouth monkey in the corner. We need to start seeing ego as a friend actually in order to transmute that shit permanently for the whole. Transmute would be saying we take something and turn it into something else, not by fighting and destroying it but by working with and teaching it ways of serving in a way that actually changes the composition form basic to majestic. Doesn’t that just FEEL better? It does to me! Anytime we’re “against” something, we’re in division/ego. Simple. No exceptions, no judgments either, but it is what it is. The universal law is that we “think” something is “bad”- that is duality instead of unity.

Anyway, one way ego divides and harms is through language. I thought it was a really great point that April brought up about how even our new earth groups have this exclusive language that almost seems designed from the beginning to keep people in the dark, literally. Now leaders are readers and I have had to do all my own work to “know” what I do currently, I didn't have aware parents or community, I have been brainwashed in several religions and pseudo-cults, and I grew up in America. lol , nuff said. So in order to receive the power and clarity I have so far, it took basic free will which ALWAYS unlocks truth. It’s the basis for let’s say 'christian salvation', just use your will to “ask God into your heart.” It’s the basis for all religions, right? Free will prays 5 times a day or meditates endless hours or it eats certain food and wears certain clothes, by free choice or will. And as we grow (either or both in age and maturity) , we either freely chose to continue the practices we were taught or learned or we begin to look elsewhere for direction or connection with Divinity. So point 1, do NOT resist these upgrades because YOU don’t know the language, take 100% Response Ability (that is to say you consciously respond and realize 100% sovereignty in every sitch) and learn it! And point 2 is that just by reading this article or coming to the essentialmind site or hooking up with anyone like me, clearly you are already on the high path to living heaven on earth with us and are a part of the earthly “kingdom” New Earth prophesied so many thousands years ago! KEEP GOING and thank you thank you thank you for being here with me!!!!!!!! I love you so fucking much! I’m working day and night to bring clarity and decode this mystical language as I myself am being taught day and night about more and more levels and realms! O ya, plus I have a couple other businesses and I’m mom and dad to 4 awesome new earth children :) So point 3 is IF I CAN DO IT , SO CAN YOU! No excuses here at Essential Mind:) ALL HANDS ON DECK please and thank you! This is literally THE TIME to grab onto the sovereign ones, seen and/or unseen, who are endowing us with this explosive unity wisdom.

April is a huge proponent of tapping into our own creative juices in order to tap further into these awesome wells of Divine wisdom! Oft times when we simply dance around playfully or sing like no one is listening or scribble some words down in a journal or even make a delicious meal or put together a killer outfit, we transcend lower level selves!!!! Imagine the compound effect of consciously creating! Another mind blow right:) It was to me anyway, all my life it was inferred that I was not creative, because I didn’t draw or paint. That limiting belief almost literally killed me SEVERAL TIMES as I had allllll this “inner-gee” (energy) in me, as I was born a healer and empath, with no outlet! If each person was able to create each day, or even like once a week, maybe even once a year would be enough! Who knows, the more we tap into these “new” ways of living, the quicker we will be able to experience the freedom and joy we desire on an individual and collective stage. When we realize the freedom we have to express our innermost Being with ourselves, others and the Divine, I think we probably automatically evolve to higher dimensions. It is that important EACH ONE OF US identify what we enjoy doing and then DO IT, do often as possible. It’s a beneficial cycle where once we start creating, when we let go of expectations and judgments that is, we want to do it more. And again, once we can fully be content with how we express and create, we “positively project” on to the other! Instead of criticizing others because we unconsciously suppress OUR natural abilities or tendencies, we begin to appreciate others differences and their abilities and creativeness! We become supportive allies not jealous terrorists.

Many many thanks to our awesome guest April Haapala! This season 2 kick off, year 2021 kick off and age of Aquaius kick off came together all through Divinity and we pray it truly changes the world- TODAY! Check out all her posts and videos on both instagram and youtube and look for her super helpful course "Journeying in the Spirit" coming soon in Feb 2021! More details on her youtube channel and you can always reach her at her website for more details or questions and also book personal readings with her too! kolee’s “Re-parenting the ignored child within to deal with the crabby adult today” can be ordered today at www.whizant.com with payment of $144 not collected until Feb 2021.

April and kolee are super knowledgeable about all things we can’t see but feel and then teach and support others on the journey! Alll are a part of this movement and shift, so do yourselves a favor and hang out with us another 49 minutes today and watch or listen to the entire cast! www.essentialmind.me for a one stop organic shop to purchase new tools to assist you on your new earth journey!

Here we are! “Twenty twenty WON” xo your kolee

Don't worry, the next generation is here to save the day!

essentialmind@icloud.com (kolee Hemenway) — Fri, 20 Nov 2020 18:03:56 GMT

Living for a living, taking the leap of faith for a fulfilled life

Don't worry, the next generation is here to save the day!

For the season 1 finale of Practicalsaint Talks podcast:

WHO- we feature 20 year old entrepreneur Zoe Ervin!

WHAT- She is a small business owner

WHERE- https://www.instagram.com/swirlyhealingtools and her awesome Etsy shop

WHEN- available right now! Hurry, all pieces lovingly created as one of kind and limited time creations

WHY- a soulful mala company as well as other crystal pieces to nourish you.

She is also a yoga instructor with focus on listening to the body and inner divinity.

This conversation truly can give planet earth hope for the future! Not only is the next generation shining awareness and consciousness on our future in general, but young soulpreneurs like Zoe help give us a new view for the present times as well. We must always remember our children are our future! Right now, earthlings are experiencing drastic change and the rebuilding of our current systems are in full swing as we see old fashioned, broken and crumbling structures begin to disappear before our very eyes. Zoe is a perfect example of the new economy based on equality, equal opportunity and “free enterprise.”

In our last Practicalsaint Talks interview of the season, we talk about how the internet has given humans an equal playing field to use our gifts and natural strengths to up level the whole and provide a new kind economy where we are “divinely compensated (book by Marianne Williamson) and free to live, work and play all on the same vibe :) “Conscious economy” as it were. Since the internet, there are now 20-something millionaires. Consider Mark Zuckerberg, creator of the social media giant Facebook.com, becoming the youngest self made millionaire in the world by age 23! The economy is matching this trend and it has been thrust forward by covid. The way the world purchases goods and products has been completely revamped, and I would say in the best ways. I am a lover of brick and mortars, don’t get me wrong, yet that business model is SOOOO 2019! Yes it’s fun to shop, and yes the eye does buy (more accurately we buy what we can touch and see more impulsively) and with the new coming holographic tech in store for the 2020’s, all that the retail shops offered to a small select local area is now available globally. Om. Let that sink in a moment. We are literally on the brink of an entire new civilization and can either ride the wave or be crushed by it.

Our Practicalsaint Talk with the brilliant Zoe Ervin highlights what we can look forward to if we choose to nurture the upcoming minds of planet earth with a new radical approach of “living for a living” and “conscious economy” “conscious consumerism” and “law of the Divine Compensation. We look at the privilege of growing up in such a generation and the beautiful “Response Ability” that comes alongside. Because we DO have such a worldwide audience these days, it is incredibly important to realize the massive responsibility (Response Ability) that comes along with this shift. Consciously creating content, products, opportunity for the benefit of the whole is all we really have to do. The time of hideous plastic cheap toys, straws, packaging, bags and such are old fashioned! Poison and harmful toxins in our clothes, food household furniture and goods are finished. We destroy our environment, earth, children, animals, etcetera by not doing something differently in 2020. Paying slave wages and forced labor is out. Laying out agendas with hidden intent and harming others is no longer acceptable in 2020 and beyond. Full disclosure is here. I’m not pretending we’re not censored beyond belief or that erythang is gonna be sunshine and roses during this great shift, but geezy what else do we have to do with our time? Things were pretty shitty under the old rule of go to school 16 years, work at job that pays per hour or per year for 20-40 years, pay off school, car n house and die(mostly fat, sick and or broke) with a couple dollars we leave (if the government didn’t take it first) to our kids or communities. This is no way to live people! What this talk shows is that things have changed. Education, economy and family are different now. As a woman who used her first computer in high school and has been online 20 years, I must say I love living in the future! I was able to self publish my first book back in 2010, a woman of no consequence could now have a global voice. I remember when I was 20 and realized now I had direct access via email to companies, politicians and the like, what an incredible leap email even was! Then I discovered the phrase, “I’m a blogger, I’ll write about it” struck more fear in the hearts of man than a loaded gun to the head (not really but the pen IS mightier than the sword). My point is that everything has changed in the last 2 decades and by 2040 we will be ghosts if we don't embrace the present wave of “extreme ownership.” We have unlimited potential now along with 100% responsibility to ethically produce and share/sell. #businesssavvyhealer is one of my oldies but goodies that personifies this message :) Side note, I raised my sons this way too, our homeschool was one of Tai Lopez , concepts of extreme ownership and e-commerce in general. Coding, editing, writing and art have all since infiltrated the business world ;) "The hand that rocks the cradle...Keeps rocking the world ;)

I fired my bosses 18 years ago, Dec 2002. I have built a million dollar business in the past 10 years and raised a beautiful family and am continuously seeking more ways to up level myself and the entire consciousness as I build my 2nd and 3rd and 4th income 'rivers' this coming decade:) I was totally new to alllllll online marketing, I have been in sales my whole life when I realized that is how I could make the most money in the shortest amount of time with the least effort- enter online sales! Yike, moving from a small local market to an 7.7 billion person one is daunting I know. Yet, if I can do it, so can you. If 20 year old Zoe can figure it out, so can you. The question is how much are you willing to feel uncomfortable in learning new skills for HUGE payoffs? Not only for yourself, but your children or friends' children or even to leave a legacy of abundance not lack and debt. This is why the old model of eat/work/die has worked so long, it’s pretty “easy” to navigate, not much thinking or creativity or bravery behind the curtain here. I’m not saying I don’t appreciate the road our elders have plowed, yet we must look at the results that road had led to and commit to being a part of the new earth systems where all can use our innate gifts to serve the whole. To love our lives and never want to retire from our life's work (awesome cast featuring Lisa Liljeberg who leads global adventure tours and helps liberate people from this old cycle) is an accomplishment that cannot be equaled.

THIS is the Law of Divine Compensation written so eloquently by 2020 Presidential candidate Marianne Williamson in her book from 2012. It states that as conscious creators sharing what we care about that benefits all or at least harms no one, we will ALWAYS be Divinely compensated by the universe we are a part of. This is huge and wonderful news! I certainly have seen it happen over and over again, thousands of times, when one decides to follow their heart and take that giant leap of faith to the unknown. Best book I read in the beginning to set myself up for success was The Big Leap by Gay Hendricks . Zoe gives a couple practical tips on starting your own business here too, no matter how old or young one is. “Start when you are ready,” she says. I agree. Timing is everything and the planning can take longer than the actual execution of the plan many times. Research and planning are key to any business, especially when we are representing spirit and divinity. Money management like investing gains back into biz and prioritizing time are probably the biggest keys online or off to succeed. Important also to note, we never FEEL ready… so properly plan and then pull the trigger, the worst that happens is you go back to the grind and make 20 bucks a hour again, or maybe you are a doctor and you go back to working day and night for a couple hundred thousand a year. You will be further ahead tomorrow by starting today than if you never start. We never realize our full human potential on earth until we start.

Zoe's results speak for themselves as her Etsy shop has taken off since opening just 2 years ago. She started slowly working on her jewelry making skills while working the 9-5 for a paycheck to fund her next steps. Just recently she re located and has her own studio to create her divine malas and other beautiful thoughtful pieces where her dreams are unfolding before her very eyes! She services retail shops and ships worldwide from USA using online tools and marketing. I have personally purchased a couple Divine lovingly handmade from Zoe @swirlyhealingtools and seriously experienced their divine support! Anything this chick makes is golden :) As a special gift to our listeners/readers, she gave us a limited time coupon code ‘SAINT’ for 20% off her shop ! Thank you Zoe and thank you for reading and contemplating this potent message AND thank you for taking action right now:)

If you enjoyed this blog spot, listen or watch our 32 minute conscious cast, and while you’re at it, catch up on the episodes you’ve missed on harmonizing work and life, ending cosmic karma, equality of all Beings and what true sustainability looks like. We’ll see you in season 2 starting in January 2021 with upcoming casts scheduled about AI, up leveling your spirit and divine practicalsaint style living, rn, today! I’ll keep the conversations going in the meantime and when we meet again, I can't wait to hear how YOU took the leap of faith TODAY and began truly living for a living and changing lives with your brilliant Being.

Talk soon,

hugs, your kolee www.essentialmind.me talk soon!

Release the balance myth of 2020 and integrate harmony instead in 2021

essentialmind@icloud.com (kolee Hemenway) — Wed, 11 Nov 2020 19:15:26 GMT

Busting the work life balance myth!

Greeting beautiful Beings :) If the year 2020 has proved to us anything by now, it’s that the one constant we can count on is change. If we look at a tightrope walker, the year 2020 is the wobbly guy up there without a harness or safety net over the grand canyon! We must release the paradigm of balance and adopt the harmony goal instead if we want to stay not only alive another year but also stay sane and even productive and beneficial next year in 2021. Balance is the concept that both sides must be equal in weight in order to safely navigate the thin line given to pass. The very mention of this feat sends me into a bit of anxiety, how about you? In this piece we want to become aware of what is being asked of us in the first place and then look at how we have gone about dealing with the roles we play and most of all how we learn to navigate these everyday life chores with grace and ease through harmony instead of balance. What are the differences between harmony and balance and why looking at it through a new lens can really up level your life in 2021 is what the intention here is. Let’s dig in shall we.

I have personally realized a few grand things this year about balance and that it is actually a horrible unrealistic goal. Talk about tying your heart to a dead end dream! NO ONE and I am saying NO ONE truly even has the capability to “balance” life and the fact that the myth has been thrust on already overworked and underpaid Beings shows me it’s a myth meant to harm instead of benefit us. It’s already plain stressful enough just to stay alive here on earth 2020 and on top of that we desire to thrive and succeed. In the face of such ordinary earth challenges like breathing clean air and finding pure clean drinking water, getting enough exercise, sunlight and nutritious foods, living is a full time job. Then we have to pay for it all. We are in a constant survival cycle induced by instinct to live and an evolved drive to excel. I had the amazing opportunity of interviewing an expert voice of this very concept on the Practicalsaint Talks podcast with Susan Bender-Phelps from October 2020 . She has an incredible professional bio that has proven this switch of trying to achieve balance versus living in harmony with all provides real tangible results in less time that you could imagine! We had a blast digging into this message and uncovered many valuable nuggets for us all to enjoy. I hope you invest a few moments of your time and energy into listening to this million dollar advice from top producing mentors. As a recap, I’ll extend the cast for us here now.

If we think about balance in general, it’s keeping two sides happy basically. One must concentrate fully on the steps we take PLUS keep an equal weight in both our hands or sides of our body in order to just make it, and when the wind blows strongly or someone even talks to us breaking our intense required concentration-we collapse! Side note and major deal, equal weight can look totally different in form, like a pound of feathers v a pound of rocks. Part of the balance myth is that events and actions must look the same and be of equal weight or matter, they don’t. Prioritizing with awareness and intention is how we actually can flow in harmony instead of wasting effort on a mythical state called Balance.

Just imagine a different picture of this amazing vehicle, we’ll call this vehicle the year 2020 here, 'Response-able', conscious, graceful and majestic we are walking, running, dancing, flipping or any other perfectly timed movement (including stillness and rest) on an entire unified surface! No thin line to dangerously navigate or continuously maneuvering or holding tightly to objects, ideas or matter in order to “control” or manipulate the events or stuff so we don’t fall. No constant choices or decisions that lead to us feeling paralyzed or feeling the need to rush forward to alleviate stress. What if we didn’t have the constant fear of life falling into the dark unknown abyss known as change? What if we could move through life with a confidence that no matter who, what, where, when or why, we are perfect? We are in perfect timing with life and only “fall” or "fail" when we jump out of that beautiful harmonious stream by going back to the old way of thinking and start controlling and “balancing” again.

Is it too grand an idea? No. That’s why I took time to interview the amazing Susan , because she not only lives this way but she has taught 1,000s of others to work the same way. In our podcast, we highlighted the fact that balance has been unfairly pushed on humans, especially women who have historically been expected to take care of the house, the children, the household finances, the care of the community PLUS make money and take excellent care of ourselves all at the same time! Yike. That’s a lot guys. No one can do it. Not in the balance model, which is why we see a HUGE number of suicides, depression, dis-ease or dis-abilities, or maybe worse aggression and violence toward others including riots, looting and murder in general. It's a fail-fail system that we MUST get out of rn. Right now! 2020 has shown us we can’t actually predict the future events based on past ones. 2020 has taught us patience and awareness. We have ALL had to adjust and flow or we have been sucked in the undertow and feel lost and desperate in the sea of change. This is where the new view of 2021 must include harmony.

What is harmony actually? I would say it’s the releasing of all expectations and being in the flow of what is, in all moments. When we properly (consciously) create causes and conditions in our everyday actions, we live in a new space. We live in a space that is filled with infinite potential and we know what we do actually creates what we experience. If we desire to experience a happy, joyful, fresh, open hearted existence, we have to realize we already possess it. “It” is not something outside of us, hence something to be balanced in the first palace, it (happiness, fulfillment, harmony, etc…) resides inside us and is laying latent in most humanity just waiting to be seen and nurtured! When we wake up to the fact we are 100% Response Able to every single event that comes our way, we actually are empowered in a whole new exponential way. We realize we are actually able to respond in a safe and aware, creative and appropriate manner, every time, which in turn brings us to a confident space that allows us to harmoniously interact with all that is. We stop seeing outside events or people as a cause for our unhappiness. When we do see upsetting issues, we feel it. When we feel it, we respond with compassion for ourselves, others and the unseen ones. We can transmute and alchemize in order to harmonize eternally. I’m not suggesting there are no longer unwanted change or sadness or pain when we live in harmony. I’m saying that when we live in harmony, we are no longer thrown off course when we do encounter these inevitable sufferings on planet earth 2020/2021 and beyond.

The real gem of this concept to me is that once we let go of so-called control or balance that is outside focused, we allow for pure transformation to occur through the universal law of harmony. It becomes an inward state that opens up a whole new world, literally. As individuals wake up to this truth, it continues to spread to corporations and companies as well as communities and families globally. When we as species start to invest in harmonious solutions, we are creating the new earth. Heaven is a place that is content and abundant. There is plenty for all and everyone gets their way. We have the real privilege to shape and craft the world we live in now and the one that future generations will experience, therefore shaping our eventual time in the elusive Heaven space we all basically desire to experience. What we do today, DOES shape our tomorrow. I promise. The main take away from the cast we shared is that clinging to the work life balance myth sets us up to feel like failures, every time. As already mentioned, it is virtually impossible to maintain balance where self, other and the unseen is concerned. If we strive for that false ideal, we will always fall short. Life sucks. Sure there will be times the crazy seems to work, yet the results are far from consistent and only lean toward consistently failing if anything.

This is what we got life wise. Where we are is where we are. We must take full responsibility for what we have created personally and collectively thus far. The gentle news is that we can change where we are. The harsh news is that we have to change for things to change as well. 100% response “ability” is what we’re going for in order to be 100% empowered (in-power) at all times, no matter what in the world is flying past us at the moment. When we no longer only see the thin line (supposed tos, shoulds and expected tos) as our only path but the whole wide space as our field and playground, we automatically feel supported and safer. We can fly and not fall. Being unexpectedly blown around becomes fun and adventurous instead of terrifying and horrible.

When we let go of shoulds and supposed tos; expectations as it were, we open up to allow infinite solutions and outcomes. Living in harmony is feeling safe and confident enough to take unknown paths with courage and doing it consistently enough to see the physical manifestations of such a practice. Becoming aware in this manner allows us to constantly adjust of trajectory course that remains harmonious and aligned with our real self, others and the Divine. I have personally lived this concept for about 10 years now, maybe more, and I’m telling you right now, there is NO OTHER endeavor or goal that can ever fulfill or satisfy us without this foundational truth being embodied here right now where you are for the rest of your existence. Nothing else can truly matter (materialize) until we are rocking with the harmonious orchestra of life! Any amount of perceived success will be stripped away as soon as it arrives, because life is change and something surely comes to blow us off the thin line we too oft walk.

Here’s to us grooving harmoniously with 2021 as it dances to meet us in a few short weeks. If I have one legacy to share with this earth I’m living on, it’s the one of freedom, the complete freedom, that living harmoniously with self, others and the unseen ones brings us. Let us now let go of what we think we are supposed to be, do, think and feel and allow what is to be. When it appears, we see it, we acknowledge it, we love it, we share it if we need to, and above all else we transmute it through our beautifully designed human Being. Shadows are only dark spaces that desire attention. We are not owned by our shadow states, only directed by them. And when our shadow spaces have been touched by harmonious uncondtioned acceptance, they either dissolve or they become beautiful large silhouettes of our beautiful Beings that show up when we are illuminated by high frequency light and love. The simple truth is that we’re all perfect. We are divine Beings in human bodies desiring a divine existence in permanent harmony with all. How we achieve it is called life. Regardless if you think we come back again and again until we achieve this permanent harmony or we get one shot in this body we now live in is irrelevant to this topic. We are here right now at any rate and how we show up in our mundane everyday life is what amounts to our life in total; in this world of duality and polarized view points, we do not know if a drunk driver will swipe us and kill us instantly, we do not know if a killer virus will show up and change our entire world as we knew it, we do not know if we will have cancer take over our cellular Being and kill us, we do not know if we will have our same job or house or spouse or pets in the next 24 hours actually. Change happens and is happening at spectacular rates currently. In order to smoothly maneuver through this shifting matrix we must realize harmonious states in our cells (selves) with others and the unseen (divinity) ones. Stick with it and take surprising support or opportunities with leaps of faith and courage this season, because tomorrow may not come and this is it folks, this is what we got to work with. It’s time to move forward with grace and ease in 2021 and beyond. We all deserve the peace and contentment that harmony is married to. We all can actually achieve happiness and satisfaction in this field of unity and harmony. It is actually up to us, as an individual, to make concrete actionable steps to creating this harmony. There has never been a better time to let go of the old and explore what can be.

Listen to the original interview on busting the work life balance myth with Susan Bender-Phelps or watch it here . Share, comment and engage in order to water this harmony seed and really start to see your harvest flow in!

Infinite blessings from your kolee. Till next time, see you round and thank you for your beautiful Being :) xo k

Diving into Karmic cycles- How to stay stuck or ascend up the ranks.

essentialmind@icloud.com (kolee Hemenway) — Tue, 20 Oct 2020 19:09:24 GMT

Practicalsaint Talks with award winning author and spirit, emapath, oracle card creator, Shaman, and guide Tracee Dunblazier!

Hey hey:) Happy Fall day, it’s raining and cold and even thundering here today! Yay, I love these days and I am truly grateful for my trade and tools and selves :) You guys, I'm so happy to share, I got to do a fabulous interview yesterday! It’s on Youtube today and my goal is to post this piece today too:) it’s 10 20 2020 :D You’re like "whatever kolee, get to the point"… fine:) okay I’ll turn on word count and type about some take aways and I’ll tie up various loose ends left behind by spirit airy fairy bullshiz ties we left behind in the ethers (I already know at least one or two from me hahah ) The room was spinning so much! I couldn't keep up :) haha I said “yaaaa” and Yes” so many times :) LOL anyway, Tracee is a fuckin powerhouse and her saucy voice either podcas t or youtube is a good time-- I don’t care who you are.

For those of you who like real shiz, this is it :) I love what she says and I think we could do a couple more shows together :D We’ll see ;) Um, I’ll do a main recap for those who just wanna cut to it. Karma is played out collectively and individually on any and all levels, like sex, food, parents, romance, money, health, etc… and the more we attach to stories or ties or density at any rate, “arrows” or “punches” as it were described! Our pictures are here to evoke feeling or e-motion (energy/inner gee in motion) that “we” however we feel that, can transmute by feeling the feeling and helping give it an influential voice. She has an impressive intro and her book she just lovingly released and suggests reading is super chock full of amazing useful experience. She’s “found acceptance” in recognizing the real authentic self and letting the other than useful personalities or stories go free. There are literally millions of timelines between just the few folks we interact with on a weekly basis, so lining up with the highest version and vantage point seem a grand idea. Worth a little exploration in the least anyway!

In the recorded talk we highlight feelings being essential to hear our inner voice talking directly to us! Guilt being a “punch in the gut and punch in the heart” whilst shame is a “punch to the throat” (LOVE THIS ANALOGY 22:22 )

and when we do see the shadow or less than desirable feeling and just offer it acceptance in that it’s here and here to give us a message. And then we in our infinite resources and maturity can access a deeper place of compassion and grace with our own shadows or demons as it were and yes, transmute that shit. Yea, take a deep breathe, a sigh of relief. There is no shame, no guilt, we are absolutely perfect where we are right now. There may be a different picture or story that we’ve been holding to. God knows you see mine…. And now it’s our turn to tune in ward and really listen to our selves (our cells as I like to say) and re parent if needed and meet that need where ever it is on the timeline of healing or spectrum between light and dark. Just tune in and let it flow and really help give it a non violent voice.

Tracee says the who is her, what is the book about Karmic relationships she wrote, where ever you are now and whenever now is is the perfect time because this is what life is truly about, unraveling the mystery strand by strand and appreciating the big picture along with the microscopic view.

We talk about what karma is and how we re-live the same cycles or patterns over and over again, in a single lifetime and throughout different incarnations. And it isn’t just romantic relationships, though we all know those can be particularly alarming and addictive, it’s all relating w do with inner selves and the outer ones as well. We talked about how it was hard to “cross over” from a normal person to a psychic state or clairvoyant Being. Going through the personal trauma and grief does really help helping others with the same issues :) No we’re not the only ones to suffer grief, and yes I choose to transmute some big shiz which I seem to enjoy doing in this lifetime. Tracee did come to her spiritual giftings in a natural innate fashion where she saw the different states early on, like early early. I have come to gradually integrate mine into my 3D body and reality and we realize the wave of rainbow warriors are ramping up in 2020! I got all teary eyed thinking about some of the injustices I personally have gone through and like a slap outta “Moonstruck” snap outta it “ came and remembered how many real social justice warriors are alive rn! Right now, currently we have so many souls that want a new earth life and are willing to do the stuff to help create it! So ya, I was just feeling that I’ll be happy when Beings don’t need to born into such painful traumatic situations in order to receive messages from our highest selves anymore! YES!

We spoke about how any relationship is a learning space as we learn about our real inner self and are able to clearly and consciously relate to others from a non attached and free point of view :0 It really IS “enlightening” as Tracee talks about when she was 35 and the last spirit Tracee has dutifully drug around in her spirit body finally left. Shadows or demons as we say are the literal embodiment of dense states that “matter” to us like problems or dramas we seem stuck in or powerless over. The secret is that we become so attached to these stories at whatever resonance the body is able to respond because of the energetic or magnetic attraction. We’re not bound to magnet like qualities as we are multi dimensional and quantum Beings however we all do have the polarity qualities and need to learn to work with them in order to achieve success. The higher the resonance ,the easier to slip in and out of story lines to experience them yet not be “possesed” into them..

I got caught up in imagining a Divine soul mate relationship where we worked together to manifest everything we could ever want and need and went out ward to enable others to do the same! But what I started out saying was that even as the “others” around us either close or just an acquaintance, whether romantic or friendly, even whether breathing or not, all make up relationships! We’re all constantly facing our main fears in form and dealing yea dancing with these devils our entire life. When we get into deeper relationships with living breathing humans, we get even more entangled with the emotion or feelings and must learn again to respond to our own self first then we can cleanly communicate with the others to not project any of our shadow states onto another Being or situation. Once open hearted communication is achieved (starting obviously with the ability and “response-ability” of one then dealing with two) the whole show changes! Ascension is impossible to hold back when the heart center, heart essence of our Beings are roused and tapped into. We are able and even committed to hearing and feeling the pain of another. Instead of the need to justify ones own actions or feelings (karmic tie alert) or show superiority over another to deal with intense inner distrust or shame, one is able to be completely present and encounter the other in harmony and as equally pleasurable interaction.

Cognitive dissonance plays a part here again as we transmute guilt and shame. Not owning our power aligns us with the more dense negatively felt emotions and by simply liking what we are doing at the moment and realizing we really are doing the best we can at any given moment. Not hiding our inner power by presenting a ‘less than’ self out of conscious and unconscious fear and learning to feel safe as we reveal what we are really dealing with at any given moment. As we get more and more authentic with our emotions, we start to enjoy the differences between others and our self and look for all kinds of ways to expand our views and experiences.

We look at parent child relationships as well. We talk about relationships with money and food sex and work. We really get into a world of possibility and needs to be steered with gentle wisdom and fierce attention to all the ways we see stories being played out. When we can calmly and mildly observe and embody emotions, without judgment or harshness, we can say we have started to transcend our karmic cycles. When we begin to embrace who we are right now, we can start to allow others the same freedom. When these and other starts root down and begin to provide deep food for sovereignty, we begin to en-lighten, lighten up, illuminate more. We grow and produce like kind. More and more light allows more and more shadow shit to dissolve and become transparent and more shapeable. More space and more unity to pass from Being to Being as we learn to identify then deal with all feelings and emotions in order to have a more harmonious Being with self, other and Divine.

Hopefully this cast n blog piece has inspired you to at least have a look see into the inner depths of your black and hopeless soul (I’m kidding! It’s not hopeless or black, I’m sure;) and start to recognize where we actually are and where the other actually is and how we have played these characters over and over throughout this and other lifetimes. We can actually have a bit of heaven on earth starting right now, so don't wait to hire Tracee as your own personal guide to personal freedom! Keep in touch with all us here at www.essentialmind.me and thank you for being here with us :) 10,000 blessings (which I DID realize was Tracee’s tag line that I crafted into my own so long ago I had forgotten that I stole it from her! --- thank you Tracee!!!!:) from me kolee! Xox k

How to stay alive sustainably; be devoted to more than recycling and organic

essentialmind@icloud.com (kolee Hemenway) — Sat, 17 Oct 2020 01:37:42 GMT

Living on earth and creating a sustainable one

Who- sustainable living

What- unity consciousness over basic actions

When- right now

Where-planet earth

Why- to stay alive

You may ask, “Who are you talking to kolee, I love recycling! I’m a huge proponent of eating and wearing organic, what else is there to being a ‘good’ steward of our planet? I do live sustainably… don't I??”

If you are anything like me you enjoy doing things that help, not harm. Help our selves, others and the unseen, so how can we even think of not doing something to help? “You ‘stay alive’, “No matter what happens, you stay alive.” Please tell me you know the line, if you don’t we haven’t been together long have we, welcome. Welcome to the Practicalsaint blog where Divinity meets Human fallacy… Let’s continue, IS it even possible to stay alive whilst being un-sustainable? No clearly not. The very definition of “sustainable” according to Webster is “able to be maintained or retained at a certain level” and ``alive is defined officially as living , not dead. True story, I’m not making this shiz up :) SOOOO we need to first define sustainability as it occurs in our practical everyday lives and then DO IT cuz without it, we’re dead. Winky face, see why I’m writing bout it? See why I would care to take my precious time, effort ,money, self and spend it curating these “wordy” treasures? CUZ WE NEED TO WAKE TF UP! So what else IS there besides recycling and eating organic food, lez go!

In my super awesome Practicalsaint Talks podcast from 10-13-2020 where I talk by myself for 1 hour and 31 minutes about this intriguing topic, I finally defined true sustainability as being able to duplicate forever while being beneficial to all . And while recycling (if indeed we’re actually making an old item into a new one and not throwing into the ocean ) is something of a tiny seed of conscious sustainability, it certainly is not the end all! Side note, I totally have a new perspective of trash now that recycling has been under investigation and even shut down in areas, due to “covid” eye roll but anyway, I’ll stay on our current track, another popular thought is that if one buys or grows “organic” (commonly defined as pesticide free and ‘not genetically modified’) food, we’re done. We made it, yay, no more to do here folks I’m sure…. Laugh and come on now, I seriously doubt these in and of themselves can lead us where we want to go, so what else IS there to sustainable living and why does it matter to us anyway????

Again I reiterate, don’t get overwhelmed. Don’t try to take everything in I’m saying and change everything immediately what I DO suggest is taking change seriously enough to make small actions RIGHT NOW in order to not have more plastic in the oceans than fish by year 2050, to not have the environment around us crumble, to not have starving dying children and inhumane treatment in any way shape or form, to breathe clean air and drink beneficial water, to feel the sunshine and receive life from it, hey here’s one, to live in peaceful bliss with ourselves, others and those we can’t necessarily see That’s what this article is about. You can find other fascinating pieces very well researched and written like this one , and there are many articles on how to get along with others, even in community (well maybe not alot but you can find them) so what WE are talking about here and what I rambled on about on the cast is making a real difference in the current paradigm we experience and set up a new earth to be a part of harmoniously and forever for all.

It’s deeper than the environment is what I’m saying! Pollution and misuse of natural resources are a HUGE problem, yes, and those problems aren't “out there” “over there” “not here” “their problem.” In the great words of Jesus Jones, it’s, “right here, right now.” And if WE do not acknowledge our parts in this drama, we’ll not only die ourselves, we’re setting the Earth up as we know it to die out, and as I mention in my talk, one can’t “go to heaven” if it leaves it a hell for others! BOOMITY BOOM BOOM as my publisher says hahah. That’s it folks, this is the message, we really are a part of the problem, we really are response able to fix it and if we choose indifference it not only ruins our chances of happiness here and now (lives, communities, nations, planet, etc) but all other future possible outcomes.

In my talk I highlight what we can remember in order to bring us in authentic harmony with our selves (cells) , others and the Divine. Humane treatment of animals (not eating them, not breeding them to eat, not impregnating them and taking their babies and harvesting their milk by machine for their whole lives, not polluting soil with vehicles and pesticides, not over using synthetic agents that pollute water and soil and air, not using toxic materials, not PRODUCING such life threatening shit in the fucking first place! Jesus help us see, surely we’re getting the picture right?! I know WE do, and again my point is not to overwhelm and make us feel shitty, it is to bring real awareness to the root of these problems. kolee the practicalsaint is about looking at what is not working and tweaking it till it does. We seriously have nothing better to do with our time and if you are a 3D human working for a living, having future generations that you intend to inhabit this planet we all live on currency called earth, you may really want to pay attention to your actions RIGHT NOW. If you’re a 4D open hearted unity conscious person already, then for the love of all, help me spread this message and start companies and seed the new earth already You know I’m kinda broken and need help with this divine load and want to hook up with you so I can serve more! :) ANNND for my 5D-ers and above-hi I see you. I thank you and here we are. Tell me what to do, and I’ll do it for god’s sake. I do what I can to create a new earth, that is the holographic universe which we’re all a part, and have eternity to do so.

Here’s what I do then so we all can get an idea of what I practically do in order to be sustainable, that is to be able to do what I do over and over and have it always bring benefit to the whole. I once humbly asked some fancy smancy guru desperately, “how do you live every day this message and not feel so angry?” As if ego on queue was salivating to feel better than me she said, “what do YOU do?” (like throwing it back in my lap to say do your own work and you will feel better, I certainly don’t have anger problem because I’m so cool and sophisticated and enlightened) To which I was like eye roll and fuck off, “well dear I pay attention to my emotions, I run my earth and cosmic energy to transmute that shit and realize when I see your fucked up patterns, I exercise, I do physical energy work with practitioners, bla bla bla...it’s me that can make the change in my own life other wise I wouldn’t be around your stupid ass anymore …. Snarl and smile kolee:) She was like, “oh” LOL Yes friends, I practice what I preach and if you follow me at all you know how horrible I sound 75% of the time (to un dead ego anyway:) and yet somehow, like the crucified Jesus figure we all know about, I come away re-born, and clearly divinely protected. Hi kolee’s ego, we see you too :) lol

Originally I had a guest scheduled who would talk with me about why “sustainable communities” or “eco-villages” fail and where do we go from here. The reason they fail is they is we and we are broken humans all on the journey of embodying divinity in order to transcend, yea transfigure the hell we experience (and if you don't see hell on earth, either you aren't looking or are in denial). When there are over 40 millions human Beings in modern day slavery and the numbers are rising exponentially, when there are entire countries going extinct from war and starvation , when animals plants and elements are treated with clear contempt and disdain, when the weak are exploited for material or physical pleasure , we’re in fucking hell people. Take your rosy glasses off and do more than recycle and eat organic food. Support corporations that make positive change in the world we are a part of. If we’ve learned nothing else in 2020, it is that we’re ALL connected (hello one world government, future topic and spoiler alert- this is why so many people freak out over this “agenda” because acknowledging our oneness and interdependence means personal “response-ability”)!

WE ARE LITERALLY ONE. On all levels, basic, spirit and multi dimensional.

If we ignore, we may even prosper here and now, and I’ma tell you straight out- the jig is up when you stop breathing then. I’m learning about the bardo and even writing a book about that space, and listen, I’m telling you straight out-- WE DON’T WANNA HAVE SHIT HANGING OVER OUR HEAD ever. Never. I’m imploring you to help me cuz I don't WANT to be forced to fuck our planet anymore, I don’t want the only reasonable “affordable” options to be shit. I am truly doing the best I can to create a new earth, and whilst doing it am not only rewarded in this lifetime for my efforts, but eternally throughout my lives and dimensional Beings. I am begging us to help ourselves first so we can help each other in a real sustainable life giving harmonious way, therefore being in total alignment with the Divine, on all levels and expressions!

I hope this makes some kind of sense and resonates somewhat. I love us for where we are now and I pray these truths bloom like the lotus flower, forever and beautifully. Gracefully evolving with the least amount of suffering possible. Thank you for supporting my work as I intend to support all in turn. You can do so many things to change the world and I honor all that you already do. I see you and appreciate you dear one. Buhbye for now, about 1800 words in a couple hours you can read in a couple minutes and you can listen more in depth to the podcast or youtube . Please share and consider contributing your own wealth in some way to the new earth; influence, money, time, experience, support, etc. to stay alive sustainably.

The time the Christian stripper stole most my stuff

essentialmind@icloud.com (kolee Hemenway) — Mon, 12 Oct 2020 22:08:09 GMT

Women who hurt other women, and equality with all Beings

Greetings beautiful Beings. It is with a heavy heart that I write today. My 9 year old Buddha like son and I realized the baby book I had made for him for his birth day is gone. It was taken from us, against our will with 'twisted delight.'

I had moved to the borderlands of Missouri and Arkansas during the beginning of covid in May 2020. I had reduced my 4 bedroom half assed sloppily built track home in the “nice” part of Fayetteville, Arkansas to a 10x10 storage unit and purchased a 13x20 white canvas ‘wall tent’ to glamp in for the summer with a woman I met through the hebrew hillbilly cult I had been inducted into decades earlier and broken out of. She had told me she was working on an “Eco-village” and wanted me to help her get it up and running. From previous experience of being too eager too fast, I told her I would spend the summer there to see if I could be of service. (add 10-15-2022- pro tip and note to self- much too eager here too! must interview and vet lots before moving anything anywhere:)

When I got there, I quickly realized she was full of stinky shit and she was a shill. She had delusional plans of hosting several groups of would be back to the landers in search of refuge and hope. Instead, there were sharp rusty edges and human refuse littered about the barren hilltop upon which her dirty moldy and lice infested RV sat. She had broken from the cult as well yet in body not in mind. She had been a stripper since the age of 15 and against her inner convictions, continued that work bragging she could make $1500 a weekend by rolling and writhing in seductive ways in a yucky club in Poplar Bluff MO. (side note, I totally encourage women to do WHATEVER we can to make a living. I also totally encourage sovereign alignment to do what one wants, and like what one does while DOING NO HARM TO OTHERS, so don’t write in;)

Me, being a 'practicalsaint,' encouraged her to not feel shame or guilt but to “do what she liked and liked what she did.” I came into her disgusting camp looking for a safe place to house my 3 young boys in uncertain times (again add 10-15-2022 I DEFINITELY was not response able or appropriate here by not just traveling the 3 hours to vet the location first anyway- I got it- it was lame, seriously tho, this was a rough lesson)!

I thought because she had 3 young boys of her own and a pussy, she would be that safe haven I could regroup and solidify our next steps. What I found shook our family to the core and changed my view of women forever.

This piece is a recap of sorts of the beautiful interview the Practicalsaint Talks podcast hosted October 7, 2020 with the amazing woman Aja Banks, author of The Republic of Cassowary . The book showcases a parallel world where women rule the roost and men were in subjection. No contact could be made between the two sexes, kept separate by walls and shock collars. Men are catalogued and brought out only to mate and work. The women had seen the atrocities created by men and vowed with valor never to forget and never to allow it to happen again. Streets were beautiful and pristine, no pollution from industry or vehicle. No animals harmed or slaughtered for blood food and no rape, violence or war. The women all used their talents and strengths for the good of the whole and economy thrived on a barter and value system. Heaven. Heaven for female, hell for male. Her book shows the flip side of our current reality and also seeks to find balance and harmony between all sentient Beings) be sure to read it on amazon.com and listen to our original interview !

The passage that stands out most to me is where little girls could play at any hour safely and happily. As a young girl, I had to play behind my red doberman with floppy ears, Cybil, in the ghetto of Tracy California (where the word “cracker” was spray painted on my fence) then moving to the “safety” of the sierra nevada foothills where I was abused sexually by my redneck babysitter and her husband for years then later after we moved to the ozarks would be repeatedly trapped in various sick cycles in different forms. Rape, once violent but mostly my limp drunk body assaulted after bar hours by different men I went “willingly” home with. In other words, I had never known the freedom of just living an innocent and unharmed life, and to think of such a place was divine. I fought the injustices of my upbringing with religious fervor, bringing me to the Christian Jew camp where I spent another decade of my life in another form of subjection and assault because I am a woman. I had seen men as the enemy, but it's been all genders and all different ways. It's been me separating from myself and resenting parts of me.

Looking back, I had the hopes of reversing the damage and broken past with purity and holy intent. Spoiler alert, it hadn’t worked. I then tried to hook up with the opposite man, thinking maybe the hippy dippy land loving male would be better. It hadn’t. He still was a woman hater and couldn’t live in equality. After basically writing off men in general, I ran to women. THEY would know, they would help. They could see and they would heal. They didn’t. “They” is we and we are broken. Broken people cannot help. We harm. We harm others, and we harm ourselves, over and over again. Perpetuating a sick cycle that lives strong as ever today as I write in Fall of 2020. And now I get to completely heal the split selves from my past as I see quite plainly the pain of others.

After my divorce and breaking out of the jew cult, I had awakening. I realized deep inside a unity I had been seeking, yet it dawned without force and without plan. It came as I was ready. I was ready to heal, completely. I was ready to be one with the world that fucked me. I was ready to live in harmony with those I had fucked. Looking at ones self is hard. Gut wrenching and absolutely necessary work that one does in order to die and be reborn. I wasn’t a victim, but 100% response able and aware of the “I” and the me; the you and the they, the us. If you have followed me for any length of time you know I have gone through many initiations and rebirths, and like the phoenix I rose-again. I’ve worked with women my whole life, shining a light on the inner places that bring appreciation and wellness. I saw in stripper bitch a kolee Hemenway. I saw a broken woman beat down by men and victimized by her own shadows, a prisoner of her own past abuses. I saw the little bastards she called her sons and resolved to spend a season of my life being with her. I needed a place to live, she needed company. I had a queasy feeling the moment I drove onto the property, but I had committed and being ridiculously loyal, I stayed. I see this drama of course as my own design and the fact that we were a player in the show a reward and punishment enough. Looking back, these are some highlights.

At first it was okay, even though they burned their human poop in the community fire pit, along with ALL TRASH, like the ungodly amounts of plastic water bottles and wretched disposable eating ware and every low vibe food carton you could imagine, I stayed. I’m always on the slightly arrogant side and easily ruffled when provoked. You could say I’m a warrior, do no harm- take no shit. I endured this trial in order to up level. I needed to see the other side and embrace it in order to transmute it. I didn’t feel like her savior and refused to give blindly of my resources I so preciously hold dear. Instead, I actually had the grand delusions of inspiring her within my style and strength. I wanted her to see she didn't have to struggle to live, she didn’t need to feel bad for creating money to take care of herself and children, that she could change her story any time she desired. I wanted to offer the light of inner presence and offer hope to a dead family. We were indeed a light, however I was blind. I had no idea she was literally a shell of a woman with the thirst for blood, the blood of a true hold vessel that her very real demons told her to take. I was in hell. I had willingly and hopefully stepped into a trap. Even before she eventually confided in me that she had been physically possessed by maleficent Beings (like “exorcist shit”) earlier in her life and that “Jesus Christ was my savior” I had seen her vicious reaction when confronted with the mirror of her existence. I brazenly told her she was NOT leading an eco village and I was not sticking around to see how it shaped up.

Again, I AM NOT A VICTIM but a willing response able human. I stepped unknowingly into a drama that has forever shaped my children’s and my view. I didn’t know there was no water available on the land, I didn’t know she was in an ongoing battle with her mother and step father down the road (where she got water, showered and used electricity), I didn’t know she had literally no money (except the stuff she took from others and the government and not only would not pay taxes on the money she made, she would steal from taxpayers in the form of free food and medical care) and used whomever she could in order to survive. I did not know that everything she wanted to achieve she had absolutely no real way of creating. And I certainly didn’t know that she was in alignment with evil entities that sought to take me out.

I continued my spiritual practices and held tightly to my guides (both physical and ethereal) whilst there, in hillbilly hell. The breaking point came several times when her 3D self realized I had her number and could see right through her (side note, please be aware shining light on prehistoric ego is kinda dangerous). Even before she openly treated us with contempt I had openly let her know we were not staying. Keep in mind this is all happening right smack in the midst of Corona virus, Covid-19 2020. My uncertain circumstances mirrored exactly what the rest of us have been seeing as well, albeit in probably more intense scene (hey Ima writer, life is big so I can have material hahah). Once we openly were hostile to each other, I miraculously manifested a home to purchase through owner financing and began packing. Full circle, you can read about how that perfect harmonious story has unfolded in the book I’m writing currently :)

The home I bought had been left alone for a year, like a scene from the badly acted Kirk Cameron movie, Left behind; cheese still in the marble glass topped holder. We had a solid month of clean out, clean up and remodel work that needed to be done before moving in. Enter our current trauma and main storyline here. That crazy bitch actually stole our stuff! Over $10,000 worth of equipment and sentimentals. Can you fucking believe it?! Of course you can, YOU have the hindsight of what I’ve been working on the past 6 months.

At first she claimed on her facebook page, “The wealth of the wicked shall be laid up at the feet of the just.” (that’s not even how the scripture reads, but whatever) then she claimed I abandoned it. Anyway, in her twisted egoic view, I was the evil one because I chant the Adi Shakti, read Tarot cards, speak with spirit guides and told her to “shut the fuck up” whilst she claims christianity, strips, steals and lies and had a convoluted date she worked out for me to have my stuff “out by”.

Anyway, I got rid of all the extra stuff I had lugged up there that I had been lugging around house to house since 2014, I packed our minimalist camp compound into dollar general crates and stacked them lovingly on pallets to safely collect when I had a house. I worked for a month straight letting her know when I could come get everything and when we finally got our new place cleaned out and got it ready to go do the task of closing that wicked chapter, it was GONE. GONE GONE GONE! She had cleaned out the entire camp, using my very own 4x12 trailer to steal my own stuff! She fled to West Plains with her 25 year old boy toy/money and moved with not a word, except on FB where she continues to blab her bullshit. I filed a report with the Howell County sheriff who dicked around 2 weeks when I was told it was a civil case and not criminal. Hmm, ok. The few lawyers I actually tried to talk to to see about opening a case don’t wanna touch the thing so here we are this morning, realizing the precious photo album I made 9 years ago during the birth of my 4th son AND his photo box of when he was 8 days old was gone now.

See, it’s not the stuff our family has been sad about. It’s the irreplaceables she stole out of spite. The family heirlooms I retardedly lugged about for comfort I suppose. My fathers, yea my grandfathers guns! She fucking took my James Bond Walther PPK for god’s sake! Stinky bitch. My father's pocket tee quilt I made after he passed 2010, my shofar from Israel, my 1,000s of dollars worth of books I’ve collected my 24 years of motherhood, my own favorite and cherished books including the “Seven Sacred Seals” book (ya, great move Nicks…) the quilt my mother and children made me for my 41st birthday right after I got back from Czech Republic, our list of totem animal guides that chose us, my stones, crystals and shells from adventures around the world; stuff like that as well as brand new equipment like a $1200 1800 watt pure sine wave solar system, $2000 MAC, $700 6 person tent, $200 weed eater and blower, and $400 cooler (there’s more, these are just a few of the highlights).

She took it all, when she could have just left it. She could have just packed her own things up and left the property, but she didn’t. My ex husband tried to take my stuff, my ex finance tried to take my stuff, both of which I blocked with vehemence because they had dicks, yet this soft pussy lured me right into her stinky gross trap and robbed me blind.

Soooo there you go, the saga of kolee the practicalsaint continues. I want to make sure you see that my boys and I are always Divinely protected and cared for though. I don’t want to evoke the energy of sympathy or sadness or anger, but of light and inspiration. #1, the home we manifested was COMPLETELY furnished (before we knew we wouldn't have our household stuff anymore) #2 it’s not the stuff that matters, it’s the life force we embody and the lives of our loved ones and #3 memories aren't in the stuff, they live with us. Our loved ones are with us no matter if their body or their stuff is with us and the living is what we actually DO have all the time. #4 Our actions are our memories, so make em happy ones, or at least not harmful ones!

Our life is fucking fabulous and we’ll always come out on top. And of course, the theme of this piece, women hurt other women too. Human Beings are transforming and the long prophesied and recurring shift is now. Gender separation turns into intention separation and the words, “depart from me, I never knew you” are music to my ears as I turn and look at mother fuckers who seek to harm fall away-- fade out and dematerialize before our very eyes. Thank you for reading about our life, we love you eternally Namaste dear ones!!!!!!!! Read more www.essentialmind.me and be sure to catch alll the Practicalsaint Talks podcasts on your favorite platforms or directly on buzzsprout.com!

Catch the next episode, recording tomorrow on REAL sustainable living and eco villages of the future.

Legal shiz- author given permission and rights to photo and blog about the happenings at "perfectly imperfect eco village" and is a true account of what really happened. All on the record via Howell county Missouri sheriff dept, video recordings and texts. peace peace- I'm begging you :)

Let's go to the next level with Gene Key Expressions

essentialmind@icloud.com (kolee Hemenway) — Thu, 08 Oct 2020 21:48:00 GMT

We'll mix 2 of kolee's favorite hobbies, watching movies and gene key profiles!

Greetings Beautiful Beings! Hey I have awesome news… Oct 6th we binged all the Bourne movies and taday we get to talk about it :) Are you excited??? That whole series (yes I guess even including the one Greengrass and Damon dropped out of) is unforgettable and a classic, I’m not sure it rates up there with Matrix and OG Star Wars BUT a classic nonetheless. We’ve watched them all so many times it's hard to keep track of! Recently I acquired great masses of DVD movies and 2 from Bourne showed up! The binge was on��

The highlights from the shows we're gonna look at today, however, come from another of my favorite pass times; reading Chinese I-Ching charts (yes that really is a hobby I enjoy) I have been obsessed with this practice for about 2 full years, and was introduced to the concepts like 5 or 6 years ago. After exhausting my own profile and that of my family (lol) I moved to others. I’ve offered, for a very brief 24 hour period on instagram story world, the reading for hire. Don’t worry, I love to see the fractal pattern and geek out over this stuff so much I’ll either do your chart for free cause I want to know more about you or you can glean my wisdom by hiring me to do it for you AND from this post I’ll links and resources so you can take your pick and really start experiencing more of what you came to earth to accomplish and fulfil! It truly is a magical and special wisdom.

Our beloved sage Ra Uru Hu , now passed over, later developed a type of human design template for the modern human Being called appropriately “Human Design.” You can watch his account from 1987 here when he first received this transmission of wisdom. The premise is all humanity share the I-Ching hexagrams (which if you are not familiar with the wheel is {very simply and roughly} an expanded version of the 12 zodiac signs, broken into 64 different “keys” or “hexagrams” as there are 6 lines in which each of the 64 can fall) template in our human bodies, which are calibrated or tuned through the “stargate” we come down through during carnation (eg birth date, time and place) and turned on essentially inside our own Beings uniquely and exquisitely. I haven't studied human design and i-ching as much as I have gene keys.

Richard Rudd recently (within the last 20-30 years) received a Divinely guided transmission he calls the Gene Keys that further breaks down the individuality of the keys showing 11 of the 64 keys forming a “hologenetic blueprint” of our very own DNA coding! THIS is the shiz I will attempt to articulate in this piece :) I so super have loved having this knowledge and guidance for my own path, I can’t help but to “impose” it upon others, ESPECIALLY the people I work and play with! I hope you will take a moment even today, maybe even after reading this post, to go to the beautifully done Gene Key website and get your free profile at least . This is truly a higher path and can only be taken as one is ready. It won’t even be interesting to you if you’re not there, so don't worry about not knowing or knowing “too much” already ;) Just dive in and see where it carries you. And know on the front end, the teams at

GeneKeys.com have done an amazing job with the way the information is laid out to really get exactly the support you are wanting and need in this journey. I personally have read the Gene Key book and taken the Golden Path courses for the Activation sequence and I JUST JUST finished the Venus sequence, like I'm still reading some of the contemplative glossary terms and I'm really letting it sink in. It seriously took me AN ENTIRE YEAR to get through the book and feel as if I really am starting to embody the message and unravel the ingrained habits and protective habits I have been building in this particular carnation for 4 decades ;P so ya, lots to personally unpack and deal with! For us overachievers, dive into the Seven Sacred Seals too ;) Be careful though... :D The beauty of this and all transformative ways is I really only need to help myself and that in and of itself IS the service to others. It's the Buddhic way and message, I do ultimately aim to serve more and as much as I can. To help lower my learning curve I'm always hiring people who know more about something than I do. One doesn't do their own open heart surgery, and quite honestly this process can be even more delicate.

I’ve also hired several people to help me sift through my own personal charts as well as and met with a group once a week for about a year I think actually just to get familiar with the ideas, lingo and embodiment of each key. My point is this is a high path for those who are looking to up level REALLY. Not just pretending to want to but actually wanting and doing ery dang day in order to bring Divine embodiment and freedom to self, others and the unseen Ones. It does take effort and intention plus conscientious and consistent effort and could take lifetimes actually. I'm just saying in order to get “through” stuff like this, it traditionally DOES take literally one's entire life time to get through. So don’t have unrealistic expectations for it to even make sense right away, it's a process AND to those of you who are already lightyears ahead of me, and still haven't heard of the gene keys or taken time to investigate.. Go ‘head and do it now aight ;)

AND AND for you who are with me already, lez go! You’re gonna LOVE this one! Let’s dig into Jason Bourne’s profile to get an idea of what goes on beneath the surface and really ignites our true zone of genius and allows ultimate freedom by being our fullest human expression!

OKAY-- whew, longish intro but I haven't really laid this foundation yet in any of my writings so I want to really at least bring awareness to the huge impact these keys have already made on our shifting and evolving (it’s 2020 now, we’re here baby) planet and consciousness.

The first “sequence” we look at in a profile is the “Activation Sequence.” This is the outer ring made of 4 keys that are always pairs. In the traditional I-Ching wheel, each of the 64 has a “programming partner” that sits directly across from each other on the wheel AND is the line opposite of each other! Like the lines mirror each other as opposites, the 6 lines are either broken (female/receptive energy) or solid (male/outgoing energy) so the opposite partner is going to be have a male line where it’s partner has a female one. Make sense? So for Jason Bourne’s , aka David Webb, profile he is a 4/6 in the lines, meaning he is a server on the outside and a wise lookout leader in his inner life. Same as me actually! PS I’d love to discuss our profiles together if you already know about yours! I literally could talk about this stuff anytime! Anyway, in his Life’s work sphere he's about Transmutation pairing with Graciousness in his Evolution sphere. I mean we could stay here even for days (I won't ��

Each key has 3 different aspects or frequencies and Richard Rudd’s premise is that each human has 11 of the 64 embedded in our DNA (collectively and individually) so looking at Jason Bourne’s life’s work showing up as the shadow oppression in key 47 through the gift of transmutation and entering eventually (heaven as we oft say) is the Divine Essence of Transfiguration. Wow. Cleary we see these patterns at work with this poor guy! He couldn’t catch a break and even in the last movie he STILL has an enemy of state ready to blat his ass! The Life’s work is always connected to the programming partner in the sphere of Evolution, here in our little story it’s the almighty 22nd Gene Key. All hail 22 :) (I’m slightly kidding, but Richard does take strong special notice of this key as it relates to our human evolution and “involution” as it were! And it's in my personal profile �� THIS is the key of Dishonor, Graciousness and Grace that allows the Divine to intimately merge with the Basic Being to help us “involve and evolve” from “homeosapians to homeosanctus Beings.

That’s a mind fuck right there. We won't stop here long but realize that We ARE actually RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE of evolving again as a species, so try to keep up lol… Ikeed,ikeed, a leetle keed ;) I’m kolee the practicalsaint that loves to talk about this stuff AND practices enough to actually embody it as well, then goes out and talks about it to bring awareness to others:) (In case you are curious, my life’s work is to ascend lol ) Back to JB, so his evolution is Graciousness from the shadow Dishonor in the realms of love and community! WHAT?! Seriously??! Of course it is! I mean he is constantly trying to be a “good” guy straight from the beginning of watching his dad get blown up by the “bad” guys and deciding to give his entire life over to some program that promises defending his country. He wants to find honor, to find some kind of retribution that fulfills him, but seems to always be counted as wrong, being dishonored by others and therefore dishonoring his own self through misaligned loyalties. Moving on the next two spheres (and I think we can see this is going to be a series, so I’ll finish this piece with these next two very important life keys) of Radiance and Life Purpose (as Richard Rudd has labeled them). These are the inner spheres that point to what keeps us happy and healthy. Once we break through and become aware of the first two keys, we can really get comfy with these sweet gems! Jason’s are key 45 Synergy through Dominance with the highest way being Communion partnering with key 26, Pride and Artfulness and ultimately Invisibility. Since his purpose is in line 6, cellular level intent, it is felt with the entire being. Running through every single cell, feeling so intently it really can be felt physically, indeed needs to be felt entirely in order to imbue properly-- again I’m a line 6 here and my human design is one of almost being “in it” (whatever it is at the time) forever it seems and then suddenly it can finally take hold and BE that thing. I think he shows that speed through the FIVE long movies we go thru to finally see the big boy mix of all 3 properties of pride at a job well done artfully so he could DISAPPEAR ��

We see him mastering the invisibility thing right? He can go anywhere and “blend” in and only calls enough attention to himself that is required to get the job done. Now clearly the guy likes to dominate the situation and people that don’t see it his way which in turn shows off his artful and very colorful fighting style and because he's still not integrating light and dark in his own being, his dharma his karma his emotions are off track most the time. He is a fucking beast though right, “Jesus Christ, it’s Jason Bourne” is touted about 7 times (made up #) throughout the movies and well said I say! Jesus he IS amazing! He's a hot mess though right. We see him really start to become happy while he’s with his beloved Marie and the synergy becomes more prevalent as he is able to (albeit limited) to team up with people who at first act like they are going to help anyway. He thinks they are going to be on his team and he gives his self to the team, but alas they end up entering him or his family or he betrays his own feelings ��

Next we’ll look at his relationship sequence to notice why he continually draws in the wrong people (this can get deep and yay how fun to analyze a character!) Sneak peak though is the Inadequacy he feels in romance shows up as Exhaustion and Purposelessness until we see him shift in the last movie to Resolve to Enrich and begins to find his self in quite Restraint and ultimately Immortality! O yea, stay tuned! ;) good times good times, I hope you enjoyed this as much as I have and I do look forward to seeing how many of these profiles we can do over the next 18 months … To know ones shadows and to love them is finding true and perfect freedom which is what I wish for everyone ��

O SHOOT! I totally forgot to mention the fact that led me down this beautiful rabbit hole of talking about Jason Bourne (besides getting to know him really well yesterday and wanting to make SOME use of the time I spent there hahah) He was born 9-13-1970 in NIXA MISSOURI.

Let’s just enjoy this for a moment more shall we. ♥️

In case you don’t know me yet, I was born in Eastern Washington USA then raised in Calaveras county in the Sierra Nevada foothills then moved to the Ozark Plateau (a raised granite slab in the the middle of the United States of America that goes from upper Missouri to mid Araknsas.) I eventually moved to a “haytown suburb” of the Queen City where Brad Pitt was born and raised and lived in my first home. My then husband and I had our first home birth 10 miles away from Nixa, MO! We actually had 2 births in Clever, MO, one in Boliver, MO and the first one in the hospital in Branson, MO in case you care:) You can read about the cool history of Nixa here and also remember this area was SMACK in the middle of the Great and Horrible first Civil War America encountered… So now it’s full circle :) I’m sure he and Brad were talking one day about the small place Brad came from and Matt loved the name “nixa” (Nicholas A. Inman, eg Nick’sa ) and was like, “ya, I’ma put that in my next movie! …. Orrr something like that ;) at any rate, enjoy dear ones! Talk soon….

I love you guys so much, I hope you enjoyed this piece as much as I enjoyed making it:) TEXT in at 417-361-3606 to schedule a 30 or 60 reading of yoru free chart with kolee to get you rolling in the correct direction and please share if you find it interesting and insightful, I’m growing my brand in order to serve more effectively whilst raising a full blown family of 5 sons, 1 dog and 1 cat. We're also always interested in new affiliates, collabs, guests and the like, so "all hands on deck! Practicalsiant Talks blog, cast and sites are here to support and assist the next level of our humanity.

Thank you eternally for being here with us! Namaste, kolee n krew www.essentialmind.me

How can giving birth add to self worth?

essentialmind@icloud.com (kolee Hemenway) — Tue, 06 Oct 2020 17:22:54 GMT

A new earth look at human babies and family

Does giving birth add to one's self worth? Is that even a thing? Could it be that humans have an innate need to survive, so we “have” babies? Is it a valid reason to have babies? Could it be that most people having children are blind to this innate need for acceptance and to re-parent their own self, so we have human babies? Do we need to look at the real reasons for creating new human life before we get pregnant? Could a ton of social and environmental issues be solved from this one intense look at the need to give birth in order to add to self worth?

Let’s look at it shall we :)

#1 I, kolee, have many children and am an expert on the topic of doing things to add to my own self worth

#2 I don't actually think everyone who has a family is doing so for their own pomp and circumstance, consciously anyway….

#3 The depopulation agenda and why humans need to procreate

#4 Looking at families in a new light to adapt to 2020 earth

So this topic began from a crazy u/childfree reddit thread where people with no children talk amongst themselves. I landed there by accident and quickly realized I was in the wrong group. It got me thinking though. As a mom since I was 17, I am about kids and family. I’ve had several “batches” of kids, my first 3 are all 6 years apart and then after the 3rd, came the 4th then the 5th in succession of 2 and half years apart. SO this mother has been mothering over half my life and all 5 sons still love and talk to me :) I’m a success in my book and if no one ever liked me or my work again, I’d be okay. The loves of my life are the actual bodies I created in my own body and then have lovingly poured all my resources into for 20 plus years. As you read this piece, remember all that k ;)

The phrase, “Giving birth for self worth” popped into my head a couple days ago and I wrote it down, it has a certain practicalsaint style grit to it and I wanted to explore it more. At first, it did come to me as to what I did! I was going through my own baby book and then my first son’s and I realized that especially down the line when I was working so hard to be a good jew and be fruitful and multiply that I was having children because that is what the Bible I was reading told me to do. I had my first son at age 17, unconsciously to get me out of my parent’s home and into my own. Enter my condom baby. I was seriously a “virgin” (no penetration) for several years with my high school boyfriend, then got pregnant like on our 2nd time of actual sex, new years eve 1995. He was my 2nd date ever as a teen, I thought it was crazy to talk about adoption and I didn’t believe in abortion and my christian family readily accepted my marriage announcement as a viable solution. My self worth was shot as a pregnant cheerleader, so at least I could be a good mom to salvage my worth… right? No, that didn't work. We divorced shy of 2 years into the plan when I found other guys seemed to like me more than my husband did so off I went to spiral into self loathing/self medication/ self sabotage.

Several years later I decided on my best friend to help me with the first baby and I guess to live with for the rest of my life (why o why) After my rappelling accident that happened a month after we got married they gave me dilantin as an anti seizure medication ( I apparently had been shaking down in the pit after a soft ball sized rock hit me in the head from 100 feet above {read full story here} that lowered the effective of my birth control and I got pregnant right away while recovering from my accident at home. Awbra Hemenway Trujillo was born in Feb 2003. My birth control baby. He was my joy and happy place, since my first round went so horribly wrong, this one was my 2nd chance. I dropped my resort/times share sales career to start at home sales with Mark Kay cosmetics. Unconsciously it gave me something/someone to dote on and pay attention to and who would pay attention to me. Self worth? Ya, I guess so. I had a purpose and a home to take care of. A family to grow and be a part of like I never felt I had a child myself. But was it really giving me worth? Not really, outside status maybe but inside I still felt like shit because my first son lived with his dad and step mom instead of us and I had already been married twice and I had another baby with a man who didn’t really love me that much and we were already struggling again relationship wise. I really was asleep mostly still. I was in my own narrow minded single track view of “reality” and all I was doing was surviving. I am a ‘good mother, like I care about the whole Being. I care about good nutrition and sleep and natural ingredients. I care about fresh air, sunshine and exercise in nature. I care about building dense grey mattered brains with high IQs and neurons firing effectively. I care about being kind and compassionate, living by the golden rule and being aware of self and others. I care about realizing and communicating with higher powers to build a solid and secure earthly base. I care about creative expression through art, music and books. I care and I care enough to fashion our day around what I care about. When I came out of my coma after my accident, I knew our lives were made up of what we do each day. So from then on, each day I did what I cared about. Some days we’d go to the park, some we’d go to the nature center. We bought foods and clothes and toys that reflected our ideals. Yes, I suppose doing all those things added to my self worth. At that point in my life, a 24 year old woman with 2 children, only 1 at home with me still, being a good mom meant the world to me. Having a super clean and picked up home with a good body and pretty face WITH a cute healthy smart baby meant I was super awesome and full of worth.

Then 2nd marriage began to show it’s true yucky quirks and 3 year old Awbra and I lived in our home alone while the dad paid the bills and did what he wanted. A whole year we were separated and instead of that being that and ending a failed marriage again, we went through super counseling by well meaning christians and gave it another whirl. I could have listened to the advice of the cute Isreali boy who was like, “you already have one kid with him, cut your losses, don't have more… but I didn’t . I INSISTED we have more children!

See? I WAS filling the void by having children! I didn’t even know it though! I don’t think many people DO look at it this way. But I’m fairly certain it is a way to have worth in the current matrix we’re a part of on planet earth. Think about it, why else would parents be so fucking crazy about their kids grades and performance in school if it weren't intricately tied to our self worth. Great expectations to supersede the outcome of their own pathetic adult life. Never mind re parenting ones self for God’s sake! Taking 100% responsibility (Response Ability) seems way too crazy an idea to even entertain so we press our unwelcomed attachments onto a whole new set of human generations. Until we wake the fuck up, we’ll keep this sick hamster wheel flying at full speed ahead.

I wanted this 3rd baby so badly. It was absolutely a symbol of the restored marriage I had ‘so graciously’ chosen. I had been on the depo provera birth control shot since my baby in 03 was born, and it took almost a whole year to get pregnant because the shot goes into the fat cells and stays there! It tricks the body to think it’s pregnant each month so no ovulation and no bleeding, no babies… I actually wanted to get pregnant this time and was not able to! It took time, but finally I conceived the holy wanted and planned child, Asher Ora Trujillo. He was prophesied by me through a dream to be a girl baby (clearly colored by my intense desire for a girl baby… ) and I wrote my first book “birth of the age to come” after HE came! It was all about the “end times” not looking the way I thought they would and how to actually prepare for such a time. That was 2010. It was precisely two days after my 30th birthday, my little sweet baby BOY came ! He had a pink and purple car seat and a homemade pink blanket from my mother. I loved that baby so much! I was fully in my conservative jew phase and threw my entire being into my family. We became urban homesteaders and did everything the hard (ish) way. I made my own laundry soap and hung my clothes to dryer (even though we had a perfectly great electric dryer in our home) I made homemade breads and pastas. We had fruit trees and gardens. We went to the neighbors for eggs and milk and meat. I found my worth in the foot print my family and I made. We were not just environmental stewards but also political and religious zealots. I nursed Asher till he was 2, had 1 period and got pregnant with our 3rd, my 4th child. Judah James Trujillo was born 9-11-11. This baby was born with a midwife at her birth house and fucked up my tailbone so badly I had to kneel instead of sit for 6 weeks after he was born! My "family planning" baby (catholic style charting and abstinence during ovulation time).

I loved Judah and Asher and Awbra and Langdon and my husband and had a lot of fun being a mom. After Judah was born I think I started to feel truly fulfilled. It was still based on what I did as a person that made me feel worthy of life, but I did it well and I like doing things well. I like feeling accomplished. I did feel accomplished, we finally got a 2nd weekend home that was my dream place. I had been studying sustainable living and off grid homes when I finally found the 10 acre basic cabin we would go to at least 2 weekends a month and sit and stare once we made the 3 hour journey to our slice of heaven. It was when I got there I was really able to begin to feel the connectedness of humans and earth. The nature we lived in became what made up my personal body and I saw how I treated the earth as how I was treating myself (and family and friends). I was still in denial about how connected we truly are as Beings (faith and community and thoughts and actions) but at least I was waking up to the way I was really living on blue green earth, in turn giving birth to my real self worth!

I think this happens almost naturally when humans procreate. We suddenly start to realize what we put in our bodies affects how we feel and how bodies are grown. We notice big and small things in order to build a fantastic baby being. We become closer knit to the whole pretty much by default. I suppose this one gesture can actually give us more self worth by osmosis, ya? There isn't anything inherently “bad” about wanting to fill self worth and having children, it could actually lead to an authentic awakening and lead to a more beneficial and fulfilling life. Yet, if this desire is never realized for what it is and we just continue to tirelessly reproduce asleep genetic clones, we ain't gonna get to heaven very fast people, or feel really fulfilled.

Enter depopulation agenda 21… duhn dun duuuuuhhhhhhhn (queue music). I would guess it is exactly this propensity for humans to create based on instinct rather than awareness that leads human elitists to operate the way we see today. We are at a time in history that is almost beyond comprehension. The sheer numbers Earth supports is staggering. And if only the number of people is what she has to support, mama gaia would be OKAY… however it is the MISMANAGEMENT of earths’ resources that leads to the great upheaval we’re all a part of currently. Not only are we seeing signs of our own environments breaking down and failing like earthquakes, fires, hurricanes and extremes in hot and cold weather, we are seeing the direct results from human like Beings controlling life and death and population in specific areas. We have genetically modified organisms (GMO) that are proven to sterilize after enough generations have eaten them (typically the 3rd generations) that we eat and breathe in the same poisoned air then we drink contaminated water with on purpose neurotoxins like fluoride and chlorine and the passive residual effects of the synthetic chemicals in over the counter and prescribed medicine that we pee out into our water systems. Never mind the pollution of green wash by production and manufacturing, we have the watershed from pesticides and other household chemicals used on vehicles and lawns. Also the thousands of labeled and unlabeled ingredients from our bathrooms and kitchen products. You guys get it… we’re a mess and we actively are contributing to the problem ery dang day. Directly and indirectly. It makes sense that if there is more intelligent life than us around that we need to be helped and like teenage children, we probably won’t like it but it will “be good for us.” I have spent my entire life working at not dying while living on planet earth and I have prided myself in keeping 5 children alive on it as well. There is an undeniable agenda to kill off humans that are unaware and show not a lot of promise to become aware in the next few generations at work. Google agenda 21 and do your own research. I can go into it further in another piece, not here. I want to mention that there are people who claim “overpopulation” as a reason not to have children. I say it is mismanagement and have as many children as one wants and can truly take care of. HOWEVER I say have children consciously! Don't have them because that’s what we’re supposed to do to repopulate human kind, don’t have them to relive your own life, don’t have them to bring worth to your being (consciously or not), and going into my next and final point, don’t have them as result of an egg and sperm coming together that creates a big bang and jolts a human form into existence WITHOUT REALIZING that we can absolutely manifest ideas and dreams the very same way we can create human life with our romantic partners.

There I said it, the new earth conscious way to “have family” looks different in 2020 than it did in 2019. New earth, new way baybay. If we were waking up to the fact that we are in “charge” of our lives and not at the whim to every twist and turn we encounter, we must begin to have conversations about how the new family is affected. We don't want to die out. Humans want to continue to produce heirs and live on through our DNA and blood codes. We want to build security with a group of people that have your back and want the same things as you do. It’s called a tribe or family. A clan or cult. These groups have meant the difference of death or life to us as humans for millennia, so clearly the coding here is strong and takes time to re adjust. When we let go of the innate desire to hold on to our smaller groups in order to survive (ie blood family) we automatically begin to evolve and allow a higher perspective to appear.

How do “new families” look? I’ll write more about don’t worry, here just start imagining instead of needing to create a human baby to give one (or two) fulfilment or worth, that we will start to create miracles with the same partners instead. When humans learn to work with our energy centers that organize our entire Beings, we will naturally begin to share those experiences with others we feel safe with (ie our spouse or romantic partners) and tantra (the ability to manipulate and control ones energy to exchange and create all life) will be a regular practice again. When tantric relations come to front of romantic exchanges, all manner of life and manifestations are possible and can quickly become the preferred way to share oneself with another (eg babies won’t be born at the rate and quality we see now due to conscious love and bringing bodies into being only when the environment can fully support one)

O, by the way, I had my last baby boy May 23, 2014. Hi surprise baby! It wasn't appropriate at all with the way husband and I were relating, and 8 short weeks after I gave birth to the blessed Gabriel Phillip Trujillo. I left the husband I had struggled with for the past 14 years and the FOUR sons I had co created with said husband started a brand new life. I was a single mother living off grid in the middle of nowhere arkansas with a couple other hippy dippy back to the landers and began the emergence of the woman you know and love today :) Today, finally after 6 years of testing and living, my boys and I are home owners again and living the conscious dream in 2020. Yes I have given birth to human children to give my life worth. Yes it was at times done unconsciously and and at times it was even done with awareness. Yes I realized after the birth of said children that I needed to be more alert and active with the way I lived on the planet, since there were more humans in my family and since I wanted those humans to have a favorable future on the same planet. Yes, after I had ALL FIVE of my sons, I realized humans can make more than babies whilst love making and I hope to have a partner someday that I can 'tantra the fuck outta' ery dang day :) I see now that I do not need a man to be a father figure and that being a single mother is ridiculously hard. I know it really does take a village to raise a family and that though the daily care and responsibility does fall on me 100%, I am not alone in the care of my family! There are countless people to thank and acknowledge from our life journey and I eternally pay them homage and pray 10,000 blessings into their own life. I am grateful for the people that have come alongside us all to help us make this human experience a cool one. I am blessed for having been given 5 healthy creative smart pretty children. I am forever grateful to myself for giving me the opportunity to learn as I have with these fucking amazing humans I call my sons. My life is what it is because of my choices and I continue to grow into a wise compassionate graceful woman.

The new family has a higher perspective than the family of old. We are now passionately and with clarity conceiving the new earth. We are not populating for fear of demise but because of hope and imagination. We know that what we do here affects you there and we are all one. We live in harmonious union not because of synthetic inhibitors that mindlessly control our thoughts and actions but because we know that we are connected and are continuously upleveled by everyone else living in harmonious union too! It’s a a BEAUTIFUL vision, and one that I hold as well as millions of others alive today.

Thank you dear reader and partner for your love and conscious Being.

10,000 blessings from kolee n krew www.essentialmind.me

Practicalsaint Talks with change maker and author Lisa Liljeberg on how to live your wildest self

essentialmind@icloud.com (kolee Hemenway) — Thu, 01 Oct 2020 22:10:21 GMT

Interview taken from Practicalsaint talks podcast on how to create a life you never want to retire from!

On the final day of September 2020 I had the amazing honor of interviewing Lisa Liljeberg, creator of www.daredreamers.net . She has worn so many lovely and cool hats during her 60+ year earth journey, it’s hard to imagine her needing or wanting to continue growing and find even MORE fulfillment, yet this is exactly what she does! And now she helps women all over the planet do the same! She started her career life as a flight attendant for the German airline Lufthansa, which started her love of travel. She’s had several other jobs including food server, bartender, fitness trainer and massage therapist; even interior designer and building contractor!

Most recently she combined her love of travel with her adventurous spirit and desire to share nature as a global adventure vacation guide! As she began living “her own wild self” there emerged a new calling inside Lisa’s ‘true self’. 7 years ago she went back to school (again) to study life coaching. Integrating her many skills and strengths, she was able to begin building her very own dream life and was able to then guide others to do the same!

Lisa has definitely “taken one for the team” as she took many a twist and turn to get where she is today and offers her experience and wisdom in one on one coaching, her awesome book which comes out 2021, ebooks and a youtube channel where she guides the inner self to transformation AND even has a self paced 8 step home study course, “The Wild Thing Quest: A spiritual quest and practical guide to “create a life you never want to retire from!” for only $49.95! But hurry that awesome price only lasts until Dec 25, 2020 (and will go up up up if I have anything to say about it! It’s value is at least 3xs this intro price so jump in and jumpstart that wild in you NOW)

This amazing person certainly embodies the future vision I have for all Beings, to be free and live the life we dream of. We connected in a writing group that I became a part of a couple months ago and was instantly drawn to her message of freedom and answering “the call of your wild” and invited her to speak with me on my Practicalsaint talks podcast. We hit it off during the prechat and couldn’t wait to record the following week 9/30/2020! It was beautifully Divine how kolee is changing her career path and truly jumping into the unknown world of casting, writing, even singing and dancing, even after a decade of success with the billion dollar privately (“employee” owned) company doTERRA International as a professional Wellness Advocate. The whole point of our talk is to show how comfort is the thief of real joy. It’s easy to become complacent or comfortable, with a million dollars a year or a month. The point of this cast is to remind every single one of us, no matter what we HAVE achieved, to keep dreaming, or start dreaming in the first place! To continue moving forward, ultimately in service of the whole, as the only real way to fulfillment. As Lisa models in her adventure tours , book writing and youtube channel ; one must contemplate and observe (basically daily, regularly and constantly at least) in order to awaken and ascend. “Enlighten up” is one of her favorite sayings and is the perfect embodiment of her message! She is LITERALLY full of wisdom and we’re so blessed to have her sharing it with us! This world is in desperate need for women who have ACTUALLY done the scary jumping and “figured” it out to share and help others jump without getting hurt (much haha).

Yes, change is always a little intimidating. Living a life not aligned is scarier however! Lisa and kolee have both lived the real pain of not being of true service to others because we weren’t really living our true selves. We seek to share not out of arrogance but of real humility. Since I was able to retire and do what I want when I want at the age of 40, I feel it’s my duty to share with my younger sisters so you can do the same! I want to share with my younger and older sisters and brothers! I started my site and blog and cast TO SERVE and I feel the same vibe from Lisa! She figured out how to “reinvent” herself (many times over) and helps others do the same! What an awesome way to give back and keep receiving all the unlimited gifts the universe has to offer.

We got to touch on so many profound truths in this episode. Briefly the show is

Who: to you, the listener and reader.

What: Lisa’s book “Wild thing, what makes your heart sing ~ A spiritual quest and practical guide to create a life you never want to retire from!”

Where: OUTSIDE

When: Now

Why: “Because it’s your dream and YOU deserve it!”

Wow! We covered a lot in 43 minutes! Don’t worry, we’re already planning more talks together!

For this bit, WHO we are talking to is you dear one reading and listening. Like I said, we have actually done what we’re talking about! We’re not 22 with pin up girl tits and no fucking clue (not that there’s anything wrong with that, we all have been there;) but TODAY we’re talking to, (how did she say it in Italian?, thank you google Translate!) “donne di una certa et”

We are “women of a certain age.” And we are talking to you, a beautiful woman of a certain age that is ready to make shit happen the way you actually thought it would (maybe when you were 20 with great tits haha) This means you who are mature enough to be slightly aware, to be aware enough that you want more. To want more enough to do something about it! To do enough of the things and do the things long enough to realize results in creating the life you always actually dreamed of! DARE DREAM is her mission in life, to help people STOP daydreaming and START “Dare-Dreaming” which is …

WHAT Lisa does on the daily! She helps women erydang day to do this thing called Daredreaming, where she helps women start and leads them to freedom! FREEEEEDDDOOOM (yes I did JUST watch Braveheart for the 100th time) of the mind, freedom of the finances, freedom of the heart! Finding one's true self, which leads us to the WHERE of outside.

When we go outside, we connect to our higher selves instantly because ultimately our higher self is the nothingness and the everything that makes up the entire cosmos, our BEings included. So clearly, as we start awakening to what we really want and who we truly are we will want to stay in that space as much as possible. By taking daily walks and connecting our own breath to the air around us and feeling the life giving sun on our skin and moving oxygen and nutrients via our blood pumping through our veins and arteries, we suddenly become immersed in the microcosmic that resides inside our cellular being! This is giving me chills to type it now! It’s so fucking powerful and yet how many days HAS IT been that you took a simple walk around the block? I have a dog and 3 young boys, so I too, like Lisa, take walks daily. I go through phases where I work out in gyms with weights and sweat. Sometimes I dance and do yoga weekly for my exercise. But going outdoors is really the key to health. I have been a climber, caver, hiker and biker. Yet today one of the best ways I know to get my blood pumping and get outside is to walk. I know it’s the simple easy things we do each and every day that amounts to huge results. If I make this big to-do out of going to the gym (post covid doesn’t really allow for that anyway now) I won’t go. I hated being inside anyway. I love going out and even just standing on the ground with my bare feet brings me instantly closer to my real self where I can think, hear, feel and know truth more easily.

Whew, yes being outside is one of my big things I practice as well and hope you are inspired to simply take 20 minutes every day for the rest of your ever loving life to take a walk or just sit outside for a bit! Let us know what you notice please please!

Ok, enough of that let’s move to the WHEN. NOW. Right now. There is no time like now, and it’s never too late to start NOW. No more effing excuses people, just do it rn. I’ve used the saying, “it’s never or now” a LOT to jump off the cliff of uncertainty. And honestly, this goes way deeper than we had time to get into so I’ll interject a little bit more here. We did touch on neuro-science some but cognitive dissonance is the gap between what we know and what we do, or don’t do. It’s the dreaming instead of the doing. I was having a hard time articulating this in the interview because I haven’t spoken about it a bunch but I sure have lived it lots! So here let me say that we self sabotage as an unconscious way of staying in our comfort zones. Whether it’s staying in an abusive relationship, drinking too much every day , eating junk foods, binge watching or whatever vice we cling to, including loveless relationships or shitty jobs, even staying “happy” but not useful or of service, we all have an internal thermostat that goes off when we get too close to exceeding our abundance, love or success “temperatures.” Gay Hendricks calls it the “upper limit problem” in his book The Big Leap and it is well known that once we become aware of how that scenario plays out, we’ll see it play out time and time again. Now, what does this problem have to do with not doing what you want NOW? Everything. Think about it, if you really thought you could, wouldn’t you? If you really believed you deserve a great life, wouldn’t you do the things you knew would move you closer to achieving it? Lisa tells her clients that people often overestimate what they can do in one year and underestimate what they could achieve in three. So this is where the daydreaming turns to dare dreaming. When we reverse engineer the plan into daily actionable steps, we really begin to get excited. We begin to want to wake up earlier and start on time! We WANT to do the next thing on our list (as Lisa keeps by her computer to remind herself to keep doing the next thing when she starts to feel discouraged or overwhelmed.) We start to see results often as little as 14 days or 30 days. 60-90 days of continued effort and focused intention on correct actions is almost impossible to NOT see some kind of positive results! Now listen, overwhelm, fear, resistance and shame or guilt IS ABSOLUTELY PART OF THE PACKAGE, as Lisa says! Yep, just know that motherfucker is gonna come out to play. It’s been there since you were born to keep you alive for god’s sake, so let’s just talk about it so you know how to deal with it. There is nothing I hate MORE than excuses, just ask my boys! I fucking hate excuses! Don't tell me why you are late, I really don’t care AT ALL! Is it that I’m mean or uncaring? NO. I just know what it really is and don't have time to deal kindly with your resistance. Don't worry, I’m gracious most of the time, but really I just see through the bullshit and carry on. I have plenty of my own resistance to tend to everyday :) Excuses will keep us stuck, see them as the killers they are and stfu (shut the fuck up;) about them. Realize them for what they are, resistance or the scary F word … FEAR . Every single person on the planet experiences fear in some form, especially when leaping into our zone of genius! According to our conditioning and upbringing and experiences is how we process or present fear. The thing to keep in mind when it pops up is simply to, “feel the fear and do it anyway” (author unknown and used continuously by successful productive people. I love to say, “ if one can do it, so can another!” So get it together “mature one” and start doing something, anything, today right NOW and love yourself enough to continue to do it tomorrow and the next day and the next. I highly suggest the book Slight Edge principle by Jeff Olson or another book that deals with this same principle of doing the small things over and over to produce HUGE results :)

Last and certainly not least is WHY. Why do this hard and scary, sometimes even seemingly impossible or paralyzing work? Because as Lisa wants to remind you, “It’s your dream and you deserve it!” The world is shifting rapidly, even exponentially and it needs YOU to do the hard stuff and be a part of the shift! Literally, “all hands on deck” the universe is calling to us all! Can you hear it? Then please please answer it with willingness and I promise (as I have experienced, as Lisa has experienced, as thousands of people that we have personally helped already have experienced) promise promise the help will come! When we are so bold to show up and demand more from life, life delivers! Life delivers what we expect it to, there is so much to be said on this subject and I encourage you to dive deep into it to discover exactly what you need. Just becoming aware of the tendencies to put off what we really want is enough to propel one into a whole new reality and when we show up in any small way, the universal door cracks open enough to begin to walk through to the other side. I am begging you to pay for assistance here. You would not try to do an open heart surgery on yourself would you?! Please don't think you are all of a sudden going to be able to create a life you dreamed of when you’re already “of a certain age” and still haven't figured it out! There is ABSOLUTELY no shame in not knowing what to do, only a wasted lifetime with regret and pain when we don’t get help. Please don’t waste one more movement of your precious God given life not living as your wild self that you really are. You CAN absolutely have it! YOU are worth it! You ARE worth it! Lisa and myself and thousands of other women and men have given our entire lives to the service of helping people make it. I continue to put one foot in front of the other each day in order to keep leveling up and create the life I love to live.

MAKE SURE to at least go to Lisa’s site and sign up for her free ebook “Learn how to be lucky on purpose” and probably if you have the slightest inclination you also need to sign up for her self paced home study course for $50 to get your feet wet, seriously, what could go wrong here!

Thank you guys so much for reading and be sure to listen to the brilliant Lisa and kolee live on the Practicalsaint talks cast ! Please be kind and share if this resonates with you at all as well:) We love you soo so much and can’t wait to talk more! 10,000 blessings dear ones :) xo kolee n krew

HI! I’m kolee the Practicalsaint :) I created the blog spot and one stop organic shop www.essentialmind.me Jan 2020 and have been figuring out life since then! I am a retired wellness advocate with doTERRA International where I help thousands of people get off the hamster wheel of addictive prescriptions and nasty synthetic chemical laden products! I now get to interview amazing Practcialsaints all over the globe in order to raise the vibration of Earth consciousness! WHOA. Big deal, big shift, big talks.

I love love love that I have the opportunity to partner with folks who want to do the same in order to continue to get the word out about how we’re all connected and one.

xo kolee www.essentialmind.me

How do possessions actually possess our lives?

essentialmind@icloud.com (kolee Hemenway) — Thu, 24 Sep 2020 17:27:31 GMT

How our stuff becomes a burden instead of assets

Greetings Beautiful Beings. I’m blogging today because I can’t work on my book I’m writing currently this morning. I just need a quick project I can craft and send out to the world as is. No organizing or professional editing. I’m working on the memoirs of a dead man, who’s house I’m living in. Yes, it’s a bit like being an actor who has to take on the character fully to portray the depth of the project. Mommy just needs a break from it this morning. I have an article on the subject of “stuff” and conscious consumerism coming out in the next edition of the Holistic Fashionista magazine plus I just had over $10,000 worth of stuff stolen so this seems like an easier piece to develop this today:) Also, I’m super excited to be working on www.essentialmind.me site, where my original blog posts sit. I want to grow an audience who can come back to read new pieces often and can also shop and find new tools that seriously up level beyond anything we ever considered possible.

As I contemplate these next steps, I see my ideas just as dangerously stacked in a corner of my dusty brain and “possessing” my every thought and action. Not to digress too much here, just know as I talk about possessions, I am speaking about all clutter, seen or unseen. We can have emotional clutter, Idea clutter, people clutter and of course the 3D physical “stuff clutter” this post is about. We must take control of it all by culling what we already possess and keep vigilant watch over what comes in.

Possessions. Why in the world would we label our stuff in this manner? Pick me, I know, I know! Obviously because they truly do possess us. Almost a decade ago, in my early transformation from conservative christain jew to an awakened Unity Conscious person there was a man who talked about stuff being possessed. He got rid of some stuff for some people to assist their evil encounters by burning their stuff. A doll came to life in the fire pit. This is a very strong example yes, yet how does our stuff become possessed? How do we become possessed by our stuff? We give it power over us, over our lives in a very real tangible sense.

How much ‘stuff’ does it take to fill a house; to fill our garages, our attics, our extra storage buildings? How much ‘stuff’ does it take to fill our hearts; to fill the empty spaces within our own Being? Clearly, we’re obsessed with stuff. The storage industry is a huge industry. A quick google search will reveal storage units have grown by almost double since 2010 at nearly a 40 BILLION dollar industry in the United States! House size has also skyrocketed 62 percent from 1,660 square feet in 1973 to 2,687 square feet in 2015, according to the U.S. Census Bureau. We know poorer working class are the main targets of ad campaigns, whereas wealthy people tend to be more minimalistic spending on activities or things that will make money instead of consume it. Not that rich folks don’t deal with the problem of too much stuff, I’m just saying in the grand scheme, commercial brands know the propensity to need stuff to feel good and no one needs to feel better than the people who are sad, sick, poor or non influential in general.

Once we start looking for an item to help us feel better, we’ve crossed the threshold of being possessed by our possessions.

So we have a perfect storm set up, big houses ready to be filled with stuff, extra storage available on basically every corner, a growing gap between the poor and wealthy and civil unrest bringing the need for self pacification. And now we are possessed. We are not in control of our junk, our junk controls or possesses us. I don’t care if it was a million dollars or 2, when the stuff is purchased without thought to how it affects the whole, we are being manipulated. We have a soul tie induced by the exchange of money. Money is a ‘currency’, a current of love or control. It comes in through whatever means we are capable of creating and then it flows out. We chose to use it according to our beliefs, faith, ideas and programming. Nothing happens in a vacuum. Let me say it again, NOTHING happens in a vacuum! No thing happens here, without it affecting you there. When looking at the idea of stuff possessing us, let’s remember the steps attached to each item in our lives shall we? Trigger alert, I have lost a couple friends re this topic, not because I hate people with lots of stuff or dislike poeple who can’t comprehend the unity consciousness or even that I despise people who don’t give a fuck in general about anyone besides their selves but that I have given my word that if I can’t help, I won’t harm. I know these realizations to be so important to the shift we’re experiencing RIGHT NOW 2020 that it’s impossible for me to give my energy (inner gee) to ANYONE who is not on board the conscious consumerism train. With that in mind, let's move forward :)

Imagine your perfect home. Close your eyes and actually envision what your dream space looks like. Or imagine ‘heaven’ and where you would live in the blessed perfect realm of Divinity. Is there dusty chachkis sitting on the shelves or are the closets filled with items no longer wanted or used? Is there so much stuff sitting around that dust bunnies collect in and around it? O, here’s one! What does your trash can look like? I’m a recovering “germ and stuff-aphobe” Covid got nothin on us! I was decontaminating myself and children well before March 2020! I have always loved the look of ‘clean trash, I rinse and keep the trash to a minimum as much as possible (total other article!), which includes stuff brought in that I’m no longer using-- IT’S TRASH or at least it’s give away. I’m pretty sure your vision of perfection did not include junky shit laying around that wasn't being used or hid desperately behind drawers and doors in order to remain until it was too late to be of any good for anyone ever. Did it? Was your trash minimal or overflowing in the bins and streets with flies and maggots aplenty?? Ya, that’s what I thought:)

Now imagine all the stuff you have in the here and now. Think about where on earth it was actually produced and how it traveled to your hands. Think about the greenwash streaming into the nearby waterways. Try to imagine the impact that one purchase makes on the ENTIRE GLOBE, YEA GALAXY, EVEN UNIVERSE. Don’t get overwhelmed, just bring awareness to this very important issue. We must must must realize, in order to move forward as a species, that every single thing we do in our private lives affects every other sentient Being.

Here we look at greed, scarcity and fear. Have you ever been the recipient of some rusty broken down item after someone “lovingly” hoarded it so long it was rendered useless but the person was so guilt ridden (sub consciously) they developed a charitable spirit and gave it away finally? It’s fucking rediculous! How sad that we as humans have been conditioned to think if we give it away, we could never have it again. Or worse, if we bought it in the first place we must hold onto it forever as a kind of possession penance. There are two kinds of garage sales, the kind where people are getting rid of stuff and the kind where people want to make money from their stuff. Which do you like to find? Ya, me too ;) CHARITY! Why is giving our “hard earned” stuff away such a challenge for us? We’re possessed, that’s why. Each and every single item, from our toothbrush to our car or home holds a type of identity for us.

I’m no different. I spend lots of money on things. I have 5 sons, we spend lots on stuff. We spend lots of money on food, outings, education, clothes (in shoes alone!) and entertainment. Spending money isn’t evil or bad, it’s what it is designed for. Living in huge homes isn’t wrong either, I want to buy a castle in europe for god’s sake! It’s the hold that UNCONSCIOUS spending has on us that can become very beneficial or harmful. It’s the possession of the stuff that inhibits giving freely to another. It’s the idea, “I can do whatever I want” that brings us to the horrible condition of our entire earth to date. Before the global pandemic was announced, we were in the throes of losing our entire ice shelf and seeing global warming destroy plants and animals and eventually human Beings. This isn’t some hippy dippy love post, it’s a wake up call to us all to start looking around our own homes and start getting rid of our stuff (sell, give away or landfill) and then for the love of us all, start truly “paying” more attention than money to EVERY SINGLE ITEM WE PURCHASE (or get for free-- another article as well :) Because without this awakening hitting us like a mac truck, the force of the tidal wave caused by unconscious possessions will be far worse and I would predict the event that kills off humans, as we are known, eventually.

I know, it’s heavy. I’m not trying to scare or bully, just bring awareness to this very real issue of stuff:

Realize what we possess, possesses us

Realize everything is connected

Realize spending money is giving ourselves

Realize the fear of letting go inhibits receiving

Realize if we don’t truly change as whole, the whole will die

Quick. Roll Under The Gateway To Everlasting FREEDOM!

Wed, 19 Feb 2020 22:44:12 GMT

Greetings Beautiful Beings :) Cmon, we’re breaking out!

kolee here with another hard hitting story about the way I rolled out of the prison gates of victimization to experience, for the first time in my life, freedom. Ya, buckle up.

I’m really into the ancient practice of paying attention to what the heavens are mirroring here on good ole Blue Green. It actually has been taught and perpetuated that astrology and tarot was evil or bad. I’m not really sure how one would arrive at that notion, since most people who state these types of dogmatic beliefs actually worship and give their entire lives to follow the “God” who created said heavens buuuuuut… ya know, that’s why the practical saint is actually here.. To call out all this non sense. ANYWAY.

Happening RIGHT NOW as I type is a massive transit happening with our closest and favorite star, Sun. Sun is shining it's very powerful and potent light on the gateway labeled “freedom” for the next 6-7 days. The fact that I am sitting down to type a piece is miraculous in and of itself lol and the fact that I am empowered through study and attention to be able to work with this key so actively is enough blessing for kolee to last, gosh, eternally! I’m serious in that it is a HUGE honor and blessing to be bringing this info to you for such a time as this.

So what is freedom to you? I’ve heard it said it’s being happy or not dependent on an outside source, maybe feeling calm or relaxed. This FREEDOM word always either invokes feelings of fight or flight to me! I’m a hardcore survivor of good ole USof A and I know deep deep down that most of us feel this way. MOST people feel in order to actually be free, they will need to do some MAJOR escaping or coping. Escaping because they view the other as the cause of the victimization.

To me, Freedom is the unique state of internal rest, yes relaxation. Feeling relaxed was the way a dear Being described the way she experiences freedom. And here’s the part I find your ego probably-- maybe:) The opposite words sometimes give us an even bigger and more meaningful definition. Opposite Freedom sits Victimization. To live in the state of victomhood automatically puts our little beans outside of Freedomville.

So who IS in charge of which space we choose to reside, pray tell? Is it your mommy or da-da or maybe a boss orrrr our children! Ya, it’s the kids lol. No. In my awesome experience of rolling out from under the prison gate of victimization, I’m the one. It’s me. Heeeere I am. And actually, you are right here with me! WHAHOOOOO! We know just what to do! Or at least we are super close!

THIS TO ME IS TRUE FREEDOM. Okay. It starts with breaking ties with the limiting beliefs that have been falsely programmed into all of us since conception. (sidenote and digress- if thou art ready, go ahead and ask for some help and start to dig deep into the real beginning of this body you are experiencing. It is a journey that is fully supported when one is ready to begin)

For me, the limiting beliefs or lies programmed into my tiny Being was 1. I am not lovable.

2. I am unworthy. 3. I must use force to stay alive. 4. Life sucks and then you die.

( how many have actually heard this little ditty)

I tackled those mo fo's head on and guess what transpired. Freedom. Absolute freedom.

-Point-

1. We must give something to receive something back. Giving ones time and attention will always yield a harvest. Quality, quantity and desired crop is decided at sowing and nurturing time.

2. We must let go or at the very minimum, identify, where we are carrying and re-seeding every single garden bed with the same horrible seeds of limiting beliefs!

IT ALWAYS YIELDS VICTIMIZATION.

3. We must then take ONE HUNDRED PERCENT, that does in fact mean every single god blessed bit, of responsibility to view, play, find, seek, move, shift that shit. Boom.

What else is there guys?! I’m living with the “Dark Night of my Soul Mate” and victimhood could be a FABULOUS place to reside here! How easy could that be. I blame you, you fix it. Done. buuut you know and I know and that’s why I am taking time to type it out, that we ARE actually responsible for what we see around us. ALWAYS. Stick with me @practicalsaint cuz I am fully aware this message sends people into a tizzy. But I am telling you, as a friend, as a goddess, as a hardcore survivor:

When we are able to view ourselves as the change, everything changes and we roll outta the prison gateway of victim stance and jump up into the awesome big wide world of FREEDOM. Stay tuned cuz we actually help you acclimate over here, cuz sometimes the prison structure feels safer and more reliable. Peace luv n light all. Talk soon, kolee

How I finally arrived at Sacred Harmonious Union With Myself- and why it matters.

Tue, 11 Feb 2020 23:05:51 GMT

and why it matters

What is sacred harmonious union and how do we get it with ourself?

And why does it matter anyway!?

After the birth of my 5th son Spring 2014, one of THE largest and most important keys to unlocking my heart, dealing with suffering and ultimately, becoming one with myself was also born. I had been working diligently on emotional trauma called PTSD since my 20’s and already had 4 past traumatic birth stories to deal with, so I was very open at this point in my life to deal with all the yuck so that I get some of the yum going!

Among several other mostly ineffective tools, modalities and protocols I had used in the past to deal with the intense shame, guilt, anger and fear I experienced on the daily, I was also trying EMDR therapy and integrated medical grade essential oils into locating and reprocessing the trauma so my Being could be free to grow with peace and perfect acceptance of my whole self. I was finally able to call myself loveable for the first time in my life! Because I now saw myself loveable, I became more empowered to take care of myself (foreshadow alert, THIS is why/how it matters) I learned and practiced hypno birth and began seeing the sacred femine inside me and around me as Divine Source! I was around beautiful, strong and creative women and was able to begin moving through and transmuting those horrific emotions that year. More beautiful and equally terrifying leaps were ahead of me though, because quite honestly, when we re-program, it’s hard! It’s not always easy, but… IT IS SO WORTH IT! So stay with me here :)

Something special was able to begin to plant, develop, and emerge!

This divine essence was unlike ANY other I experienced, simply because it came from inside me. It didn’t come from another person loving me enough, or doing the right things, or calling or texting or sending stuff! It all came from me! As soon as the insides of me could be free to align through all the healing wholistic work I had WILLINGLY spent time, money, effort and intention with--- I became aware I was and always have been and always will be - loveable.

When my 5th son showed up in a picture perfect silent night type hypno-home birth, BOOM. I was ready. I was empowered and transformed. I took healing for my own and as soon as my body let me recover fully from having a babe just 8 weeks prior, I was gone. I was OUT of my unloving marriage and off I went. Because hey, “if I AM loveable, then I CANNOT live like this!” (add 10-15-2022 this is the case for ANY and ALL relationships/communities/partnerships/etc)

I learned to haul a trailer, packed my shit and went to live in my off the grid cabin I had purchased a couple years earlier. 10 acres - Middle of nowhere Arkansas. NO. WHERE. Like 40 minutes to the PAVEMENT then another hour to walmart or a gas station! 20 min ONE WAY to check mail or school bus or take trash to “curb.” Here I spent THREE YEARS sitting and staring. Contemplating, meeting my spirit guides and connecting with the real self where all is one. I lived at the headwaters of an amazing creek that taught me life. Wild, fierce, unpredictable, predictable, clean, refreshing, playful, beautiful, dangerous, challenging and loveable! So effing loveable!

And now, THIS IS WHY IT MATTERS. It matters that we ALL grasp it and watch as it expands because as we embody it, we realize we really do have the power to heal our own core wounding! Also “up and down” on the DNA strand ladder from generation to generation in order to transmute that shit and repair the broken coding for ourself, others and the

Divine Whole! Yike. Feels important right?

I’m humbled and eternally grateful for this unification process that has dawned in, on and around us! It IS what I consider to be life’s mission, “to bring wholistic healing to myself, others and the divine masses.

So,

#1 I got into sacred harmonious union with myself so I could be free of the constant hardship and pain and frustration I was dealing with! I did things like re-parent myself, practice ancient ways, try a newer modern technique, ask for professional support, read books and join groups, etc. I found myself and I loved who I found, for the first time in my life!

#2 Once I got free, I realized we cannot do for others what we can’t do for ourselves. We cannot GIVE unconditional love, if we cannot give it to ourself first. We cannot see the others pain or comprehend their suffering, if we cannot do it for ourself first. We can’t harmoniously resonate with our Divine counterpart (or community) until we can fully accept and unconditionally love ourself FIRST. I instantly resonated with the entire planet on a higher frequency, thus allowing me to receive higher promises and blessings!

#3 It matters (solidifies into matter) that we cultivate sacred harmonious union (in our cells/selves first) because we vibe others into our world at that frequency too! That’s why it matters! The ENTIRE physical, mental, emotional structure is based on this unseen energy that solidifies or “matters” into OUR OWN PERSONAL existence!

That’s the deal we’ve entered into. Here we are, stay connected & go love your cells! xoxo kolee

hang out on insta with us @practicalsaint and visit www.essentialmind.me often to see what's new with kolee n krew and stay connected with beneficial and sustainable projects and events- get on the VIP list while your there if you aren't already :)

see you around! xxxoo your kolee (and krew)

More from kolee :) Check out the Heal the Inner Child to Heal the World book by kolee fall 2021, on amazon now :)

kolee's EXCLUSIVE interview with Netflix original and doTERRA key note Leon Logothetis @thekindnessguy

Fri, 31 Jan 2020 20:31:54 GMT

Exclusive #dōdiff chat interview with Leon Logothetis- Author, Speaker, Traveler and Kindness Guy!

What's THE DOTERRA DIFFERENCE?? Well, I'm NOT a doctor, but we got essential oils into hospitals and doctor's offices in just 10 short years, so we work with 'em! The main difference is that we brought standardized dosing to the essential oil world AND professionally train Wellness Advocates that can get paid through helping others enjoy the doterra difference safely and effectively.

Who's dōTERRA International? They're largest essential oil company on the planet! That's a doterra difference, there are 1,000s though.

kolee & krew has worked continuously over the last decade to help free the people through natural solutions and already MILLIONS of households EVERYWHERE enjoy the doterra difference in their lives, in their medicine cabinets, in their homes!

Every year doterra hosts the largest convention in Utah state, with about 35,000 other wellness enthusiasts who like dorky science or kind humanitarian efforts or just like to feel their absolute best. This was my EIGHTH consecutive convention, labeled TOGETHER 2019. It takes TWO convention centers (simultaneous live events mind you!) and 3 packed full days to recap a tiny portion from the previous 12 months all about cutting edge science, research, partnerships, collabs, humanitarian projects, etc. It's beautifully done and is just an incredible experience every single year! The product showcase is unbelievable as well. You can talk to the scientist and producers face to face, try ALLLLLL the products, it's truly a one of a kind event and I would be honored beyond belief to have you as my guest as well for 2020 and beyond!

Who is Leon? One of the most moving key note speakers I have ever ever heard was Leon Logothetis @thekindnessguy at the 2019 doterra convention! The message he spoke was so profound to me because I DO TRY AND BE KIND, like all the time and very intentionally. It's actually something I talk and write and think about quite often. His premise is that he was in a typical professional setting making lots of money that led to nowhere, so he changed it. In his documentary on netflix, "The Kindness Diaries," he goes all around the world with nothing but his motorcycle and clothes on his back! He SOLELY relies on the kindness of strangers, Every. Single. Day. and then because he actually doesn't NEED them to help, he rewards their kindness by surprising them with a kind action in return.

Like I said, I have lots to say on this topic BUT this article is about the answers this awesome dude gave me about why he likes and how he uses doterra products!!! I actually woke up one morning with Leon on my mind, I kinda forget now but I actually think I woke up thinking I would like to get a #dōdiff chat with him! And that very day he posted something about doing something scary! I DID! I messaged him and these are his real life, very kind, answers to

kolee's 4 famous #dōdiff questions:

1. What is your favorite doterra difference that you know about?

" My favorite dōTERRA difference I've experienced is the calming/restful effect at night and energizing effect during the day by using dōTERRA products."

2. What is your favorite subscription or club style buying benefit (anywhere with anyone)

"My favorite benefit is knowing my favorite products get delivered to me right as I need them and on time."

3. What would/does your life look like without doterra products & essential oils?

"Without dōTERRA products in my life I wouldn't be able to rest easy from a busy lifestyle."

4. What is a favorite oil or best oil success story you have?

"My favorite oil is the Lavender. It's helped me relax and sleep so much better than I ever have before. I add a few drops to my diffuser along with a few drops to my favorite moisturizer before bed and I am in complete bliss."

~Leon Logothetis

BOOM. I think my work here is done, … I will continue however though, just a teeny bit and say buh-bye.

My personal favorite #dōdiff I experience most every day is that I have a bunch more really cool, easy to use, good smelling (most the time)tools to choose from that are cheap, safe and super effective. I even receive healthy side effects now instead of harmful ones! It's so easy even children see the awesomeness of these cute little bottles filled with plant blood! Check out my 3 little angels, Gabriel, Judah and Asher, and I talk about our favorite times when oils really saved us: HOW YOU CAN FEEL THE BEST YOU EVER HAVE!

You too can receive full wholistic support from kolee n krew! Essential Mind will send you free oils to try, make sure you get the exact oils and products that will help YOUR health issues or goals be realized! Once you become a doterra.com member with kolee, you get a FREE professional and individualized health and wellbeing plan for you and EVERYONE IN YOUR HOUSE! AS WELL AS free weekly oil education and private FB groups so you can LITERALLY have an everyday oil expert in your back pocket! WAIT WHAT?! Yep. DOTERRA DIFFERENCE! See? Stay close and connected and talk soon! kolee

Originally published at https://www.essentialmind.me on January 31, 2020.

The Beautiful Day I Woke From My Coma.

Mon, 27 Jan 2020 16:24:40 GMT

And Why It Matters...

I was life flighted 99 miles that Sunday afternoon to have my skull sawed open to relieve the mounting pressure that rendered my head the size of a pumpkin. A big round softball sized rock had been kicked down from the top of “skull pit” (ya, found that name out after the trauma), landing perfectly on my helmetless head. Head had been helmeted a few moments earlier but I unstrapped it, full of relief when I got to the bottom, and as I dodged one way after they yelled “ROCK” from the top.... Splat. Ya. Head hit. Lady down. I repeat lady down. 6 hours and inches from a hypothermic state down under the ground, wet cold and bloody my then husband of one whole month held me as we waited for the search teams to show up. In and outta consciousness, asking over and over “what happened” they would say a rock hit my head and I would say, “o shit”. I would ask again. I don’t remember the 100ft litter ride to the top of the crevasse we had chosen to repel “one last time before heading home” that fateful day deep down in the national forest of Arkansas. I don’t recall the ambulance ride to the top of long steep dirt road to meet the helicopter. I do not remember the flight to Springfield, MO and I certainly only had body memories of them rushing me to emergency surgery and shaving, sawing and stapling me so my head didn’t explode. They immediately did the craniotomy, which is the only broken bone I’ve ever had, nice one huh. First 48 hours touch and go. My mother and father and friends and family didn’t know if I would live another day. I did. They had me in ICU. They said I would be there for months maybe, no one knew. I was actually in and out of my coma for 7 days, it wasn’t until the following Sunday I actually knew it was a day and I was me in my body. I never had a feeling I was dying or that I was leaving or that I wouldn't be on this earth as me anymore, and I honestly don’t even recal ANY of the outta body time… except I did come back a new person.

And that, my friends, is the beautiful day I awoke from my coma! I had several powerful healers gathering around my bed to lay hands on me and speak words of life and comfort. My right arm and leg shot out and I apparently was back.

I woke up with a “horrible headache” and asked for tylenol, whilst on a morphine drip. Friends were allowed to pay periodic visits, to which I would ask how they were LOL. ooooo.

I was groggy at best and permanently in the present moment at worst. I woke up with a KNOWING and a deep-seated LOVE in my heart, in my body, in my Being,

that I can’t even begin to describe with our human language. Only that for sure for sure, I had come back. For sure for sure I had met LOVE. I called it God and woke up knowing how much god truly loves us! OOOO the feeling of that love permeated my every cell. I had chosen to live. I couldn't help but come back and tell the people how loved they truly are. This is true.

This is real. Who one calls God is different for every body/spirit, soul or Being. It doesn’t even matter who I thought it was then and who I see it to be now. The beauty of the plan is that these words will ALWAYS BE BENEFICIAL. From my ICU recovery bed I spoke to my lovely father who passed 8 ½ years ago about how much God LOVED us when in walked the hospital Chaplin, visibly shaken by the immense power in the room, this one proceeded to do her job and make sure my soul was okay. It was :) I was released 11 days later and spent the next 6 months in recovery at home to deal with speech and physical therapies. I was back to work by May 2002 and got pregnant with star seed Awbra Hemneway Trujillo due to the contraindications of the seizure meds they gave me with my birth control pill. Life goes on.

The pain, the suffering, I went through to receive this awe maze ing message is no doubt, your salvation, it is my salvation. When we know we are truly unconditionally loved by just one other Being, we have already transcended light years and are soaring with our sweet powerful and trustworthy galactic team. When we let this beautiful truth penetrate our every cell, we in turn begin emmenating this glorious love onto other Beings. Energetically it could save the world! Spiritually it permeates our cultures despite the uncanny urge to have it suppressed. This uncharted and exciting state of Beingness can be felt by all who are open to receive it. At whatever level one is ready to hold this dear experience, can and will!

WILL have this love! Does have this love. Love for self, love for others and love for the unseen. My purpose is to wade through 3D shit to get to 5D and beyond awakening and ascension. I have waited so long for these beautiful truths to be ready to bearth and present to you. I LOVE YOU! I love you. EYE LUV U. I luv you. I am you, you are me. We are one, eternally. The werdz that I share are encoded with this other worldly unconditioned love and grace, peace and perfection. Please let this seep in and soak in it for as long as you will. Meditate, contemplate, concentrate on it. Imbue it yoru cells, that it would permeate EVERY AREA of Being. Be the change, be the love you want to feel. Be the love you want to experience! Say I love you to those you do, right when you feel it well up in your very Being. Tell others thank you for their Beings! Time is an illusion, we are here to learn unconditional love for our self, others and the Divine. To connect with one's self IS to connect to others in a magical way. To be with others in a space of non judgement and detachment IS to touch God. Is to have the very essence INSIDE us! I am eternally grateful for ALLLLLLLL the ones I have encountered in my sojourn here on blue green and I am eternally yours! I will always always always look to serve through unconditional love, joy and peace. I am you, you are me. We are one and we’ll be that forever.

Peace love and light to you and yours forever from me and mine eternally!

To Be Kind, Safe, And Respectful To Ourselves First

Fri, 13 Dec 2019 16:24:39 GMT

~based on Reggio Amilia, post WW2 anti-fascist preschool mantra

Can I just say as a middle class native american european mut growing up on the West coast of USA, I was raised by very conservative “redneck” folks who settled the west and stayed there. Northern cali mountains are like any other fairly isolated area in that whatever your parents and grandparents and even sometimes great grands “believe” is the doctrine one staunchly inherits and propagates. Without question.

Growing up, I had NO CLUE there were people that could articulate how they felt and be heard.

I had no idea there was a way to feel anything but frustration or stress or anger when interacting with another Being who wasn’t fully cooperating with my plans.

I hadn’t the foggiest what feeling validated and cared for felt like and

that it could translate into a space where EVERY BEING could be treated and could treat others with kindness, safety and respect. I would guess this a fairly common experience others have, here in good ole ‘merica anyway.

Many a time around the sun did I spend in bitterness, arrogance, separation and suffering over the way I viewed myself, others and Spirit. Seperation. Us v them. If ‘they’ mentioned love, “bleeding heart liberal” was loosely flung like dung. Gays, abortion, guns and the flag were all the major contention points I grew up seeing as set in stone and that the thems that said any thing else EVER were liars and cheats and dangerous. To be avoided and taken down at all costs. Christians mind you! Christ consciousness???? Mmmmm naw bra. Not there.

I felt separation, anger or stress, I blew. Lots. Anytime anyone mentioned any of the above danger topics, chest tightening fear gripped my tiny Being. It just was not an option to receive these floating ideas through an area in my body known as the heart. Even though my family of origin was stanch in bible reading and preaching, they could NEVER be one with anyone, including themCELVES.

THEY were the they I had been fearing actually! I broke out.

Enter my 20s. I ate LSD smoked lotsa canna and partied with the thems and I LUVED IT! I saw energy, I saw unity, I saw unconditional love, I raved and peace love unity respect was preached and felt. I realized there were wayyyy more ways to be and I actually enjoyed the forbidden ones .. a lot. Balance IS a thing and yea… I had a nasty habit of swinging wildly between polar extremes so as I discovered my sexuality, my creativity, my independence and the like I got scared. I swung back to the safety of stifling control, conformity, religion and fear of the thems. The "Thems" switched to the Hippies, Gays, Government, Muslims, Christians, the Pope, Kaballah, uh, even "lighting fire on shabbat" and "eating pig in jello and marshmallows" and MOSTLY having sex in the "wrong way." You guys, weird how the mirror SEEMS opposite when you are looking AT it but turn around and get IN it and WHOA DUDE.

I WAS TRYING DESPERATELY TO FIND A GROUP WITH WHOM I COULD EXPRESS MY DIVINE CELF. But I ended up exactly on the other side looking over again at everyone else who did not do what I was doing. I wanted to be accepted, and it seemed like being like the "real good ones" would give me that. LOL These stories encompass my journey and life lessons that have been wild, rough, slow and long. "If-onlys, shoulds and supposed-tos" ran through me like water. Not the life giving kind that saves us, but the kind that fills our lungs and kills us. I drowned in judgement. Judgment kills. Plain and simple. Judgment of self, others and divine are killers. It wasn't until the late 30s that I was capable, strong enough physically even to 're-do' my 'up-do' and re-train and parent my self. I realized my personal worth, power and glory AGAIN and fled for the safety of yet another community. After 5 years in hippy dippy glory land, the theys turned out to be the same judgement filled self righteous pricks the biblicals had been. FUCK. I couldn’t catch a break! LOL

ENTER: Be safe, Be kind, Be respectful, don’t hurt anyone or anything, if I make a mess I clean it up (right away I added). I moved to town, put my beautiful 'baby Gabey' in a beautiful anti-fascist preschool and lo and (ear muffs) 'befuckinhold'…. I shifted. I swear to you, I have been in 4D spirit since birth, yet through conditioning, I was ‘cut off’ from hearing. I was DEAF to self, others and divine. I've learned so much from that magical preschool and way, I am FOREVER grateful to the thems that yearn to be the change and start early in doing so. The city of Reggio Amillia in Italy started these schools to deal with the aftermath of WW2.

“Our students are prepared to thrive in a process-based, collaborative world. They are inquiry-driven, independent thinkers who communicate effectively and are comfortable finding their own way.” https://www.lascuolasf.org/education/reggio-emilia-approach

I mean, have you seen our government today? THIS IS A BIG FUCKING DEAL.

I in turn learned tools to “ground” mycelf (you see what I’m doing here right? Celf=self… much more on this to come) to be an “in control healer” to detach from the feelings, the e-motions. I learned to spot judgement and ego quickly. Look, I’m not saying that is “bad” either, I am saying that when I started viewing me and them as one… A WHOLE NEW WERLD opened up. One of safety, one of kindness, one of equality. Like heaven ya know. The real heaven that we imagine possible. I learned to breathe through the feelings and use them as mirrors to see where I still was falsely programed. These are the issues, topics and ideas that fuel my writing. THESE are that which will change the world. THESE are those I embody and serve others to find.

Can you imagine what your personal life could look like by living these simple ways?

By simply changing my thoughts toward inclusion, love and teamwork, then and probably only then, could I actually BE TREATED with kindness, safety AND respect! I turned that mantra around and I continue to show how first we MUST treat ourselves with kindness respect and safety to give it to others. I also see that ONLY WHEN others are Being Kind, safe, respectful and picking up after themselves would I EVER WANT to do the same for them. :)

I’m not saying we can’t do the thing that we don't want to do, I am suggesting that if EVERY BEING was kind, safe, respectful, didn’t hurt anyone or thing AND was mindful of how their actions affected everyone else… we would probably have the nirvana we’re so desperately seeking!

And lastly I am definitely stating, on the record, that until we give OUR CELLVES (selves/self) kindness, safety, respect, not hurting ourself or things and clean up after the messes in our life, we WILL NOT, I REPEAT, WILL NOT be able to give it to others.

So, 1. Be kind, safe, respectful, don’t hurt others or things and clean your mess up if you make one. 2. Do that all the time while interacting with others and 3. Treat yourself with kindness, safety and respect. Don’t hurt yourself, or stuff and always deal with the messes in our own life. I amFOREVER GRATEFUL for these lessons! I’m so grateful there are ENTIRE SCHOOLS that teach this concept! We’re on our way to a mass consciousness shift and this practice will take us there with joy, love and light!

Thank you for being kind, safe and respectful and cleaning your own messes in order to live our highest possible! way! Thank you for joining me in my quest for peace luv unity and respect by Being the change where you are today.

I’m here with you. I am committed beyond words to remain in the majestic space of healing and safety, unconditional love and beautiful evolution. We zoom online weekly essential oil talks and help create and coordinate/network global/local wholistic #BusinessSavvyHealer events.

Thank you for being here with me and giving your unconditional to your self, others and divine.

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